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In a long affair....please don't read if this will cause you upset/anger.

641 replies

alltoomuchnow · 16/02/2014 14:28

Namechanged. I'm married with 2 children and I've been having an affair for over 6 years now. Something has literally "gone" in my mind and I can't take it any longer. I love OM very much but I know that we'll never be together. As time continues to go by I know that my feelings for him will get stronger. I need to end it all or accept that this is how it will be. I'm not asking for sympathy - I know I've done something very wrong and that I'll be hated on here. But I am human, I have feelings and I don't know how to cope any more. Has anyone been here and has felt this desperate....

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handfulofcottonbuds · 16/02/2014 21:30

A lot of childishness on this thread and attacking other posters bonsoir, no need, this is not a playground!

If you have nothing constructive to say other than putting other people down then clear off.

LyingWitchInTheWardrobe2726 · 16/02/2014 21:30

I've asked MNHQ to pop onto the thread if they have time.

mammadiggingdeep · 16/02/2014 21:31

Hear hear...
Bonsoir- you've not commented to advise the op but twice now attacked somebody who is.

Jog on

AnyFucker · 16/02/2014 21:33

I hope you are not too attached to that posting name, bonsoir

everlong · 16/02/2014 21:35

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AnyFucker · 16/02/2014 21:37

net curtains and pulpits are very in this year, so I've heard Smile

scornedwoman67 · 16/02/2014 21:37

ellengeorgia can I ask have you been married, had children, thought you would grow old with your DH and then found out he'd been unfaithful?

DameEdnasBridesmaid · 16/02/2014 21:38

mamma I'd have to get on with wouldn't I? What's the alternative? Live with someone who prefers another women to me? Be second best? None of those appeal.

scornedwoman67 · 16/02/2014 21:39

AF you are so like my best friend. Grin Grin

AnyFucker · 16/02/2014 21:39

perhaps I am she SW67 Smile

AnyFucker · 16/02/2014 21:41

I am ubiquitous after all Wink

scornedwoman67 · 16/02/2014 21:41

Nope. There are two of you whose sense of humour makes me Grin Grin !!

Lavenderhoney · 16/02/2014 21:43

The relationships board isn't owned by anyone!

You get advice from anyone around. You might not like it. You can just ignore it. Or you can ask them not to post again, if you feel they aren't helping.

Op has posted about a very emotive topic. Of course some people will be dismissive of her and her life. Some people won't and try to help her out of it.

Its unlikely anyone will say " yeah, go for it, Wine for the next six

Op, do you want to stop it, give him an ultimatum which you already know he won't take... Who's got the power in your affair?

bickie · 16/02/2014 21:43

OP, I rarely come on MN, and post even less. For some reason it always makes me feel sad about how women treat each other. While there is support for some women - it isn't all. I read your post and felt so sad for you. I wish I could help you. I have no experience of cheating or being cheated on. You just seem to be a woman in pain - which must be awful. Life isn't black and white - you may be able to find a way through this and be happy. I recently found out my uncle had a long term affair and when it ended - he and his DW found a way of being together and being very happy in their retirement. Nobody knows if my Aunt found out about it, they may have discussed it - he may have kept it a secret from her. I am not saying what you have done is right - just perhaps there is a way forward and you can be happy and content again one day. I know this will enrage the women who have been cheated on - and the children of cheaters- but they have your own posts to bang their fists and wail. This post is about you.

AnyFucker · 16/02/2014 21:44

aw, bugger, I thought I was unique Sad

snowdropsinthegreen · 16/02/2014 21:47

nasty, nasty posters on here tonight.

MorrisZapp · 16/02/2014 21:48

Lovely post bickie. It's true, the support given here to the victims of cheating is unwavering, both emotionally and practically.

Anybody who has been cheated on will get kindness and support here, often from others who have walked in their shoes.

But this thread isn't about that.

mammadiggingdeep · 16/02/2014 21:52

Dame....

Of course you'd have to get on with it. I wouldn't choose to stay with a cheat either (I didn't).

I'm one of the women with a 'get on' with it badge. Fucking hard...don't know if you're a mum but dealing with two you g children, a job, running a home AND dealing with the fallout if cheating is fucking hard.

Your flippant comments are offensive. Wishing if not even commented in your post as anyone posting what you did would never 'get it' if somebody responded.

