The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Shaking Off The Winter Blues And Getting Out Our Booze Free Summer Shoes!

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Hello, tis me, Mouse

Welcome to the Bus. It's a Bus full of drinkers, non-drinkers, occasional slurpers, sneaky sippers, we're all a very different bunch but we ALL have the same thing in common.

Alcohol.

We all have a story or two to tell, we have all been through some terrible times, some more than others and we all have our reasons for drinking or even not.

The one true wonderful thing about this Bus is that we don't do judging!! We're all on a even playing field, no matter what has brought us to this thread.

So, if you'd like to talk, then talk. If you want to lurk and see how we work for a while, that's cool too :)

The Bus is never full, there's always is room for YOU.

And, if you'd like to see what started this off, amost good 5 years ago now, have a look at A TRULY AWESOME HEARTFELT THEAD HERE

And our last thread is just here too for those who would like some more history THIS IS WHERE WE'VE JUST BEEN

Hope to see you soon :) xxx

Ma, he's in the best place though.

Ma big hugs. I do think a trip to the doctors would be a good idea. You are anything but a moany bitch, you are a heroine, coping with massive stresses with superhuman strength and good humour, and it is just too much to carry alone. ADs or CBT - or just someone to listen to you explain how you feel (besides us of course) may just be the answer for the moment. I honestly don't know how you manage to cope so well with all you have on your plate, but there is nothing wrong with you my lovely. You are amazing and fabulous and I wish I could just drive Gerald to your house and scoop you up and take you to a sunny beach where we could sit and chill out until the storms of our lives blow themselves out. Hugs

Please check in later and let us know you are ok xxx

Khalisi you do make me laugh! Fancy coming to visit and sorting my life out for me? I will just sit back while you destroy my enemies and then we can go for a run and then eat cake and put the world to rights!

Sweet - eeek! Your pup is soooo cute! And so big now. Have you had him in a growbag?

Joey good luck with your garden. I have been out in mine all day today and it is still a bloody overgrown mess. But I am happy pottering about pulling up sycamore shoots from next door's trees and sweeping leaves; am not striving for anything great, just a clear patch to put my sunlounger on, and some attractive things to tempt the bees!

Going to chill out now with a green tea and the last of my Lindor mini-eggs!

Night all xxx

That'll be the cat shit he's been eating, Hope .The sweet darling slept too much after his vet visit, so he is going bonkers at the moment, humping DH's leg, running around the house and biting DS's gruffalo slippers which I have taken to wearing so that Pup will find them comforting to sleep with. (Animals seem to make me do the stupidest things)

This one's for you Ma a bit of cheese from the 80s - get your crimpers and black eyeliner out I think we could all do with a dance

Ma sorry hadn't seen your post about your Dad, he is in exactly the right place for care and recuperation, they are the professionals. Try and keep your mind off it, focus on something positive hunky military men with rippling muscles maybe

OMG, Spanna! Second year of senior school and lunch time school disco (5p a time to stay out of the cold)

You're all very welcoming and kind:) thank you.

Tonight is my first AF free evening for a while, and I haven't missed my usual glass. I've been drinking badoit instead as I don't like juice/ soft drinks or flavoured teas, so I thought it was a good substitute. I feel really tired though, and I've started a vit b suppiement to help. There is no drink in the house. And I was at the shops today so I was quite pleased I didn't crack. It's too easy to buy alcohol, it's everywhere!

I'm doing jobs I have been putting off for ages to fill the time and distract me, and I do feel I need to reward myself which is ok, I think, so I have bought a loads of charity shop books to read in the bath. If I get there- im so tired.

Evening all, tis me, Mouse

Could you smell me before I started to post? I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FED UP OF MY ARM!!! The place I do volunteering work have now covered me until May, even if my cas comes off earlier, so that I rest.

Bless their hearts, they mean well but just dot't understand the work involved in caring for a disabled child.... it's not a case of resting. Nemo went to sleep at 12.15am last night!

I can't cuddle him properly or bathe him, play with him, swim with him, mess about because of this constant, nauseating, ache that is "My Left Forearm!"

I am going blog one day, I swear I am!!! I tried to set one up the other day and failed miserably.... it just kept asking me the same bloody questions so I gave up, and felt utterly fed up, sorry for myself so I had a jolly good sulk for a while.

Again.

Well done on reaching 100 days to the Bravest Babe whose name escapes my shitty, medication drowned brain who deserves a medal indeed - I'm sorry I forgot who it was. I am a Ninny of the highest order....

I stayed in bed for the most part of yesterday. I was up for each hour on the clock the night before. I just can't sleep, get comfy or even switch my head off!

Last night I bathed with a Mickey Mouse Disney Store bag on my arm.... I've never felt so useless but by Jeff clean, freshly scrubbed skin and hair, then into clean PJs, and clean bed, well, who needs booze???

Just off to put Nemo to bed.... I'm hoping to be bac before Wednesday........

sorry can't resist, so much energy and he is simply mad, yet genius, love the moves - travelling down memory lane this evening

Early nights are really good, and necessary for the early days, Lavender. It's a bit weird but have you tried a drop of peppermint essential oil in fizzy water? Refreshing, not sweet, and keeps everything else from tasting nice! Well done on day one.

Night all.

Night here too............. my child has insomnia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Before I go to sleep, in an effort to cheer up Mouse and out-cheese Spanna, I found this, the cheesiest, weirdest video from my 80's memory box. But ... imagine my horror at discovering that Nick Heyward looked like a young Nigel Farage Go on, look. (shudders)

That is freaky, Hope! Pup is sat looking at the computer doing the head-tilt (wtf) thing that dogs do

Anyway, Morning. Another glorious one here.

