A thread to say something you can't in real life!

[Sodthisagain]

To my not so dear sister
Fuck off to the far side of fuck then fuck off some more! I am not the scheming, money swindling bitch you have insinuated I am today and will no longer going to be your doormat to shout at when you are stressed!!
Oh and don't forget fuck off!

There that's better :-)

To A and B.
I thought you were my friends.
Now you don't speak to me because my child is doing better than your DCs.
This is not because of favouritism, but because my DC works hard, is kind, polite and helpful, both to her teachers and to the younger children she is asked to support.
Your DCs have been given every opportunity to take part and succeed, but they have spent their time gossiping and messing about, they have refused to make the effort to achieve when they have been offered the chance. They have been rude and disrespectful to their teachers who actually have no option but to continue to offer them support, even though they are sick of their behaviour.
I used to wonder why your DCs behaved so badly, but now I can see exactly where they get it from.

Dear Mum,

I'm sorry that putting my happiness over your pride is such an issue for you. I'm sure none of gives two flying fucks about whether I left my uncaring prick of a husband for another man who treats me like a queen, but you just keep on lying to them about me to protect your stupid so called reputation.

My new H2B was spot on when he called you a sour faced old witch who can't bear to see her children happy. My sister already moved 50 miles to be away from you and now you've done this to me. I can't stand the fucking sight of your sanctimonious face.

Oh, and you look like Gok Wan. So there.

Bf...

Cancelling our plans for our anniversary because previous OW 'needs' you at work (voluntary) is not making me feel valued. Offering to make it up to me by taking the day off on the one day I'm at work and badgering me not to go in even though I have a review with the supervisor does not make me feel you value my contribution or me either.

Dear "stepmum"

You are a raging bitch and I hate you, I can't believe the total 180 you have performed since by darling dad passed away, your total disinterest in your dgc amazes me, you are a cold hearted bitch. Your money grabbing knows no bounds and looking out for your real children by selling asserts and giving them money, so by the time it comes to your will there will nothing left.

Dear mum

I adore you but it's time to grow up and look after yourself, your children are tired of parenting you because you're to lazy to behave like an adult

Dear sil

Just stfu serious you are a total moron, your advice is not wanted or needed and quite frankly is beyond stupid. I am sick of you trying to be involved in our lives to the point of unbearable. I am sick of you treating my ds like a second class member of the family over my dsc, you never see him ever and don't know him.

Dear ex
You still manage to break my heart everyday when I hear our DC cry themselves to sleep because you cannot be bothered with them, it's your loss but how on earth can you have more children when you don't give a fuck about the ones you've already got. You hurt me so much!

Dear D
I've fallen in love with you too, and to be honest terrifies me!

You really are a vain, know-it-all, ridiculous woman who whines and moans and gets hysterical if you can't shop all day long rather than look after your spoilt children. You have made X's life a misery and I've come to the end of the road now.
You think you're so great, compassionate, caring and lovely. I know it's all fake. You are selfish, self obsessed and think everyone likes you. They don't.
I've tried so hard with you. You've chucked in my face. You know what? I'm gone. You've lost out, you ungrateful, disrespectful, hate filled bitch.

Dear mum
It breaks my heart to watch you destroy yourself with alcohol and cigarettes.
I saw your dad do the same and so pretty sure I know how this is going to go.
You are massively and heartbreakingly dependent on alcohol.

Dear Dh - Please understand why I done it, I know you do because you're not stupid. Our relationship has been in trouble for a while now and I have done all I can to 'fix' us. You tell me that there's no issues, you are happy with our situation but you KNOW I am not.
I'm shocked that you were surprised a few days ago when I told you it was over and I'm leaving - you knew it would come to this, I made it clear many times.
After what has happened with my poor mum recently - It's slapped me full in the face that life is too damn short. Too short to allow myself to continue living in an unhappy relationship where you ignore the problems. I'd rather be alone, broken, with nothing it's better than living a lie.

I am completely alone and I can't cope with my life. I don't resent other people having their lives but it's gone beyond silly now how much things are a struggle for me. I'm not very brave or resilient.