Just hope it doesn't happen to you. That's the only way you know.

snowdropsinthegreen · 16/02/2014 21:53

I know of a couple. She is rude, belittling and scornful of her h and so now is their teenage daughter. I have witnessed their behaviour several times.
He is now having an affair.
WHEN that comes out (which of course it inevitably will), if she was to post on here she would have the tea, sympathy and hand-holding whereas he will be vilified.
Both have behaved badly.
There are always two sides to every story and people who have affairs are not simply pantomime villains.

mammadiggingdeep · 16/02/2014 21:56

Bickie-
The op has been given advice.

Really, what else is there to say?

A) leave om (upsetting but they can't be together)
B) finish with h (hasn't happened in 6 years- it seems op doesn't want to unsettle the family)
C) do nothing
D) do one of the above and get some counselling

There were a few nasty comments.

MorrisZapp · 16/02/2014 21:56

I agree snowdrops. Having an affair is a crap way to treat your partner, and no doubt many who do it are simply after some cheap gratification. But for many others, it will inevitably be more complicated than that. Life isn't about goodies and baddies.

mumandboys123 · 16/02/2014 21:57

In RL people have affairs, marriages break up. People just get on with it, life goes on. Only on mn do affairs seem worse than murder and the perpetrators will never ever be forgiven and be condemned to live as an outcast for the rest of their natural. Rubbish.

People 'get on with life' because there is no other choice - they get up in the morning, take their kids to school, go to work. Most people recognise that 'getting on with life' is the only option open to them when their life implodes. I believe that I made being cheated on look 'easy' because I kept a sense of humour, had good, close friends who held me up when I felt I could no longer go on, and believed above everything else that the ONLY revenge I should have should be living well. It wasn't easy. It was hell. It was like falling down a hole for months on end - clutching at the sides but never being able to get a firm grip and I just kept falling and falling and falling. The crap just kept on revealing itself, day after day, week after week, month after month. Everything that I had believed to be true about my life just turned on its head in a way that was just impossible to believe. Every tender moment, every kind word, every kiss, every time we'd had sex, his being there at our children's births (finally realising he had walked out of the hospital so quickly when our second was born was because he ran off to spend the night with her as our eldest was being looked after by family), every weekend away, bottle of wine shared, pair of underpants washed.... EVERYTHING. Nothing was as it had been or how it had seemed - that's a huge thing for any person to have to deal with. And on top of that, the realisation that it's been going on for years. If you haven't been there, you can't even begin to imagine it. It isn't something you shrug off overnight.

Yeah, I 'got on with life'. But you have no idea whatsoever what I was going through underneath and the impact that had on me personally and on our children, close family members and friends. I am pleased to tell you that husbands's of close friends unfriended him - on Facebook (!!!) and in real life - not because I asked them to but because they're adults who were capable of making their own judgements about a man who left his pregnant, non-working wife with nothing and proceeded to live the highlife. He wasn't someone they wanted to be friends with. I can also tell you with some certainty that my ex, some 5 years later, doesn't mention his affair to any potential new partner (quite the opposite - I have it on good authority he says I had an affair for years and that he has no idea if our children are his!) so I can only assume that there are decent people out there who wouldn't want to be with someone capable of what he did otherwise, why hide it? He seems to have a complete new set of friends - which would suggest somewhere along the line, his 'old' friends decided he was no longer for them. He may not be condemmed to a life of misery but he certainly isn't living an honest life and is surrounding himself with a web of deceit and lies. Each to their own. It obviously works just fine for him. But please don't think that because I look OK that I haven't had to work incredibly hard to actually be OK and that I just 'got on with life' because the affair meant nothing.

handfulofcottonbuds · 16/02/2014 21:58

snowdrops as a wife who is going through the pain of adultery and now divorce, I find your generalisation and justification for 2 sides to every affair disgusting!

My H had an affair because we lost 2 babies, we lost 2 baby nieces also all in the space of 9 months and he couldn't handle 'the drama'! Cheaters are weak and selfish. Think before you post such an insensitive comment!

LyingWitchInTheWardrobe2726 · 16/02/2014 21:59

mammadiggingdeep... I agree with DameEdna's comments and we all have a different point of reference. There are quite a lot of comments that jar with me and others that I nod at when I read. That's the nature of experiences and whilst you might find some comments 'offensive', that doesn't mean that they are.

There are some very flippant, back-slapping and plain derailing comments on this thread, none of them written by Dame.

yy Morris Zapp, that is a wonderful post from Bickie. Hopefully OP will read and digest the advice, which seems pretty unanimous really.

LyingWitchInTheWardrobe2726 · 16/02/2014 22:04

handfulofcottonbuds... Are posters not allowed to have views and opinions? You are not the only person to have been cheated on and reading this thread and you have a choice to participate or not - and so do other posters, even if you don't like what they say.