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Being heard: Sure's journey (thread 3)

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surereadyforchange · 19/11/2014 14:46

previous (2nd) thread

What to say? Abusive rapist ex reported, Police Statement given over a month ago and he is still blissfully unaware, still messaging, and nothing has happened.

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PedantMarina · 04/12/2014 18:58

Emerging from my day with a crowbar to give you hugs.

FunkyBoldRibena · 04/12/2014 19:32

So many people rooting for you sweetie. All supporting you from the sidelines.

You will be on the other side of this one day, it always seems surmountable when you are right in the middle.

PlumpingUpPartridge · 04/12/2014 20:00

sure, if you're anywhere near the west side of London then I'd happily meet you in RL - not in London myself but I commute in. You know, put a face to the username Grin

PedantMarina · 04/12/2014 20:18

I was thinking about friendships in general. Some people are really good at sparking up friendships, some less so. Some, whilst good at making friends, are less so about keeping them (I think I'm channeling Colin Firth as Darcy there Grin ).

Some simply won't extend themselves for anybody who they deem "not worth their time", for any variety of reasons. I honestly doubt your status as a single parent weighs heavily on most minds. Some might be looking at your bag, think "tchah! not Mulberry, darling..." Seriously, it can be that shallow (and who'd want that kind of person for a friend anyway?!?).

OTOH, some of what you might be interpreting as snubs might not be. Sometimes people are so wrapped up in their own lives in general, or even just thinking about things on a day, they didn't even realise they've just snubbed someone (not necc the case at the pageant t'other day, but possible).

I speak as a [fellow?] depressive: 99 times out of 100, it ain't about me. And the sooner you - ahem, for want of better word - unclench and stop taking responsibility for other people's social skills or headspace, the sooner you'll taste that delicious freedom to just Be Yourself.

And yourself is lovely to behold, so roll on Being!

PlumpingUpPartridge · 04/12/2014 21:03

I agree with you there, pedant - I see a counsellor weekly now and one of the things she has told me to do is to just accept other people as they are.

In particular, she told me to try and stop getting wound up by the prospect of interacting with my boss, who is a decent enough person but somewhat lacking in general social graces. I took my bosses' occasional snipes personally, but my counsellor said 'That is just her. Accept her as she is. Her behaviour is not occuring because of you. Do not let yourself believe it is. Carry on as you would normally.'

I did, although it was a bit of a struggle. Funnily enough, my relationship with my boss improved tremendously because I slowly stopped being so nervous around her. We both relaxed and now I don't mind her much at all.

The good thing is that once you decide to just not care, the people who are being unintentionally awkward sometimes become more friendly and the intentionally awkward ones stop affecting you. It's marvellously liberating Grin

PedantMarina · 04/12/2014 21:09

Thank you, partridge. And, sure, nobody's asking you to not care at all, just to "pick your battles" and use your caring for what's most important, your lovely DS and his very lovely Mum! Really, reserve your strength.

PacificDogwood · 04/12/2014 21:19

Tight hug from me too, sure.

I don't really have any close friends, many lovely acquaintances, but nobody close, no family in this country, nobody to call on in a crisis (I do have DH and I appreciate that that is a million miles away from your situation). What I am trying to say is that I think our current culture is so obsessed with being 'popular' and 'having a social life' and 'fun' that the fact that not everybody has that (or sometimes wants that) gets overlooked or, even worse, has somehow a 'lower status'.

Maybe don't try to see the end of the tunnel? Just consider your next step? One at a time until at some point in the future can look back on the end of 2014 and marvel at the strength of you that got you through a horrendous period in your life.

Thanks
PlumpingUpPartridge · 04/12/2014 22:00

Yes, good point, do keep caring about a selected few!!

TeenyfTroon · 05/12/2014 08:17

Hi Sure, please come back and tell us how you are. You've been very much in my thoughts and last night didn't know what to say when asked, 'You ok? You look miles away!' I couldn't really say, 'Oh, I'm wondering how Sure's feeling...'

I regret telling you to focus on your future yesterday. Others' advice to concentrate on breathing and getting through the next minute, hour, day, was probably much better. It may be that the sheer weight of time you've got to get through before the end of 'him', and your degree, may well make you feel overwhelmed.