To my (much) older lover. You are right. I rely on you too much. I should have the confidence to try to find someone closer to my own age; I should probably even try internet dating. Your telling me that just makes me realise that you are a decent man with my best interests at heart. I hope I can find another one as good as you. X

To everyone,

You never ask how I am. You talk and talk and talk, you never take my advice, you cut me off when I am speaking and actually I am dealing with some pretty large situations right now and I don't want to talk about your period for 2 hours on a call I am paying for, or hear about the same argument you have with your boyfriend everyday.

Dear FIL

You are a twat and a waste of space. Your son is such a wonderful, sweet and caring man and all you can do is sit there and judge and preach. You have shown him no love at all. Twat twat twat.

Dear DH

I 'm leaving you.

You,
You have bought me laughter and friendship. My heart skips a little when I hear from you, I look forward to hearing from you, perhaps more than I should do, you have carved a place in my heart and mind. I think about you often, daydream and wish, I imagine what it would be like to be with you. I wish we could find out and hope ( believe?) that one day we will. Until then, I will wait and enjoy the laughter you bring, and hope.

A
I'm sorry I'm not the girl u once knew, the first time we meet we were young teenagers and haven't yet experienced the way love can break you. It has been so lovely having you back in my life, you remind me of the girl I used to be, but that girl has gone. Please stick it out with me, I know I'm sending you very confusing signals, and can came across very cool with you. But I really do like you, like I did when we were younger. I just need to work up the courage to tell you, I think u feel the same. But I beleive you are scared to make the first move because if the way I act sometimes. I'm here, always.

ExH
I don't think you will ever face up to what you did to me and our children. Screwing that bitch in our home, with our eldest childs photos and toys eveywhere. What I had to do, to prove you were cheating. I knew when I finally confronted you, I needed evidence and boy did I get it. Almost fully term with our youngest, hearing you and her fucking on our sofa. You broke my heart, and it will never fully heal. I'm trying my best to heal, I'm almost there, and I will get there, watch me. Late at night when I think and worry about the future of our youngest, I want to kill you. It keeps me awake that what I went through carrying him, caused his disability. Also you have blinkers on when it comes to him, you are crap parent. Tell whoever you want, that you help him with his Disability. You don't, to put it bluntly.

Ow
I can't believe that I was considered you to be a friend, you did me a favour really. You are fully welcome to him, I'm waiting for it to crash and burn, you do realise that he has tried to get me into bed on many occasions?. He has cheated on every girl he has ever been with. As I said you can have him, gladly.

Mum I miss you every single day, I would do anything to have a cwtch. I hope I make you proud with the boys. You always said to me, that I would never fully understand until I become a mummy. I now understand completely. I love you so much.

To my ex

You changed and I'm not only one who noticed it , so you have cut me from your life and that's fine as let's face it I was never in it
I was never in pics like the new girl and well you never told any one about me did u apart from to brag about the sex
I spoke to actual friend of what was ours and although we never met he didn't realise we'd so called date.
Despite being happy I stupidly care about you

I'm never going to be good enough for you am I?

Dad
I wish I could get over and forget the hurt you caused me on my wedding day. The one day that was “mine” became about you and your agenda. I wish I could look back on the beautiful speech you made about me and DH with fondness, when instead all I can remember is that being the second I knew, that to you, I’m not as important as you are. I wish I could forget it, so it wouldn’t be bubbling away under the surface as I watch my sister get ready for her big day, and seeing you so proud. I don’t think you realise what you did, and I can’t tell you as I am afraid you won’t even care.

To a certain lady:

In the middle of all the shit and the gold digging by others, your extraordinary generosity shines out.

You're getting nothing from what you've decided to do - nothing except shit - and you are loosing tens of thousands of pounds.

Your act is extraordinay and it won't be forgotten.

