The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Springing Into Spring Like Super Spingy Springs On A Springy Day!

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Hello everyone, I'm Mouse :)

Welcome to the Bus, Gerald. Of course it's an imaginary Bus, and we're all aware of that, but we've been on this Bus for a bloomin' long time now so this place kinda feels like home.

See, the thing is, we're a mix of drinkers, non drinkers, total abstainers, and also posters that are or have been, somewhere in between, around the block and back again!

There are no hard and fast rules here, just No judging, No bitching about others and most certainly No expectations of YOURSELF.

No-one can say what will or will not happen whilst you're posting here. You just have to take the ride, One Day At A Time.

There are two sayings that we have painted down either side of the Bus :-

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

You've started to read this thread for a reason, and you'll either carry on and maybe Name Change (or not) and post, walk away, or realise that this is all about YOU, cry for a bit, and then come and take a seat :)

For those who would like a bit of our almost 4 year history, have a read of THIS TRULY INSPIRING THREAD

- AND THIS IS OUR PREVIOUS THREAD TO THIS ONE

We're not a quiche or a clicky group, four years is a long time and longer when you're pissed for some of it, so whilst the threads may look 'clicky', I can promise you, it's just that we all 'know' one another because we've been here for a bit but you'll soon get to know us all, who loves what (CHEEEEEEEESE), but we were all 'new posters' at one time, weren't we? :)

Good Evening, tis me, Mouse

Well, day 1 of my PMC (pain management course) was fantastic, I really bought into it.

Just off to take Nemo to bed for the first time in ages.... I can't wait because he is uber cute, he's just said "Adios Papa"

Anyway, I'll try to come back soon.

Wry - was I? I am rubbish with my memory! I hope that whatever I was sweet about you with paid off and that like is looking up now? In that department anyways :) xxx

Scarf - Thank sweetie xxx

Hi mouse great to see you posting again :)

Quick check in, day two done. Had a drink on Saturday night which I'd planned to do but h didn't much like the wine so I stupidly finished it. Felt vile all of Sunday and annoyed with myself as I know I can't tolerate red wine so shouldn't even go there. I was tempted to drink tonight, off work tomorrow, but distracted myself till the off licence was closed. I feel like slowly I'm moving forward but they are the teenyist, tiniest baby steps.

mouse welcome back, glad to hear you are feeling better

My DH is in a foul mood - maybe that Facebook cock-up wasn't such a bad idea after all???

Morning babes
I'm on Day 38 today. Unbelievable and fucking amazing. Do join me you rabid lot.

I've got so little time. I realized I've frantically filled my days with stuff that I have been missing whilst being a drunk. I also have so much more energy and motivation that I don't have any interest in losing hours and days trawling the net wasting time because I'm in a hungover, guilt ridden fog. I do always try and keep up to date on here, but I am sorry if I'm not as active as I was.

My post today is a million miles away from my first post on here. Which the gorgeous mouse responded to in her usual wonderful way and made me cry. But here I am sober and every intention of staying sober. xxx

Well done Soc! You are doing great! Keep it up.

Giod to have you back Mouse.

Just getting ready to give my DS breakfast and head out to the park (Central Park). Thats what I do these days, because life is f'ing brilliant.

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Why - that is so, so lovely. I am just on cloud nine for you.

Ma - just wondering how your son is today and how the last couple of days went for him at school? I hope he is ok.

scarf thank you for asking. He has been in school, thankfully. Not happy and struggling though. Just got to keep at it and try and get some contact details for other lads so he doesn't spend 7 weeks of the summer at home alone like billy no mates.

I am still drinking and making no attempt to stop.

ma life sounds tough at the moment- you'll stop when you can and when you are ready x

Night,you bus full of loons- lots of love and a big squeeze from me.

Hello, I've been lurking for a while, hoping I can join? My drinking is wave-like. Sometimes ok and at a socially acceptable level, other times like now I'm drinking way too much. I try to keep drinking to only Friday and Saturday but this week already I drank on Sunday and lastnight.