Can you talk to the student help services when you need to? If there was someone who you didn't need to keep explaining the background to it might help, though as Badger (I think, can't check) said, you don't have to explain to the Samaritans, just talk.

No-one, except you, has the magic wand. And by God, we've all seen you waving it!

surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 07:57

Morning all,
I'm still here.
Haven't slept much.
Been awake since the small hours trying to solve the situation in my head.
I have emailed PO every day since I spoke to him on Monday and nothing. He said he was going to arrest this weekend...nothing.
Does anyone know how long it is since I made my statement?
I've got a feeling its two months.
I have been trying to get hold of WA lady with my concerns all week - nothing.

So I am thinking (as I have thought before) that I just need to forget about anyone standing up for me and do it myself, just deal with it all in my own head.
I have booked in with my old counsellor again and am making the journey back to where I used to live to see her today. Unfortunately means dropping DS with bastard ex but whatever. Will ignore.
Thank you all for all your kind words. They mean a lot.

Swampytiggaa - thank you so much! I don't live in North Devon but I plan to, its one of my favourite places in the world, I'm hoping to move there if when I graduate. I am down there quite a lot, my Nanna used to live there before she passed away and it feels safe and like 'home' to me.

Its been a long night.

I just wanted someone other than me to tell 'him' that how he's treated me is NOT ok. This 2 month 'oh well' thing just tells me maybe society thinks it probably is ok.

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surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 08:05

I have literally been hanging on by the skin of my teeth hoping he'll be arrested this weekend, I've been on tenterhooks for months..its the last straw now, 2 secs ago PO replied saying sorry due to staff shortages he wont be able to 'talk' to 'him' until next week..
Its too much.

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surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 08:07

How long has it been now?

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PedantMarina · 06/12/2014 08:09

"Talk to him". Jesus wept.

surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 08:10

2 months to the day since I went into WA. In a few days it'll be 2 months since I made my statement to police.

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surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 08:11

Oh yeah, Marina, when I spoke to him on Monday he said he might not arrest him, he might just ask him to come in for a chat I quote "at his convenience".

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surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 08:12

Honestly might ask him not to bother and write a massive piece about it and send it to the papers!

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surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 08:13

100% no one is bothered. They all go through the motions, but....nothing.

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PedantMarina · 06/12/2014 08:38

And the harassment stuff?

This is appalling. You need to push this up the ladder.

surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 09:34

Nope, nothing.

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PacificDogwood · 06/12/2014 09:55

Oh, sure SadAngry

I think you may be right that you need to sort this in your own head and having booked with your old counsellor is a really good idea. It also gives YOU a bit of initiative and control back.

You have done nothing wrong - not in your relationship with 'him' and not in how you went about reporting it.

It is appalling that nothing much has happened by official channels - really appalling. I fear you are right that it is a reflection of societal values and attitudes Angry.
Can you try your damnedest to NOT take this seriously? NOT see it as a personal rejection?

And yes, make it public if you want to - you are well within your rights to shout this from the roof tops. But don't do it if just adds to the pressure on you.

Tight hugs - keep on putting one foot in front of the other.
I hope your session with the counsellor will be fruitful.
Thanks

surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 12:42

Oh no just lost my reply!
Session good, went through what DS dad did to me last weekend, fact that police have let me down.
Counsellor is very real. She was like it shouldnt be like this bit these are the facts.
I feel i need to follow my heart and let go of everything that has let me down.
There is felt an absence of anyone ever having been there to protect me (save 'him'). Need to let go of who has failed to protect me, what's let me down.
My parents, sister, friends, police who are supposed to protect.

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surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 12:46

I haven't been heard, no one has stood up for me (ever) so I need to do this for myself. I feel a real need to be heard.
To tell my story despite everything being brushed under the carpet like....forever.
So I think I'm going to tell my story..
Even just telling it here has been so helpful. Just being 'heard ' by you guys.
Head feels clearer.
Thank you Flowers

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surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 12:51

I've just rung p0lice complaints. Closed at weekends Angry

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SameThing · 06/12/2014 12:59

Just snatching a moment to send a hug for you, sure. You're really great, you know?

surereadyforchange · 06/12/2014 13:14

Aw thanks Smile

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