Dear you
I'd like to think that you didn't deliberately target me; that you didn't use your career as a psychiatrist to work out the best form of mind control. It's been 4 months of silent treatment so far- 4 weeks longer than usual
Is it culture? Is it personality disorder? Is it your parents?
In 2 years you reversed 10yrs of psychotherapy- I can tell myself that you're an idiot; you don't derserve me (you don't) but the impact of the comments on my weight will last forever.
I hate you

R, You destroyed me, you duplicitous little cunt. 2 years of lies. You have NO idea what you did to me, do you? Every day, I want to tell the whole fucking world what you did and one day, I will. Concealing an entire marriage? Lying about your health to cover it up? Using your children as alibis? And I fucking HATE that despite everything you did, I still miss you, you fucking cunt of a man, because despite everything, you are the only person who ever truly understood me. I will never trust another man again as long as I live, while you swan off into the sunset with her. Do you feel good about that? I am "sleepless in SE6" for a reason, you cunt, and that reason is you, and what you did. It will never go away.

J, I felt so sorry for you when I found out, I really did. I thought you deserved better. But that you stayed with him, after you knew exactly what he did, down to the letter? You're a fucking idiot. No sympathy. You deserve everything you get for your weakness, and he will do it again, if he's not already; the man is incapable of keeping his sorry cock in his pants. Not with me, in a million years, but he will, and you know it too. You know damn well he will. You know damn well I wasn't the first. You know damn well he cheated on his first wife while she was pregnant. Twice; once with a woman in the office and once with a whore abroad. And now this. Your life must be miserable, always waiting for the hammer to fall - at least I don't have to deal with that. At least I don't have to look at him every morning and wonder who's bed he's been in. I'm free of all that. But you do. You fucking muppet. Kick his sorry ass to the kerb, and get out before you're too old to find someone else, which frankly isn't going to be long, is it?

Dear now exdh - Yes I know you are hurting as you've woken up to our reality. I am too.
We are Countries apart now since I left you and went home but you know what ? even that feels closer than we have been in such a long time, lying right next to each in bed.
I will not take total blame for this, yes I was the one who instigated the split and who physically left but were you really so stupid that you didn't think I'd do it or that I'd carry on so hurt and unhappy forever? It would have happened anyway but the situation with my mum just moved it forward and forced me to act now.
I know one day you will agree with it - I need you to understand that while I do love you and care for you deeply we can not and will not get back together. I am not your security blanket, nor your human pet and it was unfair of you to give me false hope in regards to the future of our relationship when you clearly knew it wasn't right and wouldn't ever work.
Yes! you did say those things to me, I know you remember the calm and honest talk we had after I told you my decision - YOU were relieved too that one of us had the balls to end it. So please stop lying about it.

You wanted a 'friend' relationship dh - you fucking got one because that's all we'll ever be now, provided you behave and respect my feelings and what I'm going through right now.
I only have so much I can give you dh, I'm struggling right now just to keep breathing so tread very carefully if you still want to be a small part of my life.

That is all for now, I'm sure there'll be more.

I'm back again Ex - You know we said we would try to be friends and help each other through this difficult time - I know you were struggling and you have to do what you think is best for you and I will respect your wishes and not contact you (which is why I'm writing it here) but I have to say this - you are a fucking cunt! I just told you about something quite serious that I have found about my own health today - I'm worried and can't tell my family due to the stress they are all already under and you've basically let me down again when I needed you - What was it you said? ' You'd always be there for me no matter what' or was that just on the condition if I came back to you?
You know what - I love you and miss you and care for you but FUCK YOU! I DON'T FUCKING NEED YOU and I'll somehow cope by myself but let me just inform you that I will NEVER forget how badly you have let me down AGAIN. EVER.

Carbe ((hugs)) x

You should tell someone in your family. Sure they wouldn't want you to suffer in silence.

This time apart from you is causing me to have to deal with some very uncomfortable emotions. Like that you bully me into sex acts I'm not comfortable with, you don't, despite knowing my sexual history take care not to let me do things I don't want to when I'm very very drunk and upset. You only think about yourself. I have spent 2 years facilitating your life, prioritising you, caring for you and I've had nothing but abandonment, angry words and betrayal. None of this is my fault, I don't know why I ever allowed you to make me feel like it was and to try even harder to fix things which were never in my control. I have been the perfect partner to you and it is still not good enough because you have a hole inside you that can never be fixed by someone else's love.