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Why have an affair if you dont want to leave your marriage?

187 replies

bogeyface · 08/09/2012 12:59

I am confused.

My H had an affair, and was gutted to be found out as a) he thought he was cleverer than that (Hah! He wishes!!) and b) he desperately didnt want me to kick him out.

But why? I have seen on MN where men get caught and beg to be given another chance and I dont understand why. If you are cheating then surely you have checked out of the marriage emotionally and/or sexually, so why not take advantage of not having to have the "I am lleaving you" conversation and just leave?

I genuinely dont get why so many people cheat but dont want to lose their marriages when they are found out.

OP posts:
bogeyface · 10/09/2012 10:56

Post as I said above, i believe him when he says that he loved me. What I dont know is what his idea of love is, and thats the problem.

OP posts:
BelieveInPink · 10/09/2012 10:57

"To be fair, I've also talked to lots of 'third parties' (mostly OW) who also struggle with this question. They cannot understand why a man is having an affair with them if they are happy at home and want to remain in their marriages (and some men are honest about that, at least.) They tie themselves in knots trying to overlay their own beliefs onto the situation, despite what the man is telling them."

Stern...in your opinion, why do they? I'm not talking about short term flings (when the man is probably just trying to get his rocks off) but in long term affairs, why does he bother if he's so happy at home and has so much to lose?

PostBellumBugsy · 10/09/2012 10:59

bogey, if you'll forgive me for saying this - you believing that you husband says he loves you after he has had an affair, is a bit like believing him when he says the world is flat.
It is not what he says that matters, it is how he treats you. Actions always speak a million times louder than words.

Looksgoodingravy · 10/09/2012 11:03

As someone who has recently been through this I have to agree with fiventhree's post earlier. In dp's case the ow provided him with an ego massage, they were there to hang off his every word, feeding him with compliments and agreeing with everything he said, having fun, away from the hum drum at home. Once this ego feeding bubble had been burst the reality hit dp like a sledgehammer, ow fell like a deck of cards and were discarded without a backwards glance.

Looksgoodingravy · 10/09/2012 11:04

Just to point out, we are still together.

adrastea · 10/09/2012 11:05

I have a friend who has been serially cheating in his wife since the 6th year of their, now 20+ year, marriage. He considers himself to be happily married. Has a few moans now about the marriage, but I think these are quite recent and I don't think he thinks they are that serious or that he is unhappy. He will admit the affairs (or random sex) have never been because he thought he was unhappy or that there were relationship problems. From what I can tell he doesn't tell the OW he's unhappy, that he is thinking of leaving and doesn't slag off his wife to them. They apparently know the score. He said he came close to leaving for one person a long time ago, but that's the only time he's been emotionally involved like that.

On the other hand, I have known several people who were deeply unhappy, felt trapped, had tried to sort things out and were decent people, just utterly in a mess before they had an affair.

I have noticed that on MN, the default is normally to assume or advise the poster that affairs are always the first time and the unhappiness the cheater is professing is as a result of the affair - as per Shirley Glass, when really some are exit affairs where the relationship should really be ending and the cheater was legitimately unhappy before (even though obviously it would've been far better to do it without an affair)

bogeyface · 10/09/2012 11:30

But Adrastea, it is often the first time the an MNer has found that their partner is cheating. Would it be in anyway helpful to toss out the suggestion that this isnt the first time? What good would that do?

All anyone (including an OP) can do is deal with the known facts, and if the known facts are of one affair then yes, it is assumed that this is the first and only affair until such time as evidence comes to light that proves otherwise.

Saying to a distraught woman that her H is not only cheating on her now, but has probably done so before and that this might be his exit affair is so far from helpful that I am surprised you think that we should! Often the OP will say that they thought they had a good marriage, that the cheater had shown no signs of unhappiness until (almost always) the time the affair started. This usually comes to light later, when they realise that the cheater wasnt actually unhappy but was justifying having an affair, they had met the person they wanted to shag and needed to make it ok in their heads to do it. I think you are underestimating the sheer selfishness that is involved in many affairs, they are not always the convenient way to leave, thats why I asked the question.

If you dont want to leave, as most cheaters dont, why have an affair?

