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How can I find incognito history on Chrome?

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eggplanty · 15/01/2015 12:57

I just came up to find an incognito window open in chrome on a website that I really would not be ok with my DH watching. Unfortunately by the I had noticed I had force shut down the laptop as it was not responding so I was not able to save the window.

Is there anyway I can find out what he is doing in incognito mode?

OP posts:
BitterAndOnlySlightlyTwisted · 18/01/2015 12:26

I suspect that most of us, when receiving devastating news, wish that we could pretend that nothing has happened and be able to carry on as normal. But that's not possible and it takes time to get over the shock and decide what, if anything, we wish to do about it.

You cannot un-know what you now know. And that's the fact that your husband is unable (or unwilling) to have a normal, adult relationship with you (or most probably anyone else) where he can initiate intimate contact. That he can only be intimate at arm's-length where he can maintain control over what happens and when and for how long. From what you have described, it sounds like he does have an emotional bond of sorts with these women, or he wouldn't have been paying the same ones over a very long period for their services.

If you think you can be happy in a marriage where you always have to initiate intimacy with your unwilling partner, can tolerate him seeking an outlet which completely excludes you, and where he spends what should be family-money on it, maybe for the rest of your lives, then good luck to you.

But please don't be persuaded that just because he hasn't done sexy-time with these people in real life that it doesn't fall into the category of being unfaithful. If you think he's betrayed his marriage vows, then he has. All that guff he's come out with is just blatant minimising. The usual routine is: deny, deny, deny. When faced with the actual, indisputable facts of his actions, it's minimise, and when that won't wash it's turn it round and blame the accuser for some imagined deficiencies that "made them" do it.

He did this of his own free will, didn't give a fuck how you would feel about it and you are not to blame for any of it. In the same circs I would feel that I'd got myself married under false pretences. And would be mad as hell. You are entitled to feel entirely differently but you cannot turn back the clock.

Flimflammer · 18/01/2015 14:51

You are not a disappointment to anyone. I hope you are feeling better now, physically. Whatever you decide to do is your business and I think the only thing anyone hopes is that you will do what's best for you and what will cause you the least pain. Please be aware though, there are lots of people you can turn to for support whenever you feel the need. Its really easy for an outsider to say leave/throw him out but you have to come to those decisions in your own time. Your emotions need time to catch up here, don't feel you can only post if you have done something practical. Talking to others will help, so keep posting if it helps.

Daisywheel7 · 19/01/2015 09:20

Dear Eggplanty,
You are not responsible for how he has behaved appallingly in your marriage but now that you know the truth, YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE for how you live your life in the future,
How are you going to bring up your children in regard to honestly and truth?
If you decide to act as if nothing is the matter, know that you will be teaching your little ones that denial and deception is just fine and that material comfort is more important than being true to oneself.
I know it is very hard, I have been there and started again with nothing, no money and no home in my thirties and with a young child when my marriage broke down and I couldn't stay with my then H!
You say you belong to a church, then the moral side of things is all the more poignant!
It doesn't mean you have to act now, this minute! But how you will go from now on is totally your responsibility! You are not a victim! You make the choices!
Wishing you courage for the future x

cookietrue22 · 19/01/2015 18:35

How are you doing today OP? I hope you got through your events ok. Has the pain subsided? Have you seen your midwife to check all is ok with you and the baby?

RumbelowSale · 19/01/2015 20:06

Another one here hoping all's going well (health wise) for you.

As for the rest, I hope that your oh isn't putting pressure on you to speak to his priest/imam/whatever...I'd think that talking to a man about stuff would be the last thing you'd want atm. Blush

mylifeagain · 19/01/2015 21:26

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untouchable · 20/01/2015 09:14

I'm sorry that you too have had such a shitty time mylife. thank goodness we now have MN.
Until women stand up for themselves and stop being the 'cool partner' and saying that these actions are not acceptable then this problem which just get worse.

Dating sites should include whether people use pornography in their questionnaire so that you don't have to waste your time with these people.

stormtreader · 20/01/2015 10:32

What hes done is no less cheating than if hed gone to one of those "Live show! Girls Girls Girls!" type places, in fact its worse because at those places you dont talk to the girls or interact with them. Its the conversations, the personal emotional and apaprently long term nature of it thats the worst thing - there was only a glass screen between them, in every real sense he cheated on you with these girls exactly as if hed actually met up with them.
You could shout what has happened from the rooftops and still not deserve to feel ANY guilt, NOTHING of this is anything youve done wrong. You could have been the most nagging hen-pecking wife and it wouldnt change the fact that he has CHEATED ON YOU, it still wouldnt be your fault.

If hes really claiming he doesnt think hes done anything wrong, imagining saying "well im relieved to hear those money troubles you mentioned arent true any more. If theres the money for this then there must be the money for me as well, I want the same amount of money you spend on this little hobby to enjoy MY hobbies. You dont need to know what they are."

RumbelowSale · 20/01/2015 10:57

mylife,you really reckon anyone's going to reveal an addiction to porn sites on a questionnaire? Friends who've used dating sites have said that some blokes don't even tell the truth about marital status or even height, hardly going to be honest about other stuffHmm

Natalie12341 · 20/01/2015 11:02

There will be history you can go on I haven't got a computer infront of me at the moment but I think it's not he right hand side of the page with google chrome everything is kept unless it's deleted hourly or maybe every day x

Unidentifieditem · 20/01/2015 11:18

Hello eggplanty
I read so many stories on here and think "how can so many vile men exist". Sadly yours adds to this. I have one thing to put to you regarding separation. If you stay with this bastard you are bringing your children up in a household where a husband and wife demonstrate no affection, no love. They will grow thinking that is normal and it can frame the way they lead their own relationships. Would you want that? Or would you rather they saw a mother who left their father and grew strong, looked after them, eventually found her peace and moved on to a happier life filled with love and smiles. You cannot sacrifice a lifetime of happiness for this man Sad

eggplanty · 20/01/2015 20:20

Thanks for your posts everyone. I have been reading but have not been up to responding. I feel so heavy and tired and overwhelmed. Each day I am thinking "One step at a time, just get through this and then the next thing"... I guess like treading water. I just want to lie down for about a week and not move. Obviously that is not an option.

