A thread to say something you can't in real life!

[Sodthisagain]

To my not so dear sister
Fuck off to the far side of fuck then fuck off some more! I am not the scheming, money swindling bitch you have insinuated I am today and will no longer going to be your doormat to shout at when you are stressed!!
Oh and don't forget fuck off!

There that's better :-)

i really fancy someone. he has a girlfriend. i will never go there. but my god i really really find him attractive. i rarely see him around but it's always a teenage stomach kick flip if i spot him in the street.

i hate my ex husband for ruining my childrens core emotional well being. how can i ever make that better.
i absolutely abhor you you selfish cruel man. they are you babies. they are people.

to my cousin. I will never forgive you for raping me when your mother was dying. I kept my mouth shut because she is a wonderful woman who didn't need to know what scum she had done everything for and raised as well she could. she had a temporary recovery and is in the same situation again. I have only kept my mouth shut because of her and my mother. your own brother knows and hates you. and you deserve every ounce of hate.

To my 11wk old DD
Your smile makes my day ??

dear Dad so very sorry your chemo isnt working and that the B***d cancer is winning this time .I love you to bits and know you hate that kind of talk but you know we are right here for you and DM nd rest assured when her cancer returns we will do our best for her too and it breaks my heart the amount of time you both have spent in or at hospital only thinking there are ppl worse off than yourselves xxx :(

To my husband: Have I told you how amazing you are? I have been struggling with sleep deprivation with our baby and you just step in with not one word of complaint, letting me go to bed early and sleep late. I knew i was lucky but this has just confirmed it further.

To my mother: I didn't think you were a 'baby' kind of person, but the way you are with our son has been great. I love seeing you two together. It has been great having you around. You have been so thoughtful about my DH and I also having our privacy...stepping in when we need help than quietly going away.

To my sister: I am so proud of you! Wish we lived closer but the further we are the more we seem to talk, so maybe this is a good thing!

To the inept mortgage broker who has failed to secure us the mortgage on my childhood home meaning it will go to auction. What a fuck up you are. I've had to part with £300 for you to fail to meet specified deadlines and fuck up our application. Because of this we'll not be able to afford the home I love and grew up in and have cried all evening because of you.

I empathise. It happened to my MIL. Hugs x

Stbxh.
I will never ever forgive you not only for the past few months but for the past eight years. I will move heaven and earth to stop you from hurting DS again. I check the news everyday in the hope that you have been in an accident and all this will stop.

Mum.
I try everyday to not be like you. Everyday.

Exbf
I wish so much that you would see that drink and mental health are what's fucking up your life and not everyone else. You will never get what you want and need if you carry on as you are. People don't think you're clever or a bit kookie they just think you're a prat. You need serious help. Please please get it.

Dowser a wonderful post from you in which your warmth and humour shines through. We met on the New Years Eve thread. I'm so pleased that you eventually found happiness with someone you deserve, and thank you so much for the support you gave us in our early days.

Why can't the lovely ones be said in RL?

Mine is:
My parents have gone beyond a tipping point. They live with increasing difficulty, discomfort and incapacity. It frightens and upsets them. Much as it would break my heart, in a kind cosmos they would go now, together, and painlessly.

Colleague - stop wasting your time and money looking for alternative medicine to 'cure' you of your anxiety and insecurity and negativity.

The one thing you can do to sort all these in an instant is stop screwing that married man - it's really screwing you up and you are the only one who can't see it.

DH, I love you I do, but I do not feel loved by you. You do not think about me, today is our anniversary and yes you baked me a cake but I did not get a card or flowers, I would have been over the moon with them! For Mother's Day you got me a key ring, yes it was very nice but really there was no effort in any of this.

I have put up with a lot, I have forgiven lots, I have tried very hard in this relationship while it feels very one sided, you don't show me any affection unless you want sex, you are selfish, and you have been a bastard many many times.

I am left thinking about ending our marriage, you have made me this hurt and sad, but as I said I do love you and love our family.

I also want a third child, but you will not talk to me about this, there are things I want to tell you but I know you just won't respond the way I need you to. I want a pregnancy where when I tell you I'm pg you jump for joy not carry on with the vacuuming or walk out the door! I want you to find me sexy when I'm pg, I want you to touch my bump and hold me. I don't want to feel lonely when I'm pg.

