The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Boinging Into Spring, With A Dance And A Sing!

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Hello, tis me, Mouse and I'm one of the regular travellers on this Bus!

This is a Bus for drinkers, the completely sober, those fighting to stay sober and everyone in between! No matter what, you're welcome here if you feel you don't like the way you drink anymore, or you're worried for someone else.

Take a seat.

You'll be listened to, looked after and maybe (if you're lucky), slapped with our resident Squid, Barry whom I'm sure you'll meet in time!

So, what have you got to lose by posting? What have you got to lose by coming to say hello and telling us why you don't like the way you drink anymore?

And, if you'd like to see where we've been so far HERE IS THE LAST THREAD

And the reason we're ALL here in the first place, the first ever thread is ALL HERE

See you soon xx

Joey - ever since he's gone back to school after his op and being so poorly with colds and infections, again and again.... he's regressed right back to where he was way before I left him and he was happy.

He did't let DH near him, we had weeks of hell, emotional torment and really horrid, nasty times and eventually, DH broke down.

We're recovering slowly... gradually. Nemo is getting there, slowly but surely. I left him for half and hour on Weds and he had a meltdown so I'm worried that if I keep leaving him, he won't want to go to school so tomorrow, he's in a half day so I'll leave him for less time, if at all.

It's been so very hard to get through. And we're not there yet

Thank you for asking.

Purple - you around?

Ma - please, please don't engage with either of them if they are in the middle of WW3. Just sort out what you need to, get in the bath (LOCK THE DOOR) and then go to bed. You don't need this shit anymore. I'm so sorry xx

Thanks LRD kind words.
How are you?

mouse Hope that the spring [what Spring?] brings better health to nemo . I can imagine how it must feel for a 3/ 4 yr old to have an op and then lots of colds, hard for him to understand that he will feel better soon. x

joey has the wine stayed in the car? Keeping my fingers crossed for better times for you too.

libertine how did you manage to do that? lol.

guggs are you OK? If the course isnt for you then move on. You are not stupid, it just isn't for you.
I'm OK. Dh isn't talking to me at all - its quite funny really. Dd hasn't come home,I know where she is but he doesn't and he hasn't even asked about her. What a twunt!
I will go for a bath soon. I know at some point the next stage will be him wanting sex to "make up". Cue hollow laugh.
Thanks for your help babes. You give me tremendous strength

Been thinking of you Ma That 'don't want to go home' feeling is awful. Your home should be the sanctuary you got to when shit happens - not avoid because shit is happening there. Make your plans, look to the future. Take care.

Joey So hope your meds get sorted soon. Glad you are feeling less anxious now that you know you have your prescription.

Guggs I understand where you are right now. Don't feel like you've failed - push on and find a course that is right for you and makes you feel fulfilled and happy.

Hey Mouse Thanks Lovely. It's been a bit of a weird day after the emotional meeting yesterday. I suppose I'm a bit worn out, and a little bit down, and recovering from all that tension. Sore throat and a bit 'coldy' too. It's such a shame that Nemo seemed to have a few good times at school recently and now it's not doing him any good. Has anything changed?

Lots and lots of little bits of stress here today but I have made a decision to get the dog re homed. We really don't give her the attention she needs and the mess and expense stresses me out. She deserves so much better and I feel guilty every time I look at her. DD is upset but has come round to the fact that the dog would be much happier somewhere else. I would have thought a dog would have reduced my stress but, unfortunately, it's the opposite.

Sorry not to nc everyone, I'm knackered.

Day 4 completed here. Sipping my Coke and about to start my Allen Carr book

Night Babes, sleep well. xxxxx

Hey, lovely babes

Ta ma I'm fine, just feeling a bit hard done by. Sorry but I'm afraid that the word 'twunt' does spring to mind when you talk about 'd' h. Have a lovely,long soak in that bath Ma. x

purple aww that's sad about your dog but if you can't give her the attention then it's the right thing to do.Well done on day 4. Actually, never mind the bloody dog, I hope YOU are happier soon too.