I have spoken to my parents, not the details but enough that they understand its very serious. They said "forgive, forgive, in love you get very hurt".

I have spoken to my religious leader who said that because of the children this is bigger than the two of us and I need to reconcile.

I feel like maybe this is real life now. Maybe there is nothing exceptional to my circumstance. I can't help but see everything with this subtext. As men as just utter, utter scumbags. Just want to take and use women for their own gratification in the easiest way possible with no regards to their personhood.

I was in the house when this was all going on. I don't see why he could not come and talk to me. Listen to me. Have sex with me? I have literally never turned him down for sex once and I have always been open for anything. I often asked him

I have just seen a text pop up on the lap top between him and my parents. Charming. He has gone and told them some minimised version of events to get them onside. I want to vomit.

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eggplanty · 20/01/2015 20:24

I want to be physically sick. I didn't want my parents to know anything about the actual situation. I feel like all my dignity has been taken from me. I wanted some level of fucking privacy to suffer alone and even that has been taken from me.

I also should have been able to tell them the actual truth, not his fucking version of events. No wonder they have told me to forgive and get on with things.

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Inertia · 20/01/2015 20:36

Tell them the truth . He's getting his version out there, and you know how easily he lies.

There is no religion in the world which says that cheating on your wife by paying prostitutes and webcam workers is acceptable.

Your parents won't understand if you don't tell them.

ShumbTucker · 20/01/2015 20:37

My darling this is not your religious leaders life, it's not your parents life and it isn't your pathetic excuse of a husbands life. It's yours my love and you only get one.

Forgiveness is something you do for yourself, not the person who wronged you. You have no obligation to forgive him for anyone but yourself and IMO, he isn't worth the precious gift of forgiveness and he never will be.

You wouldn't want your children to go through what is happening to you so show them how it's done. Show them that forgiveness is for the strong and is only given to the worthy, show them that you are the sort of person that pursues happiness and knows their own worth. Show them that even when others try to influence your choices and try to guide you onto the path of least resistance that you chose the hard way but you know it was the right way.

Sorry for the essay but I wish you all the peace, strength and fortitude in the world so you can make the best decision for YOU.

Inertia · 20/01/2015 20:38

It's not your dignity which is in doubt - you've done your level best to give him every opportunity to tell the truth, to seek your forgiveness, to seek help to change his behaviour. At every turn he's lied and minimised. If it's all such small potatoes he'll be quite happy for you to show your proof to both sets of parents and church leaders.

CheerfulYank · 20/01/2015 20:39

Tell them the truth.

And no this is not normal, this is not all men.

I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

newyear15 · 20/01/2015 20:45

I agree - tell your parents the truth. And you need RL support. Find a friend or 6 and tell them.

And the religious leader is wrong. Please ignore.

TitchyThings · 20/01/2015 20:46

"Tell the truth and shame the devil"

A very old saying that my mum used a lot. Applicable here I think.

Flimflammer · 20/01/2015 20:50

You can't really blame your parents if they haven't been told the truth. I think you need to tell them, as others have said. The church leader didn't know the whole truth either, did he? And as pp said, it is not their life and they can't dictate to you about forgiveness.

I'm really furious on your behalf, has your husband even apologised yet?

ManyMayhem · 20/01/2015 21:08

You mustn't feel embarrassed - you haven't don't anything wrong. Show your parents some screen shots so they really understand what he has done.

It may seem like normal behaviour but there are lots and lots of men out there that wouldn't dream of behaving like he has done. It's disgusting.

Is your DH meant to be a religious man?

Lacoba66 · 20/01/2015 21:20

OP, Are you able to tell us from what religious faith you come from? I know it shouldn't make a difference, but in the real world, there are some that are not so 'modernised', so I can possibly see where you are feeling pressurised to accept his behaviour from your closest and from the religious leader.

Regardless, there are still people and places that you can access, but that is your choice and perhaps it IS because they don't understand the whole truth, that they have reacted in the way they have.

Pixa · 20/01/2015 21:21

Eggy, you have so much courage to explain everything. Please please take control of your life. Only you can make the decisions about your future.

I am so angry on your behalf. Do not blame yourself for what has happened - your husband must take responsibility for his actions.

This is not your fault, and you have so much courage, you will get through this. Please get real life help.

For what it is worth, my parents separated when I was very young due to my fathers inappropriate behaviour, growing up I am so pleased my mum left and made the choice to be happy. Growing up, it taught me a very important lesson about what was and what wasn't acceptable, and how I would like to be treated in the future.

katec1992 · 20/01/2015 23:19

This is you life. Is this really how you want to be treated for the rest of it.
He is a toxic personand you deserve better.
Only you can change it. I understand things seem impossible and like you are trapped but there are options.
Never mind what your parents, religious leader or anybody else thinks. They are asking you to completely put aside your dignity and self respect.
I am sorr but he clearly has no respect for you.. and bowing down to him will just make that worse

katec1992 · 20/01/2015 23:23

Nobody can tell you what to do here, but people will advise and try to help you.

it would just be such a shame for a loyal lovely woman to be trapped with an arsehole her whle life while he drains the bank account to do all sorts with other women.
You are too good for all this cheating behaviour.

I understand there are kids involved and you need to put them first. .... but in order to do that you have to start by respecting yourself

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