Everything I have done I do while thinking of our family, you do things only thinking about you. You don't care for cards for occasions - I do!!! Think about me for a change! Think what I want! Just stop being a selfish twat and be the man I fell in love with!!!

You have seen me sad today, and I know that has made you sad, when I'm sad you just say "I don't know what to say" - man the fcuk up and think what I want to hear.

I know I don't tell you any of this, but it's hard to say this stuff when you just huff at me and then say "but I don't know what to say" really I can't be ar$d to hear you talk (mumble) like a sulky twat. Seriously, maybe it's a good thing I have never told you any of this, I'm not quite sure how you'd react to being told to man the fcuk up!!!

So I will try to talk more, I know you do do some very sweet things, but dear god man, just think the fcuk about me more!!!!!!!

That feels better now!!

Dear Man

I know you see me as your friend now when it was decided that a relationship would not be right for us at this time in our lives but I don't think sometimes you remember that I have feelings too.

I laugh and joke all the time and everyone thinks I am unbreakable and positive so you were surprised that I felt hurt by something you said without thinking or intentionally meaning to be hurtful.

You have seen me vulnerable which is more than most have and maybe I thought our friendship was stronger than it is. My mistake, I thought you understood me.

In addition, the last few days have proved the friendship isn't what I thought; for once I swallowed my pride and asked for a little support. Support I have always given freely to you.

I don't ask anyone usually but I just needed someone to talk to (hence why I am posting on MN) and you were too busy to chat for a few minutes despite arranging to. I am not needy but this week you helped me to feel needy. Don't worry I won't be doing it again.

You are a nice person but I realise that I am just pandering to your ego

Great post Op;

Dear SIL & BIL; parent your kids. Dumping them on your parents every weekend because you have a cold / illness/ need some quality time is total crap. You just can't be arsed. Parenting of younger children requires early morning starts. Suck it up & get on with it. Also you both have good jobs so stop playing the poverty card & sponging of people.

Dear X,

I've not been here long, I'm not him.
Stop telling me what he did better than me, I can't take it much longer, I need your support not criticism.

Dear Y,

Yes, I need to sort myself out, but I've been like this a long time, I find it so hard to try and change quickly. Help me please.

stbxh (aka the weasel)...you really are a piece of work. How many fucking lies are you going to tell. You are believing your own fantasy world. Unfortunately there are two children in the middle. You will never be a parent to them because you have never grown up yourself. You think the world revolves around you...well only in your head and the head of the OW.

OW...why don't you just fuck off. You self righteous cow. You may also be a police officer but I'm not frightened of your threats either you bitch. You're a slag who slept with my husband. You knew full well he was married with two children.

I'm fed up of being threatened by you both just because you know the law.... you think you are both above it. You are both nasty bullying police officers who should know better. Leave me and my family alone.

Dear J and C, you made me feel worthless and less than human. I have never got over what you did to me and I feel so so ashamed and pathetic about that.

Dear Mum and Dad, wish you'd liked me. Might have been able to tell you about J and C if I hadn't thought you'd have rolled your eyes, laughed or told me it was my fault/I deserved it/belt the fuck up.

Dear ex friend: I ditched you because you were (and presumably still are) a racist, self centred, snobbish, bitchy sub human who took and never gave, and treated me like an embarrassment for fucking years. Have a nice life but please leave me out of it.

I am alone and miserable and a failure but still my horrible depressing life is better than it would be if you were all still in it.

Dear Brother and SIL

Please be a bit nicer to my mum. She would do anything for you and those kids, yet you won't even have in your house and give her a cup of tea. Don't just use her when you want free childcare, but give something back to her, FFS. Go round, do a few little jobs in their house, perhaps even make her a meal.
Just don't dump your son on her at 7 in the morning just becuase it suits you. She's over 70 for goodness sake. She needs a break.
And don't hassle her to lend you money. You're sitting in a house that must be worth half a million. Sell it and shop hassling a pensioner for cash.

