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My marraige is over...

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Lemmingswife · 08/06/2006 22:56

I know it is for the best, but I am hurting really bad atm & keep thinking of my poor babies.Sad

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Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 15:04

Also noticed a picture of H & me on our wedding day in a frame on my Nan's table.
Everything has got a bit much & I am having a bad 5 minutes.

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tyedye · 25/06/2006 15:53

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Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 16:00

Hi tyedye, you are back from the beach!
How are you?
It is horrible. I am not having a good afternoon & my mother hasn't helped matters.
Sometimes I cope okay & sometimes (like now) I am a complete wreck.
I cannot believe my own family are being so unsupportive.

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Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 16:17

Hope all is calm for you, tyedye.

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glitterfairy · 25/06/2006 16:30

Lw you have loads fo support here we are all routing for you. The text from H is still manipulation dont let it affect you please! As for your mum she is hiding behind her own insecurities and her own lack of willingness to address her issues over her own marriage.

Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 16:40

I know I have loads of support here, GF & I cannot tell you how much I appreciate it. You lot have really kept me going.
I am not sucked in by the text message, but it just kind of broke me to read it after coming home already churned up from my insensitive mother!

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glitterfairy · 25/06/2006 16:45

It is always the little things LW, one night sitting down without someone next to you or going shopping and bringing it all home on your own (even though you have done it millions of times yourself).

In the end time is a great healer even though that sounds like a trite saying. I cant imagine how I coped in the beginning but I did and I am here stronger than ever before and in many mnay ways happier. yes I miss some family things but I am really lucky as well adn I dont miss the abuse physical or mental.

tyedye · 25/06/2006 16:49

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Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 17:05

I can imagine that things are lots better for you now, GF & I know that one day I will feel better. This is the hard bit - the getting there.
The looking at my boys laying watching TV with their Daddy blissfully unaware, knowing I have to soon find a way to break the news & possibly break their little hearts. Also knowing that H is soon to leave our home & my life, even though I know it is the right thing to do, it still hurts like nothing on Earth - he was a huge 10 years of my life & could be a good husband and support to me when he wasn't angry.
Silly things like watching my sister & BIL looking so together while I am going through this.
The fact my parents are being not only very little support to me, but also making me feel like the worst person in the world for doing what I am doing, is just the pits.
I don't know how I am going to get through this without having some kind of breakdown, but I guess I will, just as you have, GF.
Hearing how you lot that have been through this have come out the other side so much stronger really helps.
You lovely MN lot have definitely been my main support through this & kept me going.
I think I would have had a bl**dy mental breakdown without you lot!
Thank you.

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Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 17:07

Not flippant at all, tyedye!

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Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 18:45

You poor thing. What a bastard!
Glad you are okay now & feeling stronger.
I have just had my sister on the phone & told her about how much Mum & Dad are getting to me through all this.
She told me that she had Dad going on at her too, saying that H is like a son to him & he will not support me!"
Great Dad eh?!

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Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 18:46

Glad I have my sister on side though.

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glitterfairy · 25/06/2006 19:32

LW forget them they are not only not helping they are hindering you adn making you more upset. They are part of the circle of abuse now and oyu ened to escape form it all. Perhaps one day you will be ok wiht them but for now I would turn your mind to anything practical which can help you such as money and how much you need to live on and how you will cope on your own.

Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 19:48

I know, GF - it's hard though.
H knows I am upset because of them & has just said "Good luck to you for the rest of your life"

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Smellen · 25/06/2006 19:52

Hi. Been reading your postings. Fattiemumma - think you should rename yourself GirlWithABigHeart. Sounds like you have been through the mill, but still kind enough to post your support to LW. It is good to see people supporting each other - the horrid X's haven't won in the end .

Can only agree with what others have said about manipulation through the courts. Disentangling myself from the X was relatively uncomplicated - but he still managed to make it drag on for a good couple of years, and I remember being horrified at some of the solicitors' bills!! However, keep strong and you will get through it eventually.

LW, you will find your H will use every ruse available to 'win' you back - eliciting pity from your parents, ranting, declaring undying love, threatening etc. Remember you have done the thing that will most wind him up - you have removed yourself from his control. He isn't going to make it easy for you.

Regarding the guilt you feel over the impact this is going to have on your boys, I'm not particularly qualified to comment, as I was lucky enough not to be a mum when I left the X. However, I guess you will have to be bigger that your 'D'H in all this and try not to let any bitterness or anger that you will feel for him get in the way of agreeing suitable access arrangements. I have friends who have split from their partners and the kids still manage to see both parents regularly.

Anyway, gotta go - keep strong!!

dinosaure · 25/06/2006 19:59

Sorry not to have been around this weekend lw. So glad to see you are getting all this fantastic support, but that your H is still pratting around and trying to mess you about.

Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 20:10

Hi, dino. Hope you enjoyed your w/e.
Yes, he is messing about alright. He is trying to get me back for hiding things on the pc now, by trying to do the same with me re his friggin texts!

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Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 20:26

He was sending a text & said he was notgoing to tell me who he was texting, but that it was a woman.
I said "Found someone else already have you?"
He said he wasn't going to tell me, as I kept what I was doing on the pc from him & wanted meto know how it felt!
Turns out he was texting my sister! What a prat!

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Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 20:32

Maybe I shouldn't be sad when he leaves!

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spangles · 25/06/2006 21:10

You shouldnt be sad when he moves out, just make sure you get the locks changed straight away.

Lemmingswife · 25/06/2006 21:43

Hadn't thought to do that!

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