The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Off To Find The Summer Sun and Sobriety!

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Hello, I'm Mouse :)

Welcome to the Bus, take a seat and enjoy the ride. We're a Bus full of drinkers, non-drinkers, those who are trying to give up for life, those who are giving up for a few hours because that's all that they can manage (which is fine!) or quitting just for today......

We don't wear Judgey Pants (they're far too last year darhling ) but we have hugs a plenty and tough love when it's needed. Which isn't often!

So, what have you got to lose? If you're reading this, you're thinking that you are no longer happy with the way you drink, which tells me that this is the Bus for you. :)

If you'd like to see where we've been so far and what we've been up to, take a peek HERE

And if you want to knnow why we're here in the first place, take a look at THIS THREAD RIGHT HERE :)

See you soon x

Well I've failed miserably again husband is furious as he couldn't wake me up I'm a disgrace hate myself and I've had enough my life is being ruined I can't take much more of this I have no one to tell about my drinking problem it's such a heavy burden I'm tired if being on day one time and time again I feel like I need some one to talk to

Thisis, I am so sorry I can't be long as got company but please don't feel alone as we are all here for you and are with you.

You're not a disgrace, you are battling a very common problem, you want to change and that is the biggest step. And you have made that step.

It is a lonely feeling but ironically out there are so many people feeling the same but too ashamed to say so! The friends that you find it hard to talk to probably include people in your position.

Take a big deep breath, it is going to be ok.

I start again tomorrow, day one, want to buddy up with me?

I'm not as eloquent as the Mouse but every fibre of me is reaching out to you!! I can hear your despair and just want to give you a hug.

I must go but I will be back and expect other posters will be along with better advice too

Xxxxx

Buddying sounds like a plan thanks pink I so want to change things so here's to an awful guilt ridden day one I will not be drinking today x

Oh babes sending strength and hugs sounds like a good plan to support each other and this i agree you need to seek out some RL help.

I'm sorry I can't recall but have you tried AA or SMART ( secular)

Alternatively do you have the funds for counselling?

I'm currently wallowing in guilt too after going back to bed and wasting another half a day (still in the same pjs) but enough is enough I'm getting in the shower, pulling on my big girl pants and getting on with it. All we can do is keep trying. Keep on keeping on babes.

pink damage limitation today will help say one tomorrow. Alternate with soft drinks, lots of food etc xx

faire thank you for your kind words :) lonnika you rock :) x

Got counselling through work for a different issue if found a meeting for tomorrow so going to try n pick up some courage to attend I just keep thinking why me why do I have to have this problem I'm only 27 I this what I've got to look forward to for the rest of my life

I won't be drinking today. I've been on the bus before, a long time ago, sad to have to be back.

Welcome thorn I'm not in the best place either but welcome none the less

this when I was 27 I was doing drugs every weekend and drinking much much more. I had panic attacks, OCD and all kinds of shit going on. My life is a world of difference now to what it is then. For your a lot of your friends it's still party time, that's really hard. You are seeking help and making changes. Things can be so very different. Don't write yourself off, you have lots to look forward to.

You are trying to change, that's huge and commendable. Reach out for help and you WILL get there xx

Thanks green that means a lot

Hello all

Don't have time to namecheck because I'm at work pretending to be a grown up.

Just wanted to send a hug to this.

Please don't hate yourself...I know it's hard not to feel like you want to punch your own face in (I've been there a thousand times) but just know that you're already better than you think you are - because you're trying to change.

Also, you're doing this at 27...so you've got a ten year jump on me.

Don't stop looking for your inner courage - you'll find it. Perhaps not immediately, but it will come in time.

And in the meantime, stay on this bus and let us know what you need.

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Sending support to this and green.
My inner argument with the ww has started early today.....am in the sidecar and there's plenty room without indies fat arse....

ma thank you. What's made her turn up early today? Are you having a shit day?

chippit i love that, wanting to punch my own face in . How I can relate to that! Self loathing and guilt really are the worst things that drinking brings eroding your self esteem and perpetuating the cycle.

Even if you are drinking congratulate yourselves on what you are achieving babes - be your own cheerleader. Build your self esteem and confidence will follow that you can beat the WW and make changes to your life. Beating ourselves with a stick all the time gets us nowhere.

