Sorry - VSM here again.

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I'm sorry to keep bothering you.

My H hasn't been seen by anyone (that I'm in regular contact with) since nye and I'm actually quite surprised that he hasn't contacted me today about seeing the children.

Do you think I should just give him a quick call/text?? I'm obviously glad not to speak to him atm but I'm a bit worried.

TIA, Me xx

Hello again, Thanks so much for your messages .

I know today that I was being stupid for even considering it... just seeing him so upset did nothing but make me hurt more. I can't go to another session. I know what I keep wanting I can't have. The best I can do is to keep us safe I just really don't know the best for us all to go about it. We are safe now but I need to think long term.

I couldn't sleep again last night though.. I was still awake at 6am, despite having a long bath about 1am to chill out. I had to get up for school at 7.30am. My brain just wouldn't switch off. I am feeling even more tired than usual (I've been getting 3 to 4 hrs most nights).

I could probably sleep now if I had the chance, I'm not sure leaving 2 small children running around is actually a good idea though but I think I could drop off.

I must get some sleep tonight though, if you see me on here past about 11 or 12 please tell me to go to bed!! I have a major day tomorrow...

Thanks again, me xx

You can't help being nice, you know. It's a good thing that one of you is kind and selfless, as he is certainly incapable of it. Good luck tomorrow. Try to sleep. Don't go on Mumsnet late, it will just get you fired up - very useful sometimes, not so useful at others

Have a good night.
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