Evening lovely, lovely babes, thank you for all kind thoughts.
Green how are you feeling? I so get where you are coming from with being fed up with yourself that is precisely where I was last September when I found the Bus, the whole getting drunk, hungover, shame routine makes you weary, hope you are not being too hard on yourself sweetie (( ))
Libertine Maybe all the break-ups are in part due to people being bled dry with mortgage, childcare, petrol, gas, electricity etc etc. I feel all of the above have put a huge strain on my relationship. I feel shattered with situation and know my dh will fight and fight to keep us together but I feel I have been here before...and before. Things change momentarily then before you know it you are back where you started and just feel so pissed off. How did your dog walking go? I work as a nurse and remember reading an article about a nurse who gave up to be a dog walker and said it was the best thing she ever did, great job, more money so really hope it works out for you.
Curry thank you for kind words and hope you found speed and clarity with what you were doing today! 
Welcome Dolly glad you found this fab bus and hope it/we can offer you support. How did your meeting go?
Obrigada Day 13 is amazing! Do you have a plan or ODAAT?
Lemony Sorry that you had to go through a difficult time with your own son, was it your son's df or step-f who was being bullying towards him? Thank you for your lovely kind words, I was a single mum with dd after getting the strength after having her to leave an abusive relationship and always thought if i had another Id love to do it properly with right guy and all that, suppose I felt like a bit of a failure that here I may be again. The way you described your partners behaviour towards your ds is how I feel my dh is towards dd.
I loved your description of your family being The Three Musketeers
LRD Well done on getting lot's good days ticked off, hope that gives you the strength to get more and more
Guggs I don't think he does realise how is behaviour is to my dd. I think he thinks he is being a good parent and she needs firmness. I think his dm was quite strick but then she would also have given love and nurture too which I don't think he does so he comes across as being harsh, unfair, overly strict iyswim? I'm so sorry you had such an awful experience with step-f and dm, that is so not the experience I want my dd to have. Sometimes my dh will treat her in a way i don't agree with and i think ami just as bad as him for letting him? He suggested counselling for us so I am sure if it meant us trying to make it work he would go to parenting classes. I just don't know if I want to but not sure if I should be trying to make it work?
Mouse How has today bee sweetie, hope little mouse been ok and your hormones have not been driving you too crazy (( )) hugs to you lovely mouse x
Purple Hope things getting better for you, did you manage to get all outfits & things organised for dc. I will be glad when red nose day, it feels like it has been going on and on and so much expense!! 
Wishing all babes strength tonight
Day 33 for me but i am actually a little scared at what NOT drinking is doing...I'm starting new job in 4 weeks and thinking of leaving my dh!! Sometimes easier to just stay where you are??