Mutton I could say that about my drinking too - in my case it kept me drinking for years. It doesn't sound as though you've mentally made the decision to stop, because I remember being in that place where I just didn't care enough to say 'no' when going out for drinks. I would often just have one or two, but that didn't mean that on occasion I'd drink way more than other people, have blackouts, and say/do things that had me hiding under the duvet the next day.
Unless you've reached that pivotal point where you know that the cons outweigh the pros, you won't succeed at stopping drinking. Only you will know when/if that point comes. Until it does, trying to abstain just feels like a white knuckle ride in between temptations.
If your head's in the right place, stopping isn't that hard, because at some point inside of you the thought is there that "here we go again". I know people who have abstained for 3 months and then gone back to it, only to eventually end up in the same position they were when they stopped, which is being "sick and tired of feeling sick and tired". Eventually you reach the point where you're able to see ahead - yes, on that first night you pick up a drink you may only have one or two. But a few weeks/months down the line, you're exactly where you were before.
To add, I just read your first post on the thread and it sounds like you were/are like I was - many times when you drink nothing 'bad' happens, but then you have a bender. All I can tell you is it's much easier to avoid this happening if you abstain completely! 