Night lovely babes. xx

indie you made me laugh bit the thought of touching dh's unmentionables other than putting them through a mangle, makes me want to puke.
Mrmouse is as lush in real life as in his pics? < comes over all peculiar >
I gotta get me a mrmousetrap!

And indie where were you when I was in Liverpool last weekend?

Evening IsinDe!! at the lovely, kind words, the pleasure was all mine, you lovely woman you, and at the plan for Ma's Nob of a DH.

Just wanted to pop on and say goodnight lovely Brave Babes. Sleep well.

Ma - you're one day closer to your freedom. Hold onto that.

Purple - keep going, one baby step at a time. Half steps, whatever. xx

venus - are you out there? How's DD? I'm worried about you xx

Night all xx

One day closer to freedom.
I like that.
Night all
X

Hi Babes Wow I log off for a few days and so much happens!. Sorry to hear that you are having a difficult time Ma but strangely you do sound positive keep going, moving forward. Well done purple on getting a few days under your belt keep calm love and carry on. Guggs it's so hard keeping all the plates spinning I wish you luck and hope you find a better course that suits you. And Mouse I never know what to say as I am in awe of your courage and fighting spirit.

Getting closer to 3 months every day and I'm feeling great. Big life change and house move (temporarily) in next 6 months and I feel ready to take on the challenge so updating my computer skills in hope that someone will employ me- course v expensive but I've got to feel confident I can perform or I won't get past the interview stage. House almost re-decorated only kitchen to tackle - think flaky plaster and old units that I can't afford to change - so I'm going for the vintage/shabby chic look there.

Got DD1 with me this week and week off work too, still 5:2ing and have lost total of 18 lbs - 2 to go to first target. I fit into my size 14 dress (with the help of spanx) and am going to hang an old but lovely size 12 up next for inspiration.

AA'd last night at womens group and actually spoke in the meeting for only the second time ever - don't know about one step at a time, I'm taking it one word at a time - finally realise that in Step 2 it says 'came to realise ....'
That's how it feels a sort of comforting wave slowly slipping over me and opening up new horizons.

Sending love to you all and as its late I WILL NOT BE DRINKING TOMORROW.

Koala thanks for posting, you are such an inspiration! Just three months in and look how things could be Babes, slimmer, happier, accomplishing things, all power to you xx

Echo what Greeneyed says Koala, you are an inspiration:)

Morning, tis me, Mouse

Pants night with Nemo, back in school with him soon and my lovely BIL arrives later. :)

Koala - you are one BraveBabe! 3 months? Fantastic. Weight loss, feeling brighter, lighter and more like a fighter! GO YOU! Absolutely great that you've gotten this far and done so very well. xx

Just wanted to pop in and say have a good day everyone, may get chance to come back later or just before school but I need to clean some of the house at least! Tis a mess!

Morning all
Shouldn't be here - just popping in to say hi
WW has been visiting in the evenings - have had 2 glasses on two nights and it's not even friday - not good
No big drinking but it's a slippery slope
I know what it is, it's work and house stress

KOALA - you HEROINE!

Good to see you all

Libertine look after that pulled muscle and well done - look after yourself! great achievement.

gugg, sorry the course is not going well. Remember in science getting the result you did not want is not a "failed experiment" - it is an experiment that has told you something you needed to know - are you deciding this is not the course for you? - something you needed to know.

How are you LRD?

Mouse, sorry to hear about pants night with Nemo.

Right off to do some work

Hi lovely babes

curry thank you for the kind words. The lovely bus has helped me again, given me courage to call my tutor and let him know about my decision to leave. He's a nice man and I feel horrid calling him. curry tell that WW to fuck off! Buy something nice for tonight and look after yourself. x

isinde I love the chilli related advice. LOL. ma are you sure you don't feel like cooking?

koala YOU ARE AMAZING - well done. I think you must be at the 3 month stage? When you get the little badge /chip/ stitch on patch thingy, you have to post on here and allow us all to congratulate you. Good news.

