The Brave Babes Battle Bus - On Their Way To............... Amarillo?

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.............. sorry, ran out of ideas tonight!

Hello, tis me, Mouse and I have a very abusive relationship with alcohol, vodka in particular.

Welcome to the Battle Bus, full of totally Brave Babes all on their own personal journey to sobriety. Some are there, some are still on their way and some aren't quite ready yet but stay on the Bus for a good old natter

Wherever you are in your quest to get back control of your drinking, we've all been there too so you're not alone, not by a long shot.

Come take a seat and say hello.

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Well done truth I used to stash bottles everywhere too, I would have a bottle of wine every day in front of oh but I would always have a bottle of Vodka stashed somewhere else. Now you have got rid of the bottles I'm sure it will feel like a big relief knowing they are not hidden away. You should treat yourself with the money you are now saving (((Big hugs))

I have sat this morning and worked out that in 30 days I will consume 18 litre bottles of Vodka and 30-35 bottles of wine. I have been doing this for 2-3 years now. I would take my empty bottle of vodka to the shop with me every day and dispose of it in the bin outside before going in and buying another. You should be really proud of yourself truth You are doing so well and it is posts like yours which is helping people like me :)

Angel I used to take my empty wine bottle with me when I went to the shop and I would put it in the bin outside. I am finding it strange, helpful and scary that others have done the same. I thought I was the only one.
When I was emptying my wardobe of the bottles I found one that still had at least a glassful left in it. Must admit, part of me thought to have some. Just to see what it tasted like. I don't know how I didn't. I didn't even tip it down the sink (didn't want to smell it or even open the bottle) so it went into the bottle bank nearly half full - felt guilty for a minute. Must admit it did feel good to hear those bottles smashing.
I was shaking driving to the bottle bank though, I was convinced everyone could hear them rattling around in my car, then I thought what if I crash, how ashamed would I feel.

HT don't feel sick with yourself. Say that was then, poor me then, and stand up tall and accept some praise for tackling this head on and recovering. What are you doing now?

Thanks help. I do feel proud, but mixed in with disgust for myself. I grew up with an alcoholic mum, I know how it feels as a child. And I am furious with myself that I could do the same to my DC.
Now I have just finished lunch and am going to have a lay down on the sofa whilst watching some trashy tv

X post ht. I did wonder whether there might have been some in a bottle when you said that was what you were doing this am. Eugh! That must have been hard. You really have done well this am!

OH MY GOODNESS!!! there are some fucking brave babes out there!! the posts i have read this morning are absolutly awe-inspiring!!!

HT, Angel, you are the FANTASTIC (as are all you other babes! ) HT, i think its time something nice happened for you! i had got to the point of wearing cruddy underwear, the first week i was sober, i went through my underwear, chucked out all the horrible stuff and spent what i would have done on the booze on decent knickers - it lifted my self esteem straight away! we are WORTH decent knickers!!

X post again! Enjoy your trashy tv.

oh and btw, no, that is not my bag, mine is a square one! this wedding has been really hard finding clothes for, im no carole middleton! think more peggy mitchell! (that old saying is true, money cant buy class! )

HELP!! I'm wavering, thinking what harm will one little old bottle of wine do today? I've been so good, only had 10 units or so last week, blah blah. Hardly drink anything compared to some people (binge drinker, 2-3 times a week, usually one bottle of wine plus another glass). Fuckity fuckity fuck.

Please someone make me see sense, I'd be so disappointed in myself if I cave in. At the moment I'm just trying to focus on how I'll feel after I've finished the bottle and what it'll do to my boing....

Sad I'm sure there will be others along soon with more constructive advice but I couldnt read and run. I am on day 2 of not drinking and already have thought at least 5 times today about buying some. I am now preparing Dinner for tonight which is something I never do till 5 0clock and it is taking my mind off things. Can You do something to take your mind off it?

Angel thanks, hope cooking takes your mind off it. My office room-mate has just given me a delicious home-made muffin so that's taken the edge off, for now....

HT you are awesome. Well done on the recycling. I bought wine boxes as they left less evidence
Just checking in, no real progress to report but will not be drinking tonight as have to pick DD up at station late after audition.

