A thread to say something you can't in real life!

[Sodthisagain]

To my not so dear sister
Fuck off to the far side of fuck then fuck off some more! I am not the scheming, money swindling bitch you have insinuated I am today and will no longer going to be your doormat to shout at when you are stressed!!
Oh and don't forget fuck off!

There that's better :-)

To my half brother, I despise you. You are arrogant & stupid, a winning combination that makes you a complete fuckwit. Your parasitical relationship with DM makes me sick & I have neither forgiven nor forgotten the vicious beatings you carried out on me when I was a child. You were 3 years older, you were a nasty evil child who has now turned into a sociopath.

To DM, stop boasting about your son. He is a fat useless criminal not the golden boy you like to pretend. At your 90th birthday party he was wearing an electronic tag & had to go to court to get permission to be there.

Oh & when he was a teenager & shot someone it wasn't the victim's fault for "running into the bullet".

To my father,

I have no feelings for you whatsoever. Except pity. I pity your stupidity. Because of your pompous, selfish and arrogant attitude you have lost your only daughter and 5 grandchildren. I will sigh with relief the day that you die.

To my mother,

I don't have a single happy memory of you. I could cry thinking about the abuse I've suffered from you. I can't believe I ever let you back into our lives, it was probably one of the most stupid things I've ever done. I don't know why I allow you to play me. It won't happen anymore.

To my grandad,

I wish you were here. You were my best friend and I miss you every single day.

To my ex,

Karma will get you one day you selfish son of a bitch. And I will be right there rubbing salt into your wounds.

My husband couldn't get leave so we had to cancel the holiday booked in May half term. He managed to get the week off before so while ds is in school he will still get the down time.

I think my father will die that week. He is losing weight very fast and I am getting more and more worried. He is refusing medicine.

I don't know if I can take much more. I don't think DH can take much more.

Dear person.

Please stop babying the child in question and then start getting frustrated with them when they act in a babyish manner. It isn't fair to encourage him to be babyish one minute and then tell him off for it the next.

Dear other person.

The child in question is badly behaved because you let his bad behaviour slide all the time. Don't slag him off and call him difficult because of it. I appreciate that some children are more spirited then others, but you have had a hand in how this has turned out. He isn't a 'bad' child.

Dear other person.

Please stop talking with your mouth full. Nothing you say is interesting enough to justify it.

To my children, I am so sorry that I haven't been the best mother in recent years and that I didn't find the strength to leave your father sooner. I love you all so much and we are going to be ok. I have tears rolling down my face thinking of all I let him get away with. Every night when I check on you before I go to sleep I tell you I'm sorry and kiss your little faces x

To my boyfriend, you have shown me that there are still some wonderful men in the world and I am falling in love with you.

You are wonderful to my children and I and I'm so grateful you came in to my life.

To my mum, I'm sorry I don't ring you very often. I'm going to ring you now.

There's some really sad stories here. I hope writing them down brings some relief.

I really hope that everyone has been able to move on from the bad, sad, evil things have happened to them.

Living well is the best antidote to the pain you ( and me) have experienced.

Every day that I am not six feet below the soil is a blessing.

I've got a long journey ahead of me today. I might even write my own.

DB,

Quite simply, you're an arse. I have no idea what our parents have ever done to deserve this sort of behaviour, other than support you every step of the way. It wouldn't hurt you to send a simple text or email to wish your niece happy birthday or, for that matter, for SIL to even acknowledge that DD exists.

I wash my hands of you. I'll be polite if/when we have to meet again, but that's it. If you want to act like you have no family, so can I.

To the sperm donor. You are woman beating, child abusing prick and I hate you with every breath in my body. You screwed my life up forever and not a day goes by I don't think about it.

To my ex husband. You put me through more in 9 years than most people go through their entire lives, whilst knowing how damaged I already was. I lost absolutely everything because of you, yet you refuse to take any responsibility for your actions. But I will pick myself up, and I will be better because I am a survivor and I always have been. And by the way, you were shit in bed and I faked it. A lot.

To the new, decent, normal guy. I'm falling for you and I'm fucking terrified.

Mum, stop doing silly passive aggressive things like insisting on cooking a roast because you know it's my favourite (it is) but then leaving out the thing you know I like best. No one else notices but I do and I am bored to tears with it, it just increase the distance between us that you're angry about in the first place.

Child at dd's school - I've tried killing you with kindness so you won't be mean to dd, play dates, invited out for treats etc, it's not working. One more nasty, spiteful little thing done towards dd and I am may well lose it and give you the telling off you deserve.

Everyone. Yes my kids really do BOTH have autism, no I am not unlucky, they're brilliant. Now fuck off and stop staring at dd, she's stressed enough as it is.

To mum,

Yes I am angry at you, angry about the fact that I've suddenly realised that I'm not okay with you having an affair and leaving dad when I was 12, splitting up the family home. Am I not allowed to be angry just because it was so long ago?

