So, the things that I struggle to comes to terms with, even now. I can't forgive my husband for certain things that he has put us through...
Telling my daughter 3 months before he left that he was leaving and hoping she'd tell me to save him the inconvenience of doing so. CAMHS sorted that one out Mr WT, thanks for being such a fantastic "father".
For beating my daughter in my absence and leaving her too scared to tell me.
For cornering me into having a baby, deciding it wasn't what you wanted in the end and walking out, despite all of your "promises".
For utterly disrespecting my Mum, dying and skeletal, describing her as a "waste of space in the corner".
For running away and hiding behind my brother when he confronted you, hiding behind your "partner" like the big man you are.
For allowing OW to abuse me in every way possible and pretend you "knew nothing about it".
For leaving us dependent on state benefits, having spent the last God knows how long complaining to me about your childhood, your social services issues clothes, your parents divorce, your abandonment issues, your jealousy of everybody and everything, yet inflicting ALL of that on the son you claimed you wanted most in the world.
For cancelling the car insurance late at night, not once, but twice, ensuring that your beloved son arrived at nursery soaking wet and freezing cold and your DSD spent the next week in bed due to an issue with her back and a 45 minute walk to school in the fucking pouring rain.
For cancelling all the direct debits, taking the credits, leaving me to pick up the debts.
For stealing the children's shares.
For committing fraud on my bank account with the help of OW who pretended to be me so YOU didn't have to honour DD's birthday present mobile phone contract.
For halving child maintenance, claiming poverty, but while funding flying lessons, jewellery, underwear for your tart, holidays, alterations to OW's house, oh goes on.
For stopping paying the mortgage on THE HOUSE YOUR SON LIVES IN, leaving it to the taxpayer and thinking that is OK.
For sacking me from our family business without notice or pay.
For using your pitiful child maintenance to blackmail me with.
For disrespecting my father, who loved and helped you with a subject that has never been mentioned here, but you still spat on him regardless and my GOD he bent over backwards to help you.
For taunting me about my dying Aunt who loved you and tried to help you in every way.
Sending me pictures of OW's salon floor...pretending you were dealing with a "leak". That was LONG before you claim you started your relationship.
Sending me texts "by mistake", meant for your lovely OW, oh how many of those have there been Mr WT? Very very many...cruelty beyond belief and cowardly at the same time...
For utterly wrecking our families, for putting your parents through everything that you have. They have retired, they should have been able to enjoy their family, their grandchildren, instead they are dealing with all of this. Not how they planned, I am sure.
You defrauded my stepmother's business, thus creating a rift that denied both of the kids the relationship with my father that they deserved.
You two have just caused utter life changing wreckage that has affected everybody....
I really need to stop, I would be here all night. On Sunday I was vindicated in the Police station and released from bail. Indeed I have written a lot of emails, a lot of letters and have sought something, anything from my husband to explain the things he's put us through. All to no avail. He is a weak man with no moral compass.
On Friday he failed to appear in court, thus extending this hell for a few months more. However, I have decided, enough is enough. I have to draw a line, I have to get on with my life.