Onwards and Upwards!

[Hushabyemountain98]

Good morning. Welcome to my new thread. I hope that all my MN friends will join me and maybe a few new ones!xx

Lol my dad lives next door so no problem with the patio , I thought another bullet missed lol !!!

Well done Kirk for going to the lunch.Takes guts.
But if you didnt enjoy the company I hope the food made up for it.Lol.x

Hello everyone.
Are you all having a nice evening?
I am feeling rather sad.
I have to try and shake it off.
Xx

Hello Hush. I'm keeping busy washing up, getting laundry in, chasing small people off their tech! I'm going to plump up the sofa and have a cup of tea, only tea, nothing to soak into the tea

Hi Hush. Sorry you're feeling sad. Has anything in particular triggered this?

I'm watching tales from Northumberland which is all about my neck of the woods so it's really interesting.

I'm thinking of you. Xx

Hello Pisco,
Glad you are keeping busy. Good luck with the small people and their tech. Have you caught them yet?
Enjoy your slimline tea and relaxing on the sofa xxx

Hi WTAFF.
I hope you have had a good day?
Enjoy the programme about your neck of the woods.
I don't really know. It started when I got in my car earlier. It just came over me.
I just thought that I was part of a couple. Now I am not.
Sorry xx

It's not your fault Hush. Take care of yourself. You will get through this. Xx

Thanks WTAFF. Take care of yourself too. Xx

Hello Hush.
Sorry you are feeling sad.Its not easy.The mind makes us remember the good times more than the bad.What our lives could have been together.And that horrible word(why) keeps cropping up.Really hate that little word.Because there is no answer.What more could I have done?I did so much for him.I loved him.
It would not have mattered what we did or did not do.
These men can never be truly happy as they have something lacking in them.
So,comes a time when we need to start appreciating ourselves.
To give ourselves the best life we can.
And to me,that is the biggest payback we can give them.
And no,you dont have to shake off your feelings of sadness.They are true emotions.You are more than entiteled to feel this.xx

Don't apologise Hush. Shaking off that couple thing is hard. Its what you worked at for so long. But hopefully in the future you'll be part of something else that will bring you happiness. Maybe a job, or a club, new friendships. It will be better.

Evening hush , I understand your sadness and I wish I could make you better , let's be honest all of us have been part of couple for over 30 years , no wonder you feel sad , it's because with have lost our planned future , lost the husbands who are now strangers , have to cope with our grieving children , we have to put a smile on every day when really we just want to roll up into a ball and wake up when you feel better . The pain is like no other that we have felt , and you are in the dip of the roller coaster ride that seems to last forever. 1 hour at a time could be our new motto , 1 day is too hard , just breathe my lovely mn friend ❤️💐🙏

Thank you Timetosay for your kind message.
You are right about the word 'why'.
The thing is he is having a great life with this woman. Flying all over the world to be with her. With not a thought for me or our sons. Trying to make out that I have done something I haven't. He has told his solicitor these things, he has probably told his family the same as I do not hear from them at all. I have been good to them all. When they have stayed here I have cooked everything and done everything I possibly could for them.
I think that this time he has really left me finished. I just cannot accept this.
Xxx
Sorry ladies I will come back later but I am too upset at the moment X

Hope the old ticker is behaving itself Time, look after yourself.
Good night Hush I hope you're ok.
Good night all
Xxx

Thank you PiscoSour66.Im good.Hope you are too.
Hush,thinking of you.Hope you have a good night,s sleep.x

Thanks Pisco. Goodnight xx

Thanks Time. Goodnight xx

How are you Hush? Remember, yesterday is over. Try and hold onto the positives. This will take time as you've got to work through the grief of your lost relationship. Sending you strength vibes!

Take care. Xx

Morning hush , hope you feel better today if not don't over analyse it , do whatever your body feels like doing , I am off work so I am going to have a do nothing day but read a book be use I can do whatever I want now , that's sad at times but also liberating . I am sending you 💐🙏❤️☀️

Evening.
Chiconbelge I hope everything is ok with you x
Hush how are you doing?

Good evening WTAFF, Kirk, Time and Pisco,

I am sorry I have not been on here today.
I am just so down.
I do not want to depress you all.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
I hope you are safe Chicon?
xxx

Hush, you're not going to depress anyone. This is your thread to do as you wish - vent, laugh, cry, scream or simply tell us about your day.

Take care of yourself. Xx

Good evening Hush (and all).
So sorry that you've been struggling. Sometimes bright sunny days can be like a slap in the face when you're down. And I agree with WTAFF - use this thread as you wish. You have experienced an enormous catastrophic loss in your life and although you WILL heal eventually, you're on a long journey. Unlike you, my loss was of a much shorter relationship and of course it was easier to readjust to a different future than I had anticipated.
Hope that you sleep well this tonight and that tomorrow is a better day. xx

Thank you WTAFF for your kind message.
I just cannot see a way out of this.
I had a bad nights sleep.
I went food shopping and my mind goes into auto pilot to buy the things my dh liked!
I then walked around the other shops but it all means nothing.
There is just such a huge void.
I think even my sons are seeing me as a liability!
Here come the tears again.
Sorry!
I hope you have had a reasonable day?
Xxx

Don't worry Hush I still buy food stuff for my H. It's a hard habit to break.