Something socfish said has really resonated with me 'wasting hours trawling the net in a hungover, guilt-ridden fug' - this is me! I'm either trawling threads to gauge whether my drinking is out of control or I'm checking fb to see if I posted anything drunkenly embarrassing!

I've often in the past abstained completely for a few months at a time and then go straight back to where I was before. What I need help to do, from you lovely ladies, is to control the amount I drink, both the amount of days and the amount drunk in one sitting.

My first goal is 9days alcohol free. I have a night out planned next Friday. I would be delighted not to drink between now and then. The weekend will be tricky...

Hello everyone, big squidges to all, sorry I haven't been in touch.

I fell off a bit but I'm hanging on to the back bumper, tagging along behind. Such an idiot. I phoned him and wish I hadn't, wish I could let go of him, the pain, everything see you tonight lovely passengers, xx

Checking in. How is everyone doing?

Evening, tis me, Mouse :)

Day 3 of the course has been really good, two lectures (one of which I actually fell fast asleep and snored through but it was a meditation one ) then lunch, which is paid for, and later on, a gentle float in the hydro pool, then a gentle session in the gym at my own pace.

I can only pop on quickly because the 'tinternet is a wee bit shite here to be fair!

Thank you all for the mentions, it really lifts me :)

Last night we watched Frozen™ on DVD at the cottage where we're staying, tonight is a very early night as I can no longer move...

And tomorrow I get to make to some fab things in the workshop (it's a secret :) ) And the pool again, two lectures for me to fall asleep

Then football!!!

Bye for now xx

Great to hear from you mouse

mouseyou sound well. That makes me happy.

Awwww, Thank you Ma xxx

Hey Guggs - hope life is well with you. Night all xxx

mouse the course sounds fantastic, hope you're enjoying the company of others there too, especially if there's football involved!

I just re-read my earlier post...sorry if it sounded a bit light-hearted. That was the first time I've ever name changed for a post and I didn't want to put in too much horrific detail in case it didn't work.

But please believe me, writing that post furtively whilst my family slept in the wee hours after 'waking up' with a hangover on a work day (not really waking up as I barely sleep after drinking, just toss and turn and sweat all night) was finally my cry for help.

I realise it sounded flippant to aim for 9 days af, as if I could just do it at the snap of a finger. I know it won't happen. I already have things arranged at which il be physically unable to resist the temptation over the weekend. But this is part of my cycle - drink, get up feeling guilty, promise myself unachieveable aims, crave a drink again come home-time.

I haven't drunk today. Today is Day 1.

Morning babes
Day 40 for me today. I'm really feeling happy about that. Can't quite believe it. One day AF seemed impossible just a short while ago. I have no intention of drinking. Thank you wonderful bus xxx

Arsetits. I drank on a weekday. Granted I was on late shift so didn't affect my working day, well it did a bit as I was peevish and girny. At myself though. Lesson learned. I can smile all day, only those who know me well would spot I'm struggling. It's time to let him go, just need to be that little bit stronger.

Joining you on Day 1 Alison.

Fit like Joey, babyjane, venus, guggs, Faire and Anne? Big bosies to you!

Mouse so pleased the course is going well, looking forward to hearing about your top secret workshop! Squuuuuuuiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiidge to you!

ma What did you end up baking? (nosy ) How's your lad today?

SocFish, check you oot Miss Thing! How's your book coming along?

Big squidge to everyone I haven't mentioned, hope you're all keeping fine. I got tied up with last minute procedure at work, and not had a chance to have a big read through. It's been Scorchio here, and I'm off to take my lovely dog out for a stroll now it's a bit cooler. The dog roses are out, I love the smell of them in the evening.

See you tomorrow, bosies all round, xx

Hey babes!!! Quick post here. I have been feeling bad all week about not thanking you for your lovely messages during my crisis last week. You made me cry being so lovely and supportive, and then I thought, I must individually reply to everyone, I cannot do just a quick post, and then it got harder as despite looming redundancy we are still doing 10 hour days sans lunch, every day (apart from weekends) followed by training, training, training then racing for DS, and having to keep jealous and very hormonal DD happy too, and before I knew it I had been away for too long and no hope of catching up

So just popped in tonight (insomnia, know I will suffer tomorrow) to leave on the dashboard, plus donuts, cake pops and all manner of carby treats (my diet finally crashed on a training course last week where they practically locked us in but provided buffet food at every break).

