Toosassy, he first messaged me in August and I did see that he had 'hang out' for what he was looking for. We exchanged messages for ages before meeting, and I wasn't sure we ever would. I'd told him so much before we even met. He was easy to talk to.
On our first date I was really taken with him. Very emotionally communicative and attractive. When we arranged to meet the second time I honestly didn't know what he wanted from me, because he hadn't flirted or tried to kiss me good bye on the first date, but I knew I was attracted to him.. We kissed on the second date though. I fell for him. I shouldn't have. I knew the deal. Then we had a chat a day or two later and he gave me the ''i don't want a relationship speech'' followed up of course by ''but we're both adults and we find each other attractive...." I reprimanded him slightly by telling him that that would be torture for me. We didn't meet up for about 3 weeks, and we had another great night, just kissed and hugged and then went home. I didn't contact him until he contacted me, then when he did, we were sending each other messages all the time, but not meeting up. So it felt safe. Also I saw numbers 5, and 6 
They took my mind off him. A bit. When my dc were away between xmas and ny he was here and I've no regrets about that. I really enjoyed his company. Loved wandering around my home town going in and out of bars with him, having him here, in my bed. We had a plan to watch a film but I was the one twitching. My fault again. So, by the time he left I knew the score but it didn't stop me wishing he did want a relationship. We were communicating a lot on viber and skype and I got used to being able to just text him when I felt like it. None of that wondering if your communications would be welcome! Just text your thoughts, and get a nice thoughtful response! Around about this time, enter H, who i thought was the greatest thing since sliced bread but now I don't know, I miss Bear. Which means even if things don't pan out with H, I still have to move on from Bear. Hopefully there'll be another H, if H himself doesn't work out.
Story of my effing life. To me it feels right with Bear but it doesn't to him. Ping ping.