Morning Sweet I can visualise pup at your pc, how cute Not so glorious here up the coast in Sussex maybe it will burn through! Typical as it's my day off but at least it's not raining, I suppose. Have you got a continuation to the erection today Sweet?

Hope that was the weirdest music video ever

Day 9 today and not so much boing, think work took it out of me yesterday

Mouse I hope Nemo got to sleep eventually, it's so difficult when the evenings get lighter to persuade little ones that it's time to go to bed, I remember it well. 'it's not dark mummy it can't be time for bed' plus the excitement of not being at school! I hope you have a restful day ahead

Oh and spots have appeared on my face, oh joy, I really don't like this stage of AF

Have a good day all xxx

Morning, darling Babes!

Hope, oh yes, babes! We can play good cop/bad cop!
(the fucking easter bunner things are gone!!!!
(Note to MNHQ - Easter time only ends on coming Sunday at 00.00!!!)

Sweet one of the best things they do!
When I'm not impressed I lift one brow, frowning. I used to have a dog that imitated me whenever I did, even if he was playful the moment before! Now that really freaked people out! Like haha oh wait, whaaa?!

Ma one of the problems with being a strong person is that always often the people around us don't realise when we need to be taken care off. To add to your situation, you're in a relationship where you can't ask to be taken care off.
There is nothing moany about needing to be taken care off.

Have a good one, Babes.

Morning, spanna, babes! Sorry about the spots. But you know what follows that?! The glow!

Forgot to say, sweet be ready to be stopped every few meters when you finally take Pup on walks because he is to die for!

Khalisi I'd forgotten all about the glow it's been so long what are you up to today babe? have a good one lovely x

Ma I agree with Khalisi Hope you're ok babe

Spanna, is there a greenhouse version of Viagra? I think it may be what we need . Can't wait to be able to take Pup to West Wittering. At least once the spots go, you'll be all glow-y and fresh, and the weather is keeping you young too .

Khalisi that is brilliant!

X posted!

Pup will be in heaven, Khalisi, he LOVES people, his whole body wiggles when he wags his tail. He gets particularly excited when he sees small children, loves our neighbours two small boys.

You have to phone our gp at 8.30 to try and get an appt. I started dialling about 8.25 and got the engaged tone constantly. Finally got through at 8.35 to be told no appointments today Thursday or Friday. Great.

Oh my god, sweet! I'm sitting here looking very weird grinning, imagining Pup being all oooh! a cuddle!!!

( Spanna, is there a greenhouse version of Viagra? I think it may be what we need )
SWEEEEET!!!
spanna you have versaut sweet!

Thank you! Thought they'd disappeared (because they're not down there anymore!)

x-posted, ma

Thanks for starting a new thread, Mouse! I panicked initially when I saw the old one had run out. V glad the bus is still rolling on. I'm on day 39 sober now - woo hoo! But school holidays are HARD. This thread and my blog www.mummywasasecretdrinker.blogspot.com keep me sane. Thank you, and please keep on motoring! SM x

Morning everyone. Its a sunny one here, hope the sun comes out where you all are if it is not shining its head off already.

Ma brilliant that you rang the doctor but I'm so sorry they didn't have any appointments. Ours usually has some emergency ones at the end of the day - is there anything like that where you are? Can't bear you having to wait.

Sweet let us know when Pup goes for his first walk and we will all come with you in spirit! So exciting.

Spanna boo to the spots but fingers crossed for the glow. Which sounds like the beginning of a bad sci fi series - come to think of it, the occupants of this bus would make an awesome if improbable bit of tv - Gerald and the Glow. Btw Spanna - my app has gone haywire and seems to have morphed into dollars not sterling - boo - so I can't give you an accurate fix as you asked for upthread, but it is definitely hovering over the £1k mark now.

Mouse I can smell you from here . Seriously, so sorry about your bad sleepless night, hope Nemo got some rest and obviously you too. Is he happier now its the holidays or is the prospect of going back to school bothering him? Really hope he is ok. When does pongy cast come off?

Lavender how are you feeling this morning? You should be really proud of yourself - first AF night in a while is definitely something to celebrate! Hope you can kick on from here.

Khalisi you are sounding really boingy - go girl! I have a horrible feeling you are sprinting up mountains again, which makes me feel very tired. I might stagger to a pilates class later - that's about the extent of my exercise at the moment, swimming aside.

Currently obsessed with the weather forecast for our holiday - have checked about 14 different sites this morning and they all say totally conflicting things. One thing is clear, it is going to rain. Another thing is clear - I am NOT going to drink..

Day 98. I am so excited. Not quite sure why as will be in transit for most of the Big Day, the DC will obviously and rightly be oblivious and whilst I will tell DP, since he doesn't really understand the enormity of my drinking issues, he quite understandably won't get the significance of the milestone. Thanks for the metaphorical bunting, Sweet! I definitely think of it as your day too as you have shared so much of the journey (and now I sound like I am in a low rent reality TV show).

DD (6) asked me in a restaurant at the weekend whether I was having wine with my lunch. DP said 'no, Mummy's not drinking'. After a long pause DD said very sadly 'but we don't want her to get dehydrated and die, Daddy'. And in a nutshell that's where I am at. I was definitely on a pretty grim downhill path with the amount I was consuming. And now I can - touch wood - look forward and tentatively see a future where drinking is just that - water to sustain life, not wine to take it away. I want that for every single one of us on this bus and I will do all I can to get there.

Blimey, the sun has got to me. Waves to all. Off to do some work before I dissolve into a puddle of sentimentality.