I am in such a different place now to the one I was in just a few hours ago as I have just got back from training which I so nearly cancelled. I worked really hard and now I feel awesome, full if happy hormones and a sense of achievement, feel I have redeemed myself a little and my self esteem has rocketed. Amazing in the space of an hour. What can you do today babes that will make you feel good?

Even if it is just sort out the shoe cupboard or make that call to the bank, little victories all add up to make us more confident and feel more capable. Xx

Afternoon ALL, tis me, Mouse

ThisIs - read your name. This is YOUR time to do something about the continuous cycle you've found yourself in. I'm glad that you're going to try and get to a meeting. :) Imagine us all there with you, holding your hand if that helps. I was like Grreny at your age too, out all the time, drugs, drink, no sleep...... I wan't married but I did have DD to consider, I just didn't as I was in a rather bad place with my personal life at the time.....

Just take care of YOU for a while. Please go to the meeting, I know that even if you walk out thinking it was a waste of time that at least you will have tried something, and that in itself is a HUGE step sweetheart.

Plus, you are HERE, you are LOOKING for help, you WANT to change, you don't like feeling the way you do when you wake up, you don't the fact that DH is going to be shitty with you.... you want it all to STOP. And, it has to be YOU that does that but not on your own, never on your own xxx

Ma - you okay? xxx

Faire - I got your PM did you get my reply because I posted on here and it didn't post.

Greeny - fab post to ThisIs :) I Hope you are feeling better today/now? xxx

Thorn - welcome back, I remember you. How are you? Other than back and pissed off that you are?

Now, is GladToBe around today? We're here if you want to come and chat lovely :) xxx

I must dash, a million and 1 things to do before our hols on Friday, I can't wait but have so much to sort out before then! And a very bored Nemo to entertain! The weather is rubbish here.

pink well done on getting past 40 days, I've not got past three consecutive days so far. I think it's probably a good idea to adopt edin's system if thinking you are going back to day 1 will dishearten you.

thisis I really want to second the advice you have already been given. You are facing up to a problem and trying to tackle it; there are probably plenty of 27 year olds in the same boat as you who aren't even aware that they have a problem. Your doing something about it now, not waiting until you are another ten or twenty years down the line.

Glad your feeling better green :)

Well I spoke to friend about going out for a drink tonight and suggested we go for a meal as she's had a long journey to get here. She seemed happy to do that and I will drive us so I should get through day 2 (have lager in the house but I generally leave it).

Yeah, had a shit day with dad. His dementia is now at the point when we need some help so have been on the phone to social services etc. Just been tough. Put my PJs on at 5.30 to stop me going out to buy more. Have one glass left from yesterday which I am drinking now. Seriously tempted to go out but will HATE myself.
Ds starts High School tomorrow - gulp. Need to be clear headed in the morning for him

ma that's so tough when you have to be a 'parent' to both your kids and your own father life can be such a struggle can't it.

My DD is also starting secondary school and its scary! She's just had a mobile phone, started wearing a bra (nothing to fill it with, mind ) and just got her ears pierced. OMG, it will be boyfriends next, DH is twitching at the very idea...

alias I am an old hand at it with girls as we have a big age gap and both dds have now left secondary and are all grown up. But Ds is just a baby lol. He will actually be the youngest in his class at 11.5 but academically I know he's ready for it.
Yes, I think today I have felt pulled between mothering him and his concerns, and mothering dad and his struggles.

When does your dd start back? I know we are earlier up here than in England

Hello,
I'm struggling this evening.
Will now read thread.

Hey radio I'm struggling too.
Have just squeezed a half glass of lukewarm rose out of an old winebox. I'm ashamed but posting it so I can read in black and white how pathetic I am. Not that it will make any difference.

hey ma - you are NOT pathetic, don't feel ashamed.
I'm going to hopefully distract myself by reading a link I saw up thread...

Good luck radio.

evening! long time no see! just popped in and who should i see on here but the lovely silver hope you are ok old friend? sorry i havent been about much, been a bit poorly, had to make some fairly radical changes to my life but am feeling a lot better now - not working (apart from 2 days a week or i go stir crazy ) just been laying around a lot resting (i'm not dying or anything, just got huge problems with my 'innards', lets leave it at that! ) dh and dd really well, she is coming up to her first wedding anniversary, my dsil is a lovely fella that we are becoming more and more fond of.

sorry not to name check, i need to read the thread properly and catch up!

lovely to be 'home'!

I can see Jesus!

Wow, good to see you here on the bus.