The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Staying Springy In Their Quest For Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse I have an shockingly abusive relationship with alcohol, mainly vodka.

This Bus is full of drinkers, non-drinkers, thinkers and Babes, all trying to find their way to a happy, sober life.

Some are there, some are almost there and some are not. It really doesn't matter, we're all in this together.

Why not find a seat? Everyone is welcome, drinking or drunk, come and say hello.

HERE is the previous thread, with a link to all of the other wonderful journeys so far............

Good luck with the diet mouse ... You've done it before so you know you can do it again :)

Hallelujah chorus from me Mouse, so re: Atkins I suppose a Cheese Soufflé is out of the question as a first in Mouse-has-a-finished-kitchen-at-last saga

JNW, feeling the pain, I had three out all at once, at Christmas, dh thought it would be funny to put me in one of my many hats, red and brown with a sprig of holly stuck in it, and pass my head off as a Christmas pudding. Never very simpatico in my household.

Oil of cloves is good if you can find it, just to rub on the gum hole bit.

Onward and upward, I hate Mondays. xx

ouch jnw

don't put up with pain, take the painkillers and rest - you don't have to suffer!

I'm on the bus tonight, and - for the first time since I've been posting - not looking forward to it. Had a bad day (nothing compared to what some of you are going through, so I won't whine) and really want a drink.

And maybe as venus said I'm doing it the hard way, cause I'm on and off...

Evening all. Joining you all again on the bus, if I may. Last week I managed a measly 2 AFDs, which was at least one better than the previous week I suppose. Aiming for at least four this week. We shall see. For some reason I really haven't had the craving yet today... Maybe stuffing myself with kids' gingerbread did the trick? Obviously it's early days though.

Think am feeling more positive as DH did better than me last week and is likely to stick to it again. So much easier not having to watch him drink.

Anyway hope those of you who are not well feel better soon and that you enjoy your new kitchen mouse!

Well done for getting back on it this week ferfux. If you don't think about your next drinking day and just concentrate on today it will be much easier.

I used to plan to drink on a Friday and by Tuesday I had already decided that I might as well have 'a little' on Thursday and then usually ended up opening a bottle on Wednesday .

It all got a little complicated so I now find the easiest thing is just to say today I will not be drinking. Full stop.

After a while it becomes a habit and is much easier to stick to.

Good luck with the diet Mouse. I'm back on mine too, I find it keeps me away from other temptations . Funny, I find I'm not like lots of others who replace alcohol with food, I'm the opposite. If I drink I will eat. If I don't drink I stick to a healthy diet. But then I am an 'all or nothing' kind of gal

I had 4 nights and 5 full days under my belt last week. I felt great and had a spring in my step. So why did I talk myself into wine on Friday night as a treat. Some bloody treat... Weekend spent in a drunken haze, hiding the vodka bottle and slobbing around. I won't be fooled/robbed of this weekend.

Enough time wasted getting drunk, being drunk and being hungover.

Day one done easy enough, still not feeling 100% tho.

I hope all you lovely babes will make it a sober and peaceful Monday.

just checking in. H doing my fucking head in. More rows tonight about the teen DDs being at home and "freeloading"
Resulted in DS yelling "stop fighting. You are always fighting!" and DD 1 slamming the sitting room door open and announcing icily "just for the record, I am looking for jobs EVERY day!"
Way to parent you fuckwit!!
So glad am off to London tomorrow for a couple of days...might not come back

Ma must be bad if you've dropped the 'd' ((()))

Are your dcs going to London with you or is it work? Seriously, it might do you the world of good to have that break. How is The Plan shaping up (do you think you can do the time)? We are all here to help you and hold your hand whenever you need it x

P.S. my dd has told me she is going to be a millionaire so I have already promised she can live with me forever

Me too Faire

If I drink, I eat crap. If I don't, I am so good with my diet. And that's the plan this time.

IsinDe - Massive snuggles to you my dear lovely lady, how are the plans for the wedding going? Have I missed anything important? I feel as though I have? xx

JWN - if you need some decent pain meds, give me a shout

Right, I better find food.... non carb food at that and put Nemo to bed.

Night night all xxxx

Thanks faire. DD2 is going with me - she has an audition. She is very empathetic, me and her might have a bit of a chat about the plan..don't know if this is a good idea though.
Don't know how long I can do the time. Kids are planning a big "Surprise" party in August for our Silver Wedding. God, I'm dreading it. What a farce!!

Ma - you know the answer to all of this, we've talked about it before. It's not the right time normally, maybe, maybe my lovely, now it is?

You are so desperately unhappy, look at what he is doing to your family, the raised voices are enough to provoke a reaction from your children.

It's not fair on them or you.

