Hey Made
Which do you prefer? 1995 or Made?
ma and faire are confusing me!! 
I'm only joking! I'm pleased to read that you can't 'see' your alcohol, 'out of sight, out of mind.....'
You say that your drinking has increased of late and that you've woken on the bathroom floor.... then decided to try to go dry for a week.
You're putting an awful lot of pressure on yourself with the dieting too.
We used to have a wonderful chap on here called MIFLAW (man I feel like woman!) who said, stop taking/drinking which ever is going to kill you the soonest. Or words to that effect!
I think that you are under enough pressure to worry about dieting and guess what? If you can take things ONE DAY AT A TIME, and stop with the drinking one day, one step at a time, the weight will naturally come off anyway. :) xx
You are in the right place, we've all been where you are emotionally, socially, and physically.
The support here is unconditional and also without judgement. We'll hold your hand through the utterly shite times, and hug you when life kicks you up the arse.... but drink isn't the answer. Not long term for sure.
It's a wonderful short term fix, the physical effects are great, that first hit you get when you start for the day or night, but it's addictive. The same as dropping a Diazepam or two before an exam/interview/date/pressured situation, still gives you the same false confidence, but long term, that crutch has to grow bigger and bigger and bigger until people start to see it, so then you try to hide it more....
You can stop but you absolutely have to want to stop drinking, more than anything else. It will take all of your will power to do it but with the right support, whether than be here with us crazy Babes, your family, your GP, counselling at Uni or going to AA, (it's totally your choice btw) YOU CAN DO IT!! :) xxx