HT well done re. the bottles. I know the shame of it. Some time back, I'd let the empties stack up and DH counted sixty that had accumulated over only two months :( I was horrified and I don't think he was very chuffed.

I try and get rid of the bottles regularly now. Sometimes I chuck them out daily, into the public bin if I can't be bothered with recycling them :( I'm always paranoid someone would see me. One time, some years back, this complete stranger shouted at me for binning my empties instead of recycling them. I was appalled.

Haven't checked in for a while, as although it's been about 6 weeks since I last drank, don't really feel I have much of value to say to you other Babes, so just lurking.

But just wanted to say Soma - don't do it. I have read your posts over the last week & sensed you become stronger & more positive with each one. Plan something nice to.. facial/cinema/choc & DVD?? Am sure this weather must lower our morale, but hang in there & keep posting.

JWN I am definitely going to treat myself to some new knickers this week. Why do I feel guilty about treating myself to new things yet I have spent hundreds of pounds (if not more) on wine?
demented I have bought boxes before aswell. I told myself it was better value for money
Greyhound It really is horrendous how quickly the bottles stack up isn't it? When I was putting the bottles in hte car this morning there was a neighbour in her garden, I felt sick that she might see or hear the clunking.
Sad Glad the muffin has taken the edge off. Not sure if this will help or not, but I started off just having a bottle a couple of times a week. Gradually, as my tolerance increased it took more and more to make me feel "better" about myself. Then I ended up in the mess I am in now. Maybe just say to yourself, no wine tonight, but tomorrow who knows. That is how I am thinking at the moment. I have no idea if I will ever have a drink again, all I know is that right now, this minute I won't.

WOWOWOWOWOWOW TRUTH

A HUGE well done on getting rid of the bottles, did your car rattle as you went over bumps in the road? When I took mine, I was worried that they'd smash there were so many pot holes!

I think you are amazing for doing what you have.

TODAY is the first day of the rest of your life.

TODAY you made some Brave Babes feel even braver by sharing a huge part of you life with us.

TODAY we all held your hand (virtually) as you took the bottles to be recycled and held it tighter as you let each one go.

TODAY is the day you have found a group people just like you, who really do care.

TODAY you have started to take back the control in your life.

TODAY I am very pleased to have met you and think you are incredibly strong to be here, being honest and more importantly, being YOU. xx

Hey Chasing - are you okay? You can drop in and out whenever you like but maybe keep in touch with a little ? xx

Mouse Today you have made me cry but in a nice way.
Yes the car rattled a lot I drove so slowly so I didn't have to hear them clunking against each other.
I have PMed you by the way - I hope it makes sense. I have not long woken from a little nap and am still feeling half asleep. Is it normal to want to sleep so much when giving up alcohol? I hoped my sleep pattern would get better but it hasn't yet.

Soma Soma Soma!!! Don't buy any wine - you've worked so hard to get where you are now and apart from the parent trigger at the weekend, you've come so far from where you were when you first started posting here. Stay strong lovely and keep posting here! x

Yay for Mouse! You are fantastic the way you are so supportive. This whole place is. Truth I am the same with my neighbours and the clanking bottles. Of course, it is highly unlikely they would be remotely interested or concerned but the shame makes one so paranoid.

(on the plus side I don't have buy any cards for a long time)

Truth, sorry, probably hugely inappropriate but this made me chuckle.

And help, I like this too A man many years sober said that his Alcoholism 'was in the next room doing press ups'

< nods sagely >

Soma how are you doing? Come and talk with us x

I knew a woman who would go into a wine shop and spend a long time with the manager discussing which wines would go with the food she was 'making for a dinner party'. Of course, she wasn't having a dinner party.

I have just been to the shop and bought milk, washing up liquid, cooking apples and chocolate Thats it!! I did want to poke the woman in the eye who was in front of me though, buying a mybottle of vodka and explaing how she is going to lie in the bath after a long hard day and have a few. I was almost in tears whilst in the shop but now I'm home I can officially say I have conquered day two! (nearest shop is 3 miles and I wont be leaving the house again now).

Well done Angel. For all you know, that women could be doing the rounds of the shops with the same story every day. Her relaxing bath story may not be all it sounds. I mean, really, is a bath not relaxing enough on it's own?