I think you're right about the relationship being damaged beyond repair. It does feel empty. I think the beginning of the end was, bizarrely, when he said he wanted a future with me. He was so insightful when it came to talking about my children and how he saw things proceeding with them, for example, but the conversations that resulted from that have just exposed a distance between us that he is unwilling to bridge.
I've probably become resentful and more distant, or less unwilling to ignore my annoyance, so, whilst I haven't been annoyed with him, I've not been my 'usual self'. I don't trust him. But I don't know to what extent he is untrustworthy and to what extent I'm broken.
He admits that he likes to live his life his way, but that doesn't really work when you have a relationship. Particularly if that person has children. I can't imagine his previous girlfriends were quiet wallflowers, but I do know he feels a little intimidated by my independence. I've been told by other people that a lot of men will be intimidated by that. I hope not!
But no, I don't want to spend another empty weekend - I realised, too, that if he is still unwilling to come to me, I don't have a completely free weekend until October now. The next weekend I'd be able to see him, my friend has invited me to an antiques fayre and I think I'd rather do that, instead, to be honest 
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