OP posts:
adrastea · 10/09/2012 11:33

That was a typo on my part - first time was suppose to be first type, i.e. out of the two types of affairs I was talking about. Phone autocorrect did that, sorry :).

PostBellumBugsy · 10/09/2012 11:35

There isn't really a convenient way to leave a marriage though, specially one with children.
To be brutally honest, I'd rather my ex-H left because he fell in love with someone else, than that he fell out of love with me & didn't want to live with me & our children anymore. Somehow, it is less ego bruising & conveniently gives me someone to blame! Grin

bogeyface · 10/09/2012 11:43

Ah ok.

But I would say that any unhappiness isnt the result of an affair but the result of getting found out. The regret only appears when they realise that they havent got away with it, that they are not as clever as they thought they were, that they have lost their wife, children and home and that the OW isnt actually as smoking hot as he thought when she is in a foul mood because of a bad period.

I still dont think that an unhappy marriage justifies an affair, as I said to the MNer who PM'd me. If a marriage is that bad try to fix it, and if you cant then leave. There comes a point where a persons need for love or respect or sex or money or whatever is lacking in a particular relationship must be confirmed as either more or less important than the marriage. If the needs that arent being met lead to the person considering an affair then the needs are more important than the marriage, so leave. If the marriage is more important then accept that those needs are never going to be met.

You cant have both. You just cant. There is NO moral justification for an affair, ever.

I say this as someone who left an unhappy marriage, as someone who has been cheated on and as someone who found out that she was the OW, albeit very briefly and I dumped him as soon as I found out he was married despite the fact that I had had very strong feelings for him.

OP posts:
adrastea · 10/09/2012 11:48

I am not suggesting that unhappiness an affair ok or justifies it.

You get some affairs where the distance, criticism and unhappiness starts when the affair starts, and you get some where the cheater acts happily all the way through and you get some where the cheater was genuinely unhappy for reasons unrelated to the affair a long time before.

Looksgoodingravy · 10/09/2012 11:51

Dp states that he wasn't unhappy at home and he was able to compartmentalise on a grand scale! He said there was never a time he would have left me.

sternface · 10/09/2012 13:53

Sorry, this is going to be a long post because a few posters have asked questions based on my one earlier. I'd like to preface this by pointing out that I'm answering them in relation to the specific question in this thread - people who have affairs who are nevertheless committed to their relationships and want to remain in them for reasons of love and not other factors. There are lots of different motivations for affairs but I want to stick to the point because that seems to be Bogeyface's dilemma....

Well none of the people having affairs are "the honest ones", are they, sternface?

People are rarely either honest about everything, or more to the point dishonest about everything, all of the time. I think seeing people as either 'honest' or 'dishonest' is too black and white.

The husbands I referred to certainly weren't honest with their partners while their affairs were going on, but the honesty I referred to relates to the aftermath they are dealing with - and their honesty with themselves, their partners and me as a neutral third party after the event. Frankly, it would have been a lot easier for them to insist that their affairs happened because they were unhappy, because that's more 'understandable' (and even forgiveable in some cases) by partners and wider society, than a reason that says more about their own personalities and sense of entitlement, than it does about their partners or their relationships. The people who are honest enough not to hide behind the usual excuses or reasons (if they are not applicable) and tell the truth about why they had an affair, are usually the people who manage to repair their relationships - because they take complete personal responsibility for what's happened and are willing to work on themselves and why they departed from their values.

sternface if those men really loved their wives as much as they claim, they wouldn't have intentionally hurt them in the first place.

This is one of the most difficult things for a couple to understand and resolve in the aftermath. The unfaithful one will often insist that it wasn't about 'intentional hurt' and that they told themselves that because their partners would never find out, no hurt would be caused. There's a failure to understand that a) doing a hurtful thing doesn't become any less hurtful just because the person doesn't know about it and b) their behaviour during the affair itself became hurtful to their partners, however much they thought they were 'compartmentalising'. IME, few people (regardless of gender) are good at compartmentalising and there is nearly always hurt at some level, even if a partner doesn't know why it's happening.