It's got to be time to really, really think about where you are. I so wish I could help you Ma, you deserve so much better than this. It's no life is it? Dreading him coming home from work, wishing that you could get away............

You know where I am lovely Ma - massive hugs xxxxxxxxx

X POSTED!!!!

Yeah to DD getting an audition, let us know how she gets on! Very very very talented young lady you have there xx

can he not just go ma? i'd be tempted to say yes it will be nice when they get jobs and can pay towards the household costs because then i can kick you out and not have to live with your miserable moaning and griping anymore. i best stay out of the relationship counselling me thinks bless you ma - it is exhausting i'm sure.

tomorrow is day 14 and is the last day i'm going to let myself do the binge eating of rubbish in place of alcohol thing. i'm sick of eating rubbish tbh so it's a bit of a relief that i'm going to tackle it. need a plan - a moderate plan rather than extremes.

hope everyone is managing a sober monday - for those who drank at the weekend and haven't felt great today i hope tomorrow is the day the fog clears.

night all.

I don't know the back story ma but I hope you get the outcome you want and soon.

Just checking in really, have stocked up on a lavender plug in and some chamomile tea today in the search for that elusive sleep type thing, still keenly at the front of the bus.

Blanket you still on board?

Great news mouse! So glad you're feeling better. Good luck with the diet; hopefully you'll be able to cook some lovely carb-free meals with your working cooker!

anita it's so tempting isn't it, to reward not-drinking with drinking. Hope next weekend is a better one for you.

I am absolutely knackered. DD got back this afternoon, so I spent the day (just like the last few days) flat out getting the loft room finished for her. I ache all over but it was all worth it - she was absolutely thrilled. When she left, the loft was full of boxes with hardly any room to turn round, as it has been for the last couple of years since we moved in. Today it is empty of boxes, freshly decorated, with cupboards and shelves for her things, and beanbags and cushions to lounge around on with her friends. She's even got a stereo up there, and the best views in the house.

I feel a real sense of achievement, and I know I had the energy and motivation to do this because I'd stopped drinking.

I didn't drink today. I had a twinge for wine this afternoon when I felt I deserved a reward for all my hard work, but it was easily enough resisted. I won't drink again now until Friday (she says confidently ).

I know the answer.......I really do. But I know the answer to my drinking too - somehow knowing the answer and implementing them are two very different things. But thankyou all. I know you are there.
ginger the back story is that I do not intend to spend the rest of my life with H, whom I no longer love or want to be with.

Oh Ma, I feel so sad when I read some of your posts. I hope you are doing the right thing (and I do mean that, I don't mean it in a confrontational, challenging kind of way). You are one tough cookie. You know you have lots of friends here who are rooting for you whatever you choose to do x

Mia, well done on the one-woman loft conversion! Wow, I wish I could have seen your DD's face! Well done you. It just shows how drinking can zap your energy and motivation doesn't it?

Hello to everyone else. Hope everyone's having a good evening

Ma maybe you could share a little of your feelings with your dd (after her audition) if you think she could handle it? Then you could gently explain that a big silver wedding celebration is not what you really want this year.

Perhaps plan to do something nice as a family, with the dcs, but no other guests. After all, you would not have them if it weren't for your relationship so there is some good to come out of it and that is worth celebrating x

ma i think the two things (relationship/alcohol) are very close bedfellows - as in the sorting of one would mean the sorting of the other quite likely. maybe why you can't sort either individually so far?

and yes kudos to mia for the loft sorting - sounds like a big and very worthwhile job.

hmmm just realised no wine came with the ocado delivery.

I wasn't going to have any tonight, I was saving it for tomorrow. Now I have to go through all that decision-making - should I go and buy some for tomorrow? Or try and see it through?

Maybe it's a sign

Thanks saf & silly

i can't take all the credit - DP did help me move heavy stuff over the weekend. I can take most of the credit though, and it feels good!

ma that sounds like really hard situation to be in.

joey is there a reason you were planning to drink tomorrow?

Hi everyone just wanted to say sorry for disappearing. I lasted four days sans booze but was got back to uni (where I live with my boyfriend) yesterday and drank half a bottle of white wine- then the rest tonight. Had a big fucking row yesterday so I immediately opened a bottle I had in the fridge from before I went to stay with my family. But in a way I'm quite pleased because last term, that would have been a whole bottle, and I actually made sure I didn't buy any today so I would have to stick to the half bottle tonight. Weird to be proud of drinking half a bottle of wine but there you go. So I'm going to try to go back to abstaining tomorrow. I don't know how successful I'll be but I'll try.

I still haven't told my boyfriend that I think I have any kind of problem with alcohol which is an issue. I just don't know how to put it into words. Or maybe he already knows! But maybe if I do admit it to someone out loud, not just online, I'll feel more encouraged?

Good luck to everyone else!