I am happy to see Mouse back - hope your pain management course works for you my love - and welcome to the new faces, will read back one day soon in my magic time stretching machine!

Life is a bit of a mess here but not drinking much. Tempted at times but just can't fit it in. Ridiculous situation. And can only post to you by staying up all night! Diet bollocksed though. A bit suspicious of low carb extremism now. I loved the food and way of eating and loved the lack of hunger and how I felt, but it requires so much pre-planning and organisation and frankly I am glad just to be able to brush my hair in the morning some days. So off it for 5 days and put back on ALL THE WEIGHT I took FIVE WEEKS to lose (which was only 5lb, no dramatic transformation here). That is not right is it? Any fit babes out there who can recommend a new plan which is possible for someone who can't find time to make cauliflower pizza bases and carb free breakfast pancakes?? Not knocking low carb at all, it is amazing, but I do not have the time or the will and can't cope with this 'you went to a work dinner and had a potato? how could you?' malarkey.

Sorry, will post properly soon Thank you all so much for being my friends xxx I love this bus. Even though you left me looking after the camel, as if I didn't have enough to be getting on with ....

PS just wanted to say Ma big hugs to your DS, he sounds lovely and it is so hard when your kids are having problems that you can't just wade in and solve. A friend of mine in RL is having the same, i do feel for you. He sounds such a great kid too, that story of him with his grandma made me go 'aaaah' inside. You have a lovely boy there, he will come through. High school is just shit for individuals who are not part of the herd sometimes. Keep updating us xxx

Anyone else not give a damn about the football? Or is it just me?

And you Soc AMAZING babe!!!! Well done on your amazing month.

I have to go to sleep now or else I will end up saying hello to everyone, individual post by individual post. Then before I know it it will be time to -shout loudly at the lazy sods in my family to drag themselves out of bed gently wake the kids up for a new day and start again

If I haven't mentioned you by name, I send you generic good will. And camel spit. Which is your own fault if you remember Beaches

You make me laugh out loud Miss insomniac camel Keeper I would promote the marmite on toast diet - not because it is a great weight loss plan but it is comfort and deliciousness in the highest realm! Take care of yourself lovely hope

Hi to new posters, love to old ones. I am quietly travelling in the sidecar at the moment xxxxx

Morning everyone, much cooler here today thankfully, much as it's lovely to see the sun, it was hellish to work in! Almost fisticuffs over the available portable fans

He's asked to see me at the weekend, the end is nigh I reckon. I haven't seen him for almost 3 weeks, if I hadn't picked up the phone the other day it would have been similar. He stood me up the last two weekends, texted to say he would be round then didn't show.

Here I am on day two. Our student has just commented on how tired and old(wtf?!) I look yet again, and how quiet I am. Yep will spriiiing into jollities given insults, that's how I roll. If I hear "I was asked to model by Prada nernerner" just one more time...

Yep, sour grapes but at least nae fermented ones. Will check in later, hope you all have a good day, x

I hope it's ok for me to hop on the bus. I haven't been on before but long time lurker. I have screwed up so badly with alcohol this week that it has finally dawned on me after 30 years of drinking that there is a problem, slow learner I know. Had massive work task that I was terrified of facing so decided to get pissed for weeks leading up to it and then failed to complete.

I have screwed up royally and it won't go down well. I am hiding out at home and cannot face anyone. I am so so scared. I feel like complete failure and have let people down. The only glimmer of hope is that I can now admit to myself that I have a drink problem. This is day one and a half and if I drink again I am in deep trouble. I am filled with self loathing, anxiety, terror and can't get out of bed.

Ma, my son went through the same as your son in first year of secondary. It was a terrible time. I moved him and he really enjoyed new school and made friends. I feel for you both it is an awful thing to go through. If he could find a hobby over summer it might make him feel confident.

How am I ever going to face anyone ever again. I know you folk know what I am talking about. Thank you for reading.