The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Boinging Into Spring, With A Dance And A Sing!

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Hello, tis me, Mouse and I'm one of the regular travellers on this Bus!

This is a Bus for drinkers, the completely sober, those fighting to stay sober and everyone in between! No matter what, you're welcome here if you feel you don't like the way you drink anymore, or you're worried for someone else.

Take a seat.

You'll be listened to, looked after and maybe (if you're lucky), slapped with our resident Squid, Barry whom I'm sure you'll meet in time!

So, what have you got to lose by posting? What have you got to lose by coming to say hello and telling us why you don't like the way you drink anymore?

And, if you'd like to see where we've been so far HERE IS THE LAST THREAD

And the reason we're ALL here in the first place, the first ever thread is ALL HERE

See you soon xx

Sorry not to nc. Am feeling really deflated. I got to the AA meeting venue five minutes late (it took 30 mins to get there and find the place - rather than the 20 mins I had estimated) and there was no-one waiting for me. I text the woman but didn't hear anything 'til just now ("better luck next time"?!). Her phone was off in the meeting (understandable but she did know I was coming from a bit of a distance). So, I sat in my car outside in the car park hoping to hear something - then drove all the way home again. An hours driving and screwing my courage up for nothing. I thought about going in and trying to find the room but the Health Centre was huge, tons of rooms, I'd have been there all night.

Deep, deep sigh. Feel crap. xx

Oh purple how frustrating and how brave of you to go. Well done for turning out. Please don't be put off

Thank you babes for listening and your support, feeling a bit embarrassed now and over dramatic, there is certainly no one on this bus dealing with less. Who'd be a woman ay? I'd definitely come back as a man given the option :)

Ma wish I could beam you out of there! How do things get so bad, where does the love go? I sometimes wonder if a happy marriage for life is a utopia that eludes most of us

Oh purple so sorry, don't let that courage go to wasted, dig in, keep going, do try again for another meeting, you've come this far. libertine try taking gaviscon and if it feels a bit better could well be a stomach problem. Are you belching at all? I'm sorry if you've already said this but have they checked your gallbladder?

Having a massive 'Fuck it' moment here. She's sent a text but I'm feeling really childish and abandoned so don't feel inclined to reply just now. "Better luck next time"!? Sheesh!

Libs I think going back to the Docs is a good move. Better to get it checked out properly.

Ma My ex used to be like that too - I think the whole 'getting angry if you don't want to make up' is passive aggressive. Living life like that is like walking on egg shells. I feel for you.

Green Ta, love. Sorry you are struggling so much just now. And it doesn't matter who else has what else going on - the stuff that is affecting you is just as important to all of us. Keep posting. xxxxxx

I NEED A HUG!!!

Completely agree Green that there is no such thing as a perfect marriage, it's bloody hard work & the grass always seems greener elsewhere! My friend was said to me grass only looks greener if yours isn't getting watered ha ha!
Purple you poor woman, I would of thought the woman could of waited that little longer knowing you were coming from a distance...But try to look at it as that was your dummy run. Next time you'll know where to go, the route to take & how long it'll take you so when you go in you'll feel a bit more in control (( ))
Mouse, thinking its been a difficult day? Hope you all get a good nights sleep.
I'm off to bed to read some Allen Carr & a day with my boy has wiped me out, back to work for a rest tomorrow
Night brave babes x

Purple, sorry it didn't work out. Maybe tell her you waited... that way she is more likely to put herself out next time.

btw a carpet in arented place is reckoned to last 10 years by lawso if the carpet is completely ruined, you can only be charged a proportion of the cost to replace based on its age as a proportion of 10 years.

in bed. feeling pants. please let this not be noro. so much to do this week.

have a good evening all xxx

Sending a virtual hug to you purps x

((Purple)) look how far you have come. Look at what you are achieving every day.try again, and again , and again. You can do this.

Huge hugs Purple don't let it get u down. *Ma I have been where u are where u r. Is there really no way u cannot just leave him sooner rather than in the future?

stupid phone . .

I suppose I could if I was stronger, more determined, more selfish. But I can't yet.

It's not selfish Ma, it's self preservation Lovely. xx

Day 1 done, thank you Babes x

I understand Ma and I hope u didn't think I was being flippant.

purple She should have let you know to come really early, then you could meet people, get settled,have a cup of tea. Why didn't she come and get you? At most meetings people put themselves out for new comers and try their best to make them feel welcome.I'd still encourage you to give it a go another time.

Green and ma xxx

I'm feeling generally pissed off and self pitying. Think i'll take my hot water bottle and book club book off to bed and try to get a grip.

Well done on Day 1 Green:)

Hey lovelies.

FFS - what a pile of shite some of you have been dealt today.

Ma - don't apologise for what I'm about to say but your life is mirroring my past right now, that we could be one. I can feel the fear in your post about making up is crushing me. The weight of the anger, the 'what next' is so very heavy. I saw that Lemony suggested (as I have) posting your own thread in Relationships but we both know (as maybe others do to) that nothing can be said to take you out of your labyrinth of torture.

I wish, more than I wish anything right now that I could stop this in it's tracks..... scoop you up. Remove your DH and get him the help that he so desperately needs to stop punishing you for not loving him anymore. I'm sorry Ma. You can't just walk away, lock the door behind you and leave with an air of relief. I so wish that you could and one day (LOOK AT WHAT I HAVE NOW) you will. Much love to you Ma. I want the pain to stop. Please don't have sex with him, don't let him win, don't let him control you. Don't let him near you. Please? xx

Purple - that is appalling that you were not waited for. I'm shocked. If that was me, I'd have excused myself from the meeting and stood outside waiting for you but hey, maybe that's not how it works?

So, well done for going!!!! I'm sorry that I have nothing more to help and that you are against it £££ wise right now...... life can be pretty shit can't it? But you will get through this, you've gotten through worse, time to kick XP up the arse re the money owed..... Lots of love to you xx

Clutter - hey, sorry, not a bad day for me, my Hormentals are fucking me up big time at the mo.... one minute I am :) the next and then and then so MrMouse is to say the least.

Nemo is testing and pushing me so much just now, I've so much to organise, sort out, get in place, set up.... and manage my own health? Pha!

Greeny - sorry you are struggling sweetheart, your health has to be in the forefront of your mind, those meds sound hellish xx

Curry - what the actual fuck?? Groping at a bar? What is this the 80's? You are hot, you've lost weight, you've lost the fear, you've lost the shadow you had behind you, watching you, waiting for you to fall....... waiting to laugh at you.

Well..... get you gorgeous lady! You don't need groping. You do need to stop drinking and you know that now. YOU ARE GETTING THERE!! :) xx

Sorry not to NC everyone, my head is battered. I'm past that point, you know the one that makes you feel weak? So very tired.

I need to go and see to Nemo he is v unsettled.... we went swimming and it was great but he had lots of stares again which bothered me, more than him. Silly Mouse.

Night all. xxx

(CJ - stick around and have a lovely breakfast, I'll get round to making one again soon, I promise Babes )

Sorry can't stay but just wanted to say purple HUGS

Must go to bed now, rotten cold

More HUGS

Morning, got weighed last night as need to lose weight (50 and fat not an attractive sight). Have been eating everything in sight since stopping drinking 12 days ago, have lost no weight but have lost 3lb in body fat, thinking about it last night I genuinely believe that is due to the fact of not drinking!
Awake early this morning so instead of sitting on my butt drinking tea and smoking fags I went for a walk before work ... result