Hello, I'm Mouse :)
Welcome to the Bus, take a seat and enjoy the ride. We're a Bus full of drinkers, non-drinkers, those who are trying to give up for life, those who are giving up for a few hours because that's all that they can manage (which is fine!) or quitting just for today......
We don't wear Judgey Pants (they're far too last year darhling 
) but we have hugs a plenty and tough love when it's needed. Which isn't often!
So, what have you got to lose? If you're reading this, you're thinking that you are no longer happy with the way you drink, which tells me that this is the Bus for you. :)
If you'd like to see where we've been so far and what we've been up to, take a peek HERE
And if you want to knnow why we're here in the first place, take a look at THIS THREAD RIGHT HERE :)
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Mouseface · 05/08/2013 22:38
Crawling shamefully back on the Bus... 
Thanks for asking after me purple and ladame. Sorry not to namecheck everyone - I've missed several weeks.
I just got out of the habit of posting, real life was very busy for a while. And then my drinking started creeping back up again. Only a couple of glasses a night maybe, but it was starting to happen almost every night.
Have I missed anything interesting?
joey i was wondering where you were? wassup?
koala you seriously rock, babe. i remember you going cold turkey and was awestruck by your strength.
thurso dreading DH feeling the need to harvest the vegetable patch here too. I suppose I can get through it as long as he doesnt wake me up 
Off to the the Fringe tonight to see DD2 in her show again. I saw it on Tuesday with the girls from work and we are all off tonight en famille to watch it again. Will try and film a wee bit and put it on you tube .
Thanks lonnika
The best bit (similar what koala said upthread) is that I still feel like me - I still have the same (generally inappropriate) sense of humour and still get irrirated by the same things. I've gone the odd month in the past without alcohol but I did it to prove that I can (iyswim) and I was really grouchy with it. It's early days but I feel so much better!
Evening all
radio I was exactly where you were today. Not in tesco, but in a place for early dinner which would ALWAYS mean a glass of wine. Ordered a mocktail instead and it kinda did the trick - it helped that the waiter was a FOX 
. Didn't stop me reading the wine list about 3 times though. I'm hoping that will subside soon. Hope it does for you too.
pervy 20 pounds for me too - if only I could wish it away. Good luck on TTC. Don't underestimate what a good night's sleep does for your overall wellbeing and hopefully your ability to conceive. I freakin love to sleep
This I was on day one last Sunday and I'm already here on day 5 - it wasn't too bad. This bus helped. One wee day at a time. Sending you a hug.
Tomorrow sees my first session with a counsellor. No idea what to expect and really hope I like her. I'm not great at getting past a first impression.
Wish me luck and hugs to you all.
Also, what the FREAKIN' HELL was that pumpkin 'pie' thing on Celeb Masterchef???
Thisis, yes, I feel quite a lot better than I did (and I'm starting to see my cheekbones again ). I only really have anxiety when I've been drinking and then I usually have it for a few days after I've been on a bender. Still get flashes occasionally but it feels easier to deal with when I know I've not been adding to it by drinking.
Hope you're feeling ok too x
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lonnika well done on 100 days - that is such a remarkable achievement, one day at a time.
chippit yup that 'pumpkin slush pie' would drive most people to drink
To many others posting about holidays, I find your posts interesting because I think that on most of my holidays I actually drank less than I did during non-holiday time. I found that on holiday I had less 'private' time to nip to the shops and get a bottle of wine, I had fewer places to hide my stash (or my empties), and I had much more contact time, so more observation of my drinking habits. There seemed to be collective agreement about buying x number of bottles of wine, and I had to be particularly sneaky to buy, and hide, and drink some gut-rot-brandy to 'top up'.
After a holiday with some friends (during which my normal drinking habits felt constrained - as above) everyone else was discussing how the 2 glasses of wine at lunch and the 4 glasses in the evening were making them feel 'liverish' and how they were heading back home ofr several weeks of low consumption. Meanwhile I was left gagging for more most nights, and occasionally sneaking a few glugs of aforementioned gut-rot stuff. I was desperate to get back to 'normal' drinking 
Morning all
Radio it's important to point out that my 'dinner out' was with my 2YO DD and it was at 4pm - where she had macaroni cheese and I had a starter fishcake. Just me and her. Noone else. I don't work Thu or Fri and spend this time with my little one. Sadly, I also see it as an excuse to drink wine at lunch / early dinner time and have actually found myself hiding my glass behind the menu when I bumped into someone I know.
(shudder).
A regular dinner out with hubby would be prefixed by G&T, probably half a bottle of wine and then I'd find an excuse to keep drinking until closing time. I too am probably a long way off trying to cope with this bad boy.
Also, I've now talked to two people about my shit relationship with alcohol. My DH and my best friend. I was terrified because I didn't want to be judged and part of me kinda knew they had probably already formed an opinion about it.
I have to say radio as soon as the words 'i think I have a problem' came out of my mouth, the burden lifted a wee bit. Not hugely, but just a bit. Both of them were really supportive and promised to help me and reassured me that I was loved and respected. So I feel a bit less alone in my journey. I know it's a scary thing to admit to yourself, let alone anyone else, but it could just be another avenue of support??
If not, you've always got the bus. .
Will report later on counsellor session. Do you think if I wear a suit and take a briefcase she may give me the benefit of the doubt?
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