Afternoon, tis me, Mouse
I have been in hell for 3 days, not drink wise, short break wise. In short, no sleep due to pissed up tw@ts next to us, resulting in us driving home at 9.30pm last night, a day early, getting stuck in a crush at Bristol Balloon Fiesta for 45 mins, with Nemo in his wheelchair screaming :(
DH almost killing said tw@ts next door, they were celebrating a 65th Bday until 2am.
We went to celebrate MIL's 70th and hardly saw her thank so family politics, I can't go into on a open forum but let's just say, never, ever again. And the place we stayed was a filthy, scummy, rank, mis-matched hell hole that stank of mould and smoking so Nemo's breathing was compromised until we'd managed to air the place.
However, I didn't drink more than 2 glasses of champagne and one Pimms. In 3 days when we were supposed be celebrating is just fine by me, I don't any more, or rather I don't need to drink more anymore :)
Anyway, I am home, we are home and I see one of our Babes is home too.
Glad - thank you for posting as honestly as you have, I suspect that it took a lot for you to put down what you have, and that what you did post isn't quite the full story even?
The fact that you lie to your shrink tells me that you are still stuck in they cycle that you were, that you're still trapped and hurting and wanting it all to stop?
Your posts are so raw, so true and every one of us can agree, nod and know exactly what you put down here, in front of us is how it is for you, and for some of us too.
The circular path you tread, that never seems to come to an end or a break, or even have an exit in its surrounding sky high walls must suffocate you at times, to feel so trapped by your own self, your own body, mentality, the way that you compute......
I love that you are back because you help so much Glad, you really, honestly do.
Welcome to Chip and Radio and welcome back ginger, have you been here before? Sorry not to NC everyone, I'm just catching up.
As for Baclofen, I was put on it for pain relief for a while with the spasms that my back gives me, it really worked but I can't remember for the life of me why I came off.............. oh yes, that's why, because I was told not to drink on it and that, at the time, was NOT an option for this little Mouse.
So I put drinking above my health, again. A lesson that I have finally, many, many bruises, blackouts, memory losses, embarrassing moments and lies later.......... and it's the best I have ever felt.
I even managed not to break my diet for the 3 days we were away, which was hard at first, we went to a Birthday lunch in a pub, huge menu, loaded with carbs, then Birthday cake, wine, ice-creams etc..... I managed to hold onto all that I have achieved at the end of week 4 and boy am I glad I did.
My body love me :) I drink 3 litres of water a day, get to eat good fats, and lots of protein, dairy and greens.... I've finally found a way to eat that stops the stomach cramps, dashes to the loo, weeks of constipation, bloating etc. My eyes are sparkling, my skin is flawless (apart from the suitcases under my eyes 
) and I have a constant level of energy instead of peaks and dips, plus, I've not fallen asleep in the day after eating. At all!
So, whilst you're thinking about quitting the drink, think about what else you can do to feel better, losing weight was my goal, but the other benefits of not eating carbs by the bucket load are plenty! :)
Be back later once I've caught up.
It's good to be home, I have missed you all and it was only a few days!! xxx