Parents. If my life's aim was to sponge off you I would have come home when xp tried to kick me and ds out of the flat. I wouldn't have taken action to protect myself and my home and tackle the abuse using the proper authorities. I wouldn't have fought through a three year court case, eventually supported xp to become a better parent, managed the pg that resulted from his rape of me or squashed down all my trauma so I could be fair to him as their dad, all while living alone with my 2 dc from age 21. Nor would I have been homeless for 6 months as a teenager rather than come home. Nor would I have left home at 16 and moved to the other end of the country. Why do you judge me and so frequently find me lacking? Why do you think you know what's good for me better than I do despite not ever really getting to know me? I guess it's easier for you to deal with your behaviour by believing I am someone that I'm not but please stop trying to buy my affection, stop involving me in your dramas, stop making everything about you, stop using my children to make yourselves feel better and to get at me and please, if you do none of those things just do this one; stop building up my trust only to let me down, my life is hard enough - an no this is not 'what you get' no-one deserves a lot of the things I've been through and you shouldn't try and make me shoulder responsibility for other people's bad behaviour just because of your prejudices about me. What would Jesus say about that eh?!

Oh and fuck off trying to take xh to the pub. It's not appropriate. No I don't think he is a nasty person like xp and I'm not expecting you to never speak to him - we still come together for Xmas at your house FFS, but I'm your daughter and he has his family and all of our old friends to support him, I only have you and chatting to him in private about me feels like a betrayal.

To my sister. For selfish reasons, I really wish you hadn't moved so far away. We're both so busy working & studying that we can't seem to coordinate a time to meet up. I won't tell you this in RL because you did absolutely the right thing for you and your DCs but I still miss you.

The bit I will tell you is well done for applying for uni. Stop thinking that I'm the clever one, you're just as intelligent. I've read what your degree entails it looks too complicated for me , it makes my course look like a piece of cake.

Dear Sis

I know you're jealous of what I have, but nobody stopped you having it for yourself - you were lazy and entitled and for some unknown reason developed a chip on your shoulder when me and our brother developed ambition. I work incredibly hard for what I have and I am not the bitch you make me out to be.

You really don't need to put me down constantly when we speak. I am aware of my faults - impatience being a key one - but I don't need you to point these faults out to me every single time we come into contact.

Stop telling me you have no money and then refusing my offers of help. I try so hard for you and out brother, but you just push it away and then start putting me down and making me feel small for no reason. you are so ungrateful that I am almost at the point of giving up.

Dear Mum

You really screwed us all up, but you only really hurt one of us - my brother. He was just 13 when you decided to move halfway across the country to live with another new bloke. You didn't need to leave him at all, and you certainly should never have thought that leaving him with his little friend's parents was a good idea. When you came back after that relationship broke down, you should have taken him back, but instead you left him with our grandparents, despite now living in the same town with our spoilt sister who was an adult and quite capable of managing on her own. What were you thinking?

When you moved away again for your next marriage, you just left him with our grandparents. Thank god for them. They are saints.

Why don't you understand why he doesn't want to talk to you? Why do you have to put on a martyr act at all times? What you did was awful - you effectively abandoned a teenage boy and made him feel like he wasn't worth anything to you. He is so unbelievably clever, and he will make us all proud despite having dealt with so much.

I have supported him financially for a long time. Why cant you do the same? When he graduates, I will make sure that you is ok and always has somewhere to live etc. You wont.

Dear Tosser
It's been over 12 years ago now and I still see you in my dreams. This isn't pleasant for me as I thought I was over you. I have the best DP a girl could ask for so I have no reason to keep dreaming about you. It's not even as if they're nice dreams. I always feel panicky in them as I'm desperately trying to get back to my DP. I still hate you for having an effect on me and for still lingering after all this time. I wasted so much of my youth on you and I don't want to waste anymore time than I have. Please leave me alone.

Dear DP
I love you more than I can say. You make me so happy and I know I don't tell you often enough. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Please can we get married?

Dear Dickhead,

I cannot stand you. I know you know it and I'm glad. You represent everything I detest. You think you are so clever which is ironic, given that you are actually incredibly stupid.

Dear DH,

Thank you for standing by me when Ive been miserable, pathetic, moany, shouty alcoholic in denial. Thanks for being here for me through it all. I know Ive said it hundreds of times before but this time I am cured. Im in control and will never let the bastard drink control me.

I only wish I could tell you how confident I am that Ive won the battle with my demons. . . but you've heard it so often. More than words will prove it you X