Hi Babes. Happy Easter Monday. Still in PJs here 
but going to do some exercise after Tesco online shop and then sort out clothes. Just watched Splash with dd 
Well, the swim yesterday did me a world of good, and am beginning to feel a bit better after 6 AF days. Well, nearly. Took dcs out for Japanese food after swimming and automatically ordered a bottle of Sapporo, but only had the one and then switched to tap water followed by green tea. Realise it's not the drink I want sometimes but the oblivion. So the odd beer in a social situation isn't triggering (though wine is) but if I drink for the reason that I am stressed ... well, that's when I don't stop . Realising also that exercise and healthy eating do lift my mood, fact! It's just so hard to do when I'm feeling desperate. Supposed to be back in 'work' tomorrow, but not going in as there's nothing to do. Still stressed about that but am trying to mindfully banish the thoughts as there's nothing I can do atm but wait...
Soooo..... What are we all up to today? Ma hope you are having a bit of a break. Your post about WB and the heating hit home. We constantly have that row, I hate the house being hot (and of course I pay for the heating bills!) and he would have it like a greenhouse cos he is always cold. I find dialling down the thermostat to 1 is effective. Have you spoken to the neighbours about your roof yet? Good luck with it xxx Let us know how it goes...
Mouse how's the whiffy arm? Tea tree oil masks most smells and has the bonus of fighting infection! (I use it when my piercings go gunky - sorry if too much information, but seriously, use a tea tree spray, you won't smell anything else for hours!)
Spanna !!!!!!!! So glad to have you back, have missed you xxxxx Congratulations on Day 7 
Crutched - hope you get to the cinema and enjoy Cinderella. I do so feel for you and wish you would stop beating yourself up; yes, you drank, but your partner set a trap for you which was unforgivable. I think he needs to get off his high horse, frankly. You may still love him, but he doesn't deserve it, what he did was mean, and he knew it would affect the whole family. Look, I have no room to talk about relationships, I put up with a lot of crap myself - too much - but it's a while since I believed him when he said his shitty treatment of me was all my fault. What he did to you was not OK, he goaded and tempted you so he could have the moral high ground. Don't give it to him. OK end of lecture, have some 
now (hands flowers over and sneaks some green opal fruits from Ma's stash for Crutched to take to the cinema)
Small - 100 days is amazing! I hereby introduce a 100 day medal for the bus, with an edible garland of opal fruits as a reward (you eat them and then put the medal back on the dashboard for the next 100 day babe). So you can't give up now or else I won't give it to you! (it's full of GREEN opal fruits. You know you want it!)
Baby, Khalisi, Sweet, Faire/Eggy, Fevvers, Ruby and all of you (can't scroll back atm or will lose post but if I missed your name, sorry, didn't mean to!) - thanks all for your support at the moment. I am working on myself slowly trying to get my confidence back after the work thing, and you are all such a big help. And I am also eating way too much chocolate (feel slightly sick and ashamed ) but hoping to pack that in soon...
Had a go at WB yesterday for spending time with everyone from his moaning mother to his selfish sister and making time for watching footie whenever we go out, but then suddenly finding 'work' to do (his pretend writing job that earns no money ffs) when I suggest doing something as a family. So he has made big thing of asking me what I want to do today (on Easter Monday when everything is closed, with two teenage and pre-teen kids) and then said 'don't moan and throw it back in my face if you can't think of anything'. He just doesn't get it that it's his general attitude of using me as a cashpoint and putting the family last behind his stupid pretend life that pisses me off. And getting cross with me being in the house when I have no reason to go in work. Think he would rather I sat in the office from 9 to 5 every day so I wasn't in the way. Everyone else goes out with their families, for meals, walks, cinema trips, days out. I know, I see the smug facebook posts! Every bloody day. I have to beg the wanker to come on a family holiday that I pay for. His sister offered to buy us a meal for our anniversary 8 months ago and we've still not been. I don't want his company but it would have been the only meal out we've had in about a year that I've not paid for. If she'd offered to pay for him to go to the footie with ds, or even take his mum out, he'd have gone the same week. It's not even that I want to spend time with him, it's that he makes it so obvious that he finds it a chore being anywhere near me but won't piss off. I mean at least pretend you aren't just here for the money, wankbadger! Grrrr....
Am actually going to take a leaf out of Khalisi's book and go for a run now to work off my rage ....
Enjoy the bank holiday all... see you later xxx