I asked a man out, it was the whole omg I can't even think straight around him, felt sick the butterflies were going so hard. We ended up shagging for 6 months, he was going to put me in his aunties house (cos I only have a flat and was maoning about wanting a garden) and I realised no way could I shga him forever to keep a roof over mine and dc head. I still fancy him now but I see it's physical and we don't actually match apart from the sex it was fucking amazing, but I had to do it because I thought well I can't get old and sit in an old people home thinking I wish I did.
I asked his friend for his bb pin (he had already met me at a party) and we arranged a date, I didn't specifically say oh I fancy you I text so whats good and it went from there. He asked me out and obviously fancied me back.
I do think I wasted a lot of head space on him but I don't regret it I had to find out if that omg I want to shag him and I can't think about anything else meant anything more.