My day has been pretty trying all round but I've held it together. I even had a sane conversation with my mother. I ignored the emotional blackmail and had a civilised (short) conversation.

Today I will not be drinking, despite being fucking tempted and really not wanting to be a grown up anymore.

Afternoon ladies......

Won't namecheck but {HUG} everyone.

When I said I thought that DS had BPD, I didn't mean bi-polar disorder, I meant bordline personality disorder. I have been concerned about him for a long time and I was on the receiving end of some seriously insulting BBM's from him yesterday. I googled and found the website Psychology Today which mentions borderline personality disorder and this is my DS down to a tee.

Today is Day 1 again - as I have to drive 70 miles to take DS to a training session on the coast at 8am tomorrow, I will not be drinking.....

Have a good weekend everyone.

Afternoon

Sorry I am so crap at posting

I am in an airport now. I am not keen on flying. I am literally surrounded by alcohol and will be in the air as well. I am actually panicking a bit :(

toothbrush I hope you are OK now
koala you are just bloody amazing
Dh is working overnight tonight so blessed peace in the house. Have lit all the candles and Ds and I are eating Ben and Jerry's out of the tub.dd2 won't come home. Says she'll come home on Sunday if "he's not there". He hasn't spoken to me or phoned me since Wednesday.Meh, I'm okay. Watch me survive!

Russell Brand on BBC Three, right now, about addiction. Fascinating.

jack you ok?

ma mmm Ben and jerrys

Morning all brave babes, sorry not to have been on. Internet been off & between dd & ds I never get my I-phone.
Not had a drink in 4 weeks. I am finally getting on with things, tidying the house, put clothes on eBay that I've been trying to do for 3 years.
My Allen Carr book arrived yesterday & I'm hoping this really helps to keep me going.
I feel that one of the reasons I'm not drinking wine is because I basically get tipsy off a glass & have a headache the next day after 2 & can't manage my crazy, wild 3 year old after a few glasses. But feel that when he calms down, sleeps past 5-6am is less dependent on me then I will probably go back to having some wine. Is that wrong? I really do miss the release of tension a glass of wine brings but no at the moment it's not worth it.
My 3 year old seems to be getting worse??. Proper terrible two tantrums. He started nursery in January so I'm wondering of that could be the cause? Like he's so trying to fit into this new environment he then let's it all out with me. I think I can kinda understand that but it's exhausting.
Big hugs to all babes struggling. I'm in Scotland & it feels like winter is back with a vengeance just now...where'd spring go? x

Aye clutter its Baltic the day.

Hello babes. Sorry, I got distracted yesterday.

lib - torn stomach muscle - ouch! How the heck did you do that?

purple - sorry to hear about the dog, but better for it and for you in the long run, by the sounds. You're doing the right thing.

isinde - hello lovely!

curry - you bash that wine witch back down. Hope you're making good progress without the distraction of MN. I sometimes wonder about hiding all the rest and just leaving this thread - but I've never been disciplined enough.

clutter - that sounds really stressful. Is there anything you can persuade yourself to have instead of the wine? Like buying yourself a glossy magazine as a treat, or special chocolates? I was getting through litres of ice cream a while back when I was successfully not drinking, but didn't put on weight because of course the wine calories aren't tiny either. Dunno, but it might work.

ma - ooh, candles and peace sounds lovely! Has it lasted to morning?

I am doing nicely so far, day 6, but that has been hugely helped by our houseguest - having someone around makes me much less likely to drink. He's off home for the weekend (poor lad, he can't find a room to rent near his new job, and he's lived with his parents up til now - he's nearly 30!). So I shall have to make a real effort. Also (and excuse TMI) I have proper horrible period pains. Ouch, ouch, ouch.

But still, day 6, feels pretty nice!

Hope everyone is having a good weekend.