I'm angry because you chose a complete idiot to have that affair with who was emotionally abusive and a shit step-dad to me. Even though it was all really shit, you seem to think that a holiday now and again made up for it... it didn't, it was shit, and I hate you for arguing in front of me and my step brother for so many years. It affected my school life, I became depressed and didn't socialise anymore. You didn't notice.

And yet, you haven't learnt a thing! Your 3rd husband is a complete twat who has been rude to me and ignored me multiple times, yet you insist I see you both when you visit as he's your husband.

Well I don't give a flying fuck! I've cancelled the planned visit for tomorrow and I'm not texting you back.

& don't be surprised when I get angry when you mentioned in passing that my sister said she forgot Mothers Day because I usually remind her.. what a load of bollocks!

& to my sister, no-one gives a flying fuck about "OZ", we all have our own sodding lives to live and funnily enough, you can't be that happy as you have never had a bloody boyfriend for longer than 2 weeks, and never met anyone is the bloody fantastic "OZ"... So piss off telling everyone how great it is, when we all know you're a self centered, bullshitting, ignorant person.

MIL - no, you're never going to be allowed to look after my daughter on your own, for so many good reasons.
Mainly though, because you failed to protect your own daughter from abuse, didn't believe her when she told you, and continued to stay friends with her abuser.
You can see DD, and hold her, and play with her, but I just don't trust you.

Dear F,

I dreamt about you again last night. I still can't stop thinking about you. You haunt my dreams, thoughts and I see you when you are not there.

I wish I would have gone with you that day, I regret it so much. Just thinking about you and the fact I probably won't ever see you again makes me feel like crying and banging on your door.

We were made for each other, we really were. Please take care of yourself.

To my brothers and sister dad had got dementia, even though he wont admit it he is dissapearing in front of us. Mum is terrified but she has only admitted it once. Please stop running in the other direction, believe me nothing they did was ever that bad (if you could read these posts you would know), they just raised 4 kids as best they could. Please before its too late. Or maybe you will be relieved?

Oh this is going to be so cathartic...
To ExH, you are a selfish bastard, you left me to keep your family together when your mother was brought home to die, allowed me to comfort your sister and help care for your mother, all the while you were fucking that cow, yes her with the smug look all over her face, a face I would dearly like to punch. Taking the moral high ground quite frankly, kills me. She has trapped you now, you will have another baby soon, but you can't afford to pay for the four babies you made with me. I cannot wait for the day when I am no longer financially dependant on you and am so gutted at the 20k plus debt you've left me with and my bankruptcy.

To my DB on/off girlfriend, you are a cunt. I hate you, you have left my brother with nothing. He has no home, no money, no job and no self respect left, but he still runs after you even after all you have put him through. I know you have both lost a baby, and my heart aches for you both, it really does, but I still hate you.

To DB, get off your lazy fuckin arse and sort your life out, she is nothing and you will never be happy. Get a job, get a life and stop thinking the world owes you, you are entitled and it pisses me off!

To my mum, I love you so much, but I can't keep living my life with respect to your future. I have my own future and my own family to look after. I cannot hold off on hopes and dreams because you can't cope with me not being there for you everytime you need.

To my current partner, I am sorry I left it so long for us to start again. I know you were overwhelmed and you have beaten yourself up everyday since and I have made you live with that for over a year. We should have talked it through at the time. We can't waste anymore time. You are amazing and funny and caring and I'm sorry. I'm excited about out life together....thank you for holding on to us for so long.

To my dad,

You have four wonderful grandchildren that you have never seen. I tried to build the bridge again and you acknowledge it's your fault so why can't you meet me half way? I thought we had started to have a relationship again, clearly we aren't on the same page and I want you to just let me know why...

Hannah Osman - You are my world- I love you.

if only I had the guts to actually say any of this!

To my OH

You are really not as wonderful as you keep telling us you are. Constantly singing random rubbish every time anyone utters a trigger word...think 'summertime' if the word summer is said and so on for sooo many words....its not amusing or witty its pathetic and attention seeking. I could list everything about you that annoys me but I would be here all day but I will mention the heaving and sighing you do...I am supposed to jump up and ask what is wrong and all that sh*t. Well I used to and you always said nothing was wrong, well if that's the case stop acting like such a drama queen!

You are a total waste of space and your children despise you...with reason. I am lucky they accept my reasons for staying and don't blame me but I wouldn't stay if there was any way I could go.

That felt so good! Now I just need to practise till I can really say it!

To my STBXW - just fuck off you nasty, evil, vindictive and unbelievably greedy bitch. If I never see or hear from you again it will be too soon. I will never ever forgive you for what you did to me and our children.

To my DGF - just make your bloody mind up and stop dragging everyone through the shit

To my Mum - I'm genuinely sorry that you're so ill and may not see next weekend but, honestly, I don't know how I feel about it. Will I miss you when you're gone? No, sorry - you've been out of my life for so long.