I think we've all got the capacity to hurt the people we love, especially if we are dishonest with ourselves and persuade ourselves that it isn't intentional, or directed at them, or that they'll never even register the hurt because they'll never find out. How many threads are there on Mumsnet from women who've had one-night stands and brief affairs and the majority response is 'don't tell your husband, what he doesn't know can't hurt him?'
I don't agree with that response, but I can see how and why people make those sorts of bargains with themselves and it's got nothing to do with them not loving their partners.

What it does have more to do with is self-interest and selfishness, but that needs facing up to along with everything else in the aftermath of an affair. What I'm also saying is that some people, however badly they've behaved, are willing to do that.

Someone asked (in relation to long term affairs and the OW's perspective about why a man is having an affair with them) -

Stern...in your opinion, why do they? I'm not talking about short term flings (when the man is probably just trying to get his rocks off) but in long term affairs, why does he bother if he's so happy at home and has so much to lose?

First of all I don't think all short term flings are just about someone trying to get their rocks off - it's often far more complex than that. But I've seen lots of people (women too) who are in parallel relationships that have existed for a long time and there are many reasons for it. Your question is specifically about those who are satisfied in their sanctioned relationships so I'll only comment on that. The answers are usually inside themselves and have clues in their childhoods. Sometimes it's about ego and needing to be adored by more than just one person, sometimes it's about a fear of vulnerability and intimacy and risking it all on just the one, sometimes it's more pragmatic than that and a knowledge that the partner or OM/OW will never be able to tick all their boxes as individuals (but in parallel they all get ticked.) Sometimes too, they think they love both people and argue that it's unrealistic to expect otherwise, despite the fact that they have their own expectations that their unwitting partners or the (at least aware) OW/OM will only love them and no-one else.....

From the OW or OM's perspective, they've got to work out what they are personally getting from these long-term relationships and it helps to have some insight into why their lovers are in them. It's often a mistake to think this is about them as individuals, or about their lovers' sanctioned partners or marriages, whereas there's more insight if they look at the motivations and personality of their lovers - and also inside their own selves and what's propelled them to be in this type of relationship.

Sorry, I said it was a long post and tbh, I'm still not sure if my posts or anyone else's are hitting the spot Bogeyface or are helping you with your individual circumstances. I expect you've had a PM from someone on this thread or a lurker who's had an affair and is giving you her own perceived reasons for it - but the point is people are not all the same and there's no 'catch all' reason for why people behave the way they do. The reasons people give themselves for their own behaviour, are not always the truth either.

MissBoPeep · 10/09/2012 13:55

stern are you a professional counsellor? Your previous post(s) implied you were.

MissBoPeep · 10/09/2012 14:11

All the people I know who have either had affairs, or been on the receiving end of an affair would say categorically that their marriages were on the rocks.

50% of those marriages ended- not because the " betrayed" partner wished for that, but because the " guilty" party moved on and moved out.

I suspect that many marriages which survive an affair struggle on for a while, when the " guilty" partner tries to mend the cracks once they are found out, but the relationships falter a few years down the line.

I really don't think you can apply one rule to why people have affairs- every one is different.

Some men simply cannot keep their trousers on and like a " conquest"- but they don't want to leave their wives .

Some men and women are deeply unhappy, meet someone and test the water whilst hedging their bets who to stay with.

Some men and women genuinely fall in love with someone else and decide they need to leave- but there may be an overlap.

It is also possible- which has not been mentioned here- that it's possible to love 2 people at the same time.

I agree that the errant partner has a choice over how to behave- but I also beleive that many of the " victims" are 50% responsible for the state of the relationship and sometimes their behaviour does drive the other person away, before they have physcially moved out or made a decision to leave with their partner. This is not a popular line on MN but it is true in RL.

EdMcDunnough · 10/09/2012 14:13

In response to Stern's long post there, mentioning the reasons why a person might have a long standing affair when officially happily married - and actually fairly happily married, as well - I was thinking that their childhood might be where it begins, also.

I knew someone who did this and he had been sent to boarding school at 7, which he would not discuss, and I think it affected him very deeply - so in a sense, he had a 'home' and a 'school' and these were replicated in his relationships; the affair he had went on for a few years until it was discovered.

I think it was a case of confused, multiple attachments, though I'm not sure if this would be backed up by any recognised psychology out there. It just seemed like he had grown up thinking it was 'normal', and indeed required, for him to have both of these relationships at the same time - though of course he seemed aware that the world would beg to differ. So he kept it a secret for as long as possible.

