You have nothing to apologise for. You're doing brilliantly well and everyone who is supporting you on here is doing so because they want to and because they see what a hard time you're having. I would also guess that there are people out there who are following this thread who are having similar experiences but are too frightened/confused/uncertain to say anything so you are also helping them.
You've achieved so much in the past few days - contacting Police, GP, Women's Aid, Samaritans, not to mention being a brilliant Mum to your DD. All of this when you're really struggling/not wanting to speak to these people. You should be really proud of yourself. Are you feeling any more positive than when you first posted? I hope so.
Sorry I've not posted all day - had no internet connection. On that note when you're feeling scared or anxious at night if no one is on here to offer support (or if it's an emergency) make sure you contact the Samaritans or the Police (depending on the situation). I check in whenever DD wakes me up for a feed but that's often not the right time for you and I don't want you to think you're alone.
Have you spoken/been visited by the DV Officer? It might be a bit late but I would recommend asking him/her to clearly explain (and write down if it's helpful) exactly what is happening with your case. Specifically..
When it is going to Court and what is likely to happen then (will it be referred to Crown Court?). Ask to be kept updated with what happens at each Court hearing.
What exactly he has been charged with and whether there are any investigations ongoing that he has not yet been charged with.
What his bail conditions are, what the penalties are for breaking them and who you need to contact if he does break them.
Whether you have been referred to Victim Support.
Whether the DV Unit works alongside Women's Aid or similar and have referred you to them. They also sometimes offer Women's Aid workers to support you and attend Court with you if required.
Whether there is anyone you can be referred to who can assess/help with making you feel more secure in your home.
Whether there is any kind of alarm that you can be issued with to use in the event that you are threatened in any way.
Different forces have different schemes and systems so it's worth asking. I would also recommend making a note of who contacts you and where they're from. You could have contact from Women's Aid, Victim Support, Mental Health Team etc and it can get confusing trying to keep track of who is who and how to get hold of them. Feel free to ask here is there is anything that you don't understand - someone will be able to help.
You've done so well in speaking to your Doctor and I think the referral is very appropriate. Did you manage to sort out something with work?
How are you feeling now? Is there any way you have of managing your anxiety attacks that you can plan to try to do when you feel one taking over? Do you have anything else you want to ask about?
Hope you've had lots of lovely cuddles with your DD today. She's got a Mum to be very proud of.
Xxx