To my Bro - thanks for being there for Mum and thanks for not judging. You mean more to me than I have ever told you.

Dear A

We didn't know each other when your late wife was alive, but I can see that your loss continues to hurt so much. I hugely admire the courage you have shown in starting to build a new life for yourself after going through the worst of times. Far from being selfish or self-absorbed, you are a good son, a wonderful father, a thoughtful friend, an asset to our community.

We have spent a lot of time together lately, and I am falling for you. I know that you enjoy and seek out my company, but I don't know whether you are truly ready to love and be loved again. I am scared to ruin our friendship if you are not, so for now I will be the best friend to you that I can be, and content myself with holding you tenderly in my dreams. I wish you sunshine and happiness.

Love, S

to my husband

You just don't understand how I feel. I haven't got 'an attitude' that needs to change nor am i 'antisocial'. I need to go to the doctors but I'm scared. I need to book in with the midwife but I'm scared. I dont go anywhere because I'm scared. The thought of people judging me and talking about me terrifies me. It makes my heart race, stops me breathing and turns my legs to jelly. there's something wrong with me. I need help. I need something.

perhaps I should tell him?!

Dear DH:

I would like to teach you a word. The word is NO. If your students come up to you and want to meet, but it's 6 PM, you tell them no. When you get home late, it's hard to get dinner and get DD to bed at a reasonable time. I know you're not a morning person and don't work standard hours, I can deal with that. But getting home late and having dinner late isn't working now that we have a 2.5 year old.

You have tenure. They can't fire you for not working all the time. They are more than happy with the work you are doing. I didn't mind if you worked all the time when we didn't have kids, and I didn't even mind so much after DD was born but I wasn't working. But now that I'm working and pregnant with another DC, it's a problem. I would like some time to do fun things for myself. I would like some time to catch up on sleep- I'm not a morning person either, but I still work a job with standard hours, and I need to make up some of that sleep I lose. I feel bad about asking you to watch DD when you are working. I need you to not be working all the time.

Dear MIL, I really like you. We are very different people, but you are a nice person and you are so amazing with the dcs I think you're great...

But...

Your other son is a selfish shit of the highest order. He dumped dh overnight when dh met me. Dh actually thought BIL was his best friend. Since then BIL has befriended dh's ex. The ex who told dh how useless and pointless he was every day for years, who distanced him from friends and family (including BIL), who made him believe he was nothing, that ex. The ex who funnily enough hated BIL and slagged him and his wife off constantly for being common.

And now, MIL who I like, after dh has made numerous attempts to reconcile, after we invited him to our wedding even though he had never been anything but rude to me, you call us to say that BIL will be there when we next visit, and not to worry, because he has agreed to tolerate being in a room with us.

tolerate being in a room with us.

So when dh said that he would not pretend. That he would love to sort things, but will not sit there and play happy families, how dare you, MIL who I like, how dare you say that it is dh who is now causing the problem?!

We really wanted to come and visit. We wanted to show your new grandson off to all the family who haven't met him yet. We wanted to see the new house and catch up properly.

But now I don't want to visit. And sadly nor does dh :(

Dear BIL, you are a cunt. An utter utter cunt. You couldn't stand that your little brother was happy for once. That he wasn't coming to you with his problems, that he wasn't suffering the way he's supposed to. Dh misses his nieces terribly. We don't even know if you pass on their birthday presents to them. You don't even acknowledge our children. Last time you spoke to dh you even got one of their names wrong. I'm not going to pretend to believe you didn't do it on purpose.

I would love to be in a room with you. I would love for your family to see gentle, liberal, non-sweary YKNOTC, tell you that you are a coward and a cunt and that we all wish you'd been braver when it came to emigrating and not run back home after a week. What kind of dick must you have been for you to find Canadians unfriendly?!

Oh and I know you plagiarised your dissertation, and that tattoo you have which your wife thinks says something life affirming, actually says your ex girlfriend's name :o the ex girlfriend who wasn't an ex when you went on holiday with her when you first started dating your wife. Hilarious!

Dh really thought you loved him :(

He's got to a place of anger now, rather than sadness. He finally sees you for who you actually are, a sad bully who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing.

MIL I know you blame BIL's wife for the falling out. I know you all say "she's changed him", and as much as you wish that was true, from all I've heard, it's not. You can't blame your DIL for the decisions he has made. He's a big boy now. I very much hope you're not throwing any blame my way either.

Sorry, that wasn't very interesting, but it was good to get it out.

To the OW, now pregnant with your husband's baby, do you really think that a child will save your marriage? I hope the little fucker rips you in two on its was out, bitch.

DH: You could take lessons from 2.5 yo DD on saying No. She's rather an expert on it.

Son, I love you, but I really wish you'd cut your hair!