One more from me.
I spoke to my exH this morning. He joined Tinder two weeks ago, started talking to someone he clicked with and they had a first date the night before last.
By all accounts it went really well - they stayed out talking all night and he didn't get back until the early hours of the morning.
Second date planned before the end of the first.
I've seen a picture of her. She's really attractive. And I mean really attractive. I'd have put her well out of his league!
I am genuinely pleased for him that he's met someone he clicks with. He has told me some things about her, she really does sound perfect for him! They sound really compatible in a way we never were. I'm not jealous, but I am a little sad that it seems so easy for him and so impossible for me 
I'm going to sound really disingenuous now, and I don't really mean to, but he's ok looking, not unattractive, but nothing special; he's about 4 stone overweight; he's got quite poor dental hygiene - I don't think he's been to the dentist in about 5 or 6 years, if not more; he's very funny, witty and charming and I can really see that people will be attracted to his personality; he has found a style that really suits him and he chooses his clothes well.
It's just a bit shit that he seems to be finding it all so much easier than me. I need to lose a stone or so, but I'm still in the 'normal' bmi range just ; I get my hair cut and coloured regularly; I don't wear a lot of make up, but I don't think I need to and people are often surprised when I tell them my age; I have also found a style that really suits me; I take care of my appearance; I do lots of hobbies and have a number of friends; I often get told I'm 'lovely'.
It just makes me sad that he seems to talk to one person and meets someone he really clicks with and he really likes, whereas I'm still single, still unloved and I don't know what I've done to deserve it.
I'm having a really tough few weeks at the moment! 