The Brave Babes Battle Bus - On Their Way To............... Amarillo?

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.............. sorry, ran out of ideas tonight!

Hello, tis me, Mouse and I have a very abusive relationship with alcohol, vodka in particular.

Welcome to the Battle Bus, full of totally Brave Babes all on their own personal journey to sobriety. Some are there, some are still on their way and some aren't quite ready yet but stay on the Bus for a good old natter

Wherever you are in your quest to get back control of your drinking, we've all been there too so you're not alone, not by a long shot.

Come take a seat and say hello.

If you'd like to know the history behind this amazing journey, you can follow the links back HERE

See you soon x

there's no shoulds in it msgee and i feel a bit icky at the cbt suggestion - you've not got distorted thinking/feeling/behaviour - you're grieving. changing your thinking doesn't deal with that nothing irrational about grieving a traumatic loss imo. might be god to have someone to talk it all through with though?

what's an empty stomach????

thanks saf glad its not just me thinking that

tis very tasty.

thanks mia actually I feel exhausted this morning, but trying to remember what venus said about it takes weeks to get into better habits.

How are you?

Found us again soma? I don't know what's happening on mn - I wonder if other threads are going invisible or whether when faire was trying to turn us into an ark, she accidently put some kind of spell on us

soma once I'd logged in, I clicked on "I'm on" which brought up the threads I'd posted on.

But that would only work for active posters, not for lurkers.

Venus thanks. :) at Faire casting a spell. A quick report back from seeing the GP this morning. She was lovely, gave me lots of time and was most sympathetic and happy for me that I'd decided to try and quit.

She's urgently referring me to the D&A people who will prescribe the antabuse and offer me support but she says it's hardly ever used these days - that's because (apparently) not many people ask for it/take it properly. She gave me some acamprosate too (which lessens cravings) so I'll take that until I get the antabuse.

I feel relieved that I've taken this step and can focus now on not drinking rather than controlling my drinking. To anyone else out there who's struggling and not sure about whether to go to the GP, let me say my experience so far is very positive. Have a nice afternoon all.

And thanks for the tech advice Venus

That's really great soma, I'm so pleased that you went, and that you felt listened to.

btw, there's also a 'search' facility at the very top right of the page. I put in 'Brave Babes' and got pages and pages of our threads, with the current one on the first page, so that might be another way to find us.

Well done Soma! I am having a bit of a crappy day but your update is uplifting :)

Yay to sympathetic GPs!!

Soma - do you use the Threads I'm On button? That has never failed me yet.

Hello everyone btw

Hi soma, really glad it went well and you're on your way to getting the help you need. Day 3 here, I'm working until 7.30pm so, by the time I get in, I can just eat and get to bed. I'm not looking forward to tomorrow as day 4 has been my unravelling point everytime I've tried to stop for the last year. I'm trying to keep it in my head that I did manage 7 weeks (with a 4 day blip in the middle) 18 months ago. I do find it really hard to do the one day at a time thing as I have the sort of mind that's always racing ahead and planning what's going to happen next week/month/year. I tend to find the first few days relatively easy as it's usually after I've had some awful experience during a blackout and all my feelings of desperately wanting to be free of this thing drive me on. And then my memory of the awful things I've done begin to fade and I think "Maybe I haven't got that much of a problem, I've shown I can stop for a while, I think I'll just have a couple tonight because it's Friday/Saturday/the cat's birthday etc and, before I know it, I'm back where i started. That's why I need to stay on this bus so that you lot can talk some sense into me.

Well done Soma. I was wondering how it went.

Upsy I'm exactly the same, when the awfulness of the last "drunk" recedes you can be lulled into a false sense of security. That's why I reckon I need the antabuse which will give me longer to sort myself out. But being here and making it an important part of your recovery is one very vital tool we can use.
What you say about having one or two and then slipping right back is very true for me also and that's why I want to avoid drinking at all.

Thanks everyone, I'm fine . I suspect this will be an ongoing saga but I won't get involved. There are a few different things happening (drink related as it happens) and members of my family are telling me stuff and saying, don't tell so and so.

I would rather we could all talk and help each other but some are very judgemental of others when they would really do better to sort themselves out before being critical of others

Families eh? At least I have my wonderful dcs and dh and his family are kind and loving and supportive. And I have you lot too

Soma you sound so positive now, you are doing the right thing for your dd and for yourself. You will never regret it.

Btw you can also follow this thread by 'watching' it. If you click 'watch this thread' at the top of the page it will show up under 'I'm watching' so even if you are only lurking you should still be able to follow the bus

MsGee I agree with you and Saf. You don't need to be cured. There is nothing wrong with you. You are grieving and that is a very natural and personal journey x

Hello Babes.

Great news Soma - so glad that the GP was sympathetic and encouraging.

I've been feeling quite boingy today. Another good day with DD. She's fairly enthusiastic about learning at the moment which makes things a lot easier and more pleasant. We went to the home ed social group this afternoon so she had two hours charging around in a mixed age tribe of kids, one of whom brought their pet lamb along.

Having a bit of a pang for a glass of red after reading an article about the health benefits of a compound found in red wine. I shall resist though, I feel strong today.

Yes, no doubt there are health benefits in a single glass of red Mia - my dear dad has one glass every single day and never a drop more. Never. But for the likes of drinkers such as you and I, what are the chances that we'll only ever have one glass at at time?

It sounds lovely where you live, I take it it's quite rural? Ah Faire families....don't know many people who come from a fully functional one! But it's your own children/husband that matter most.

I'm feeling hopeful and determined this evening, such a change from last night. Hope it lasts x

Soma I'm so pleased you went to the GP, that's fantastic news. Well done :) You sound great.

I had a horrible craving on the way home (tired appears to be a massive trigger). DH met me at the station so he could get some money out and we had to walk home past a load of pubs. My mouth could taste the wine, it was bloody awful.

I held his hand and my palm was sweating, I shit you not. And got home without drinking.

Be back later Babes, lots of hugs xx

Oooh those tricksy cravings, well done Sunny for getting home unscathed.

Exactly Soma. My DstepF has a glass of merlot every day for his health, and doesn't 'understand why anyone would want to get drunk'! although he does manage it occasionally at the golf club

We're sort of semi-rural. Hour from London but in the countryside. The place we were today was in a local town though, so god knows where they got the lamb...

Hi Mia

Hi Sunny, how are you feeling now after your cravings earlier?

Much better thanks, am in my jammies on the sofa and have eaten some chocolate. Sober, thank feck.

How's your day going?