A lot of drama involving loss, separation and so on was played out through the affair - lots of breaking up and then the emotional reunion when they could not live without each other. I'm sure he was processing something and probably so was she.

Ormiriathomimus · 10/09/2012 14:14

miss - I hope you are wrong. DH and I are reconciling after his affair. We both really want it to work. But who knows...Sad

Was I guilty of not making him happy? No more than he was of not making me happy. But the affair has been a rather violent antidote to complacency. I think we will work it out but i can't be sure.

Ormiriathomimus · 10/09/2012 14:18

"It is also possible- which has not been mentioned here- that it's possible to love 2 people at the same time" Yes. Which is a perfectly natural state of affairs (no pun intended!). But I personally couldn't accept it - I think that is my problem and DH was 100% understanding of it and it's over between him and OW.

EdMcDunnough · 10/09/2012 14:20

Good luck, Orm. I hope it will work out for you x

panicnotanymore · 10/09/2012 14:30

Orm I know people who had weathered an affair and come out stronger. I also know people who haven't and have split. These things are not set in stone, but if you both genuinely want things to work out there is no reason why they shouldn't.

My H and I are reconciled too. Whether we make it or not is probably down to me. I glimpsed freedom, and it didn't scare me. The slightest hint of the 'old' H and I'm gone. He knows that. His affair made me stronger, but it did not make us stronger. I lost a lot of respect for him, and more than a little love. In my book if your really love someone you don't hurt them like that.

I do still love him, and I do want thongs to work out.... but not blindly and desperately, only on a rational level.

Good luck Orm. I hope you get through the rough, and end up happy.

sternface · 10/09/2012 14:59

If the only affairs you've known about were in marriages that were 'on the rocks' and whose partners' behaviour in those relationships was in your view, a contributory factor, then of course that will skew your perspective, especially if it's a small sample of 3 or 4 people. If you've listened to people with lots of different experiences, your perspective might be broader. Similarly, if you've only ever seen unfaithful marriages survive only to break-up later, this might skew your take on what happens in most relationships affected by this crisis.

In reality, we probably all know couples in our communities and workplaces who've survived an affair but we just don't know about the 'affair' bit and so we're none the wiser. As posters have said, a lot of people keep quiet about it and the resolutions they've come to as a couple remain 'hidden' to the outside world. We often only know about the ones whose marriages have ended, or where the infidelity is repetitive and flagrant.

Again it's not really the type of affair this thread is meant to be discussing, but the ones where unhappiness is cited as the main reason for them are in my experience, more complex than that. As Orm said (waves, not been around for a while!!) it's helpful to examine what differentiates one unhappy person from another in that one might decide to look outside the marriage and another might decide to resolve inside it, or find a different way of coping that doesn't involve deception. I don't think an affair necessarily tells us much about the state of someone's marriage either, because there are people in apparently worse relationships where infidelity hasn't occurred.

In my previous post, I thought I did mention the validity of loving two people, but the unfairness in that is if it's not openly negotiated and the other partner isn't given an equal chance to love two (or more) people while in their relationship, or isn't given the opportunity to exercise their right to have a monogamous relationship if that's what they'd prefer.

Signing up someone to a non-monogamous relationship without their permission or knowledge can never be an acceptable or defensible course of action.

MissBoPeep · 10/09/2012 15:28

Stern are you a BACP counsellor?

Ormiriathomimus · 10/09/2012 15:53

Hi Stern, nice to see you again x

sternface · 10/09/2012 16:10

Hi Orm my lovely, hope you're doing okay X

Miss Bo Peep sorry, I make it an internet security rule not to answer personal questions on forums and I try not to ask questions of people when they are not the OP, even though that often involves a great deal of sitting on one's hands, as you might imagine! Wink

I prefer to treat posts on the basis of their content and the advice presented - and not the personalities or why posters they think the way they do. I might have suspicions about why people have the perspectives they do, but I find it tends to prevent arguments that detract from the OP's thread, if those suspicions are not voiced on it.

sternface · 10/09/2012 16:13

grrr....that should have read: 'why posters think the way they do'