So fecking angry!

[paranoidandroidwreckmyownlife]

DH has just had to break the news to me that the chavvy fecking bitch who has been making a play for him is the only candidate suitable for promotion at work that has applied. yesterday was closing date online.
Whilst he said no, I've got kids and a wife he did indulge in some lighthearted flirty text banter with her for numerous months. All out in the open now and he is being very good, no more taking his phone into toilet, ensuite etc, but i'm a paranoid wreck and this news has left me shaking.
I'm so f#@king angry, how dare she even have the nerve, she a brazen f#@king bitch.
I know I'm being irrational and stupid but let me vent here for a while please for the sake of not venting at him, he knows how hard this is for me and is concerned about how we'll cope on a daily basis, he doesn't want the grief from me all the time.

just responding to your response to me OP then will go back and read what has been written since.

your hysterical crying is TELLING YOU SOMETHING. it won't go away by stuffing it down so try listening to it - what is it telling you? you are hurt? you feel endangered? this is too much for you to cope with? you feel abandoned? you feel powerless?

and why are you calling it hysterical? is that your word or his? is crying in itself hysterical?

our emotions are our emotions. at the point you're crying you need to cry - maybe later when you've allowed yourself to feel what you feel and worked it through to the end you can then know what you want to say and say it. i don't think you can short cut the emotion though and i sadly suspect it is him making you feel this revulsion at your own emotional response to him hurting you x

i think you are going to have to let yourself feel what you feel and face it instead of keeping on squishing it down or cuttting it short or beating it with a stick telling it it is wrong.

if you don't want to end up really ill from this you need to sit with those feelings and let them out and feel them. i know every instinct is to run from them, stick a sleeping pill in or a drink (not saying you drink just it's another common dissociation device) etc. can you get a day to yourself?

i'm beyond the 'situation' now and just want you to be ok emotionally. this beating yourself up for what you're feeling and allowing him to dictate what is appropriate or not as a response etc isn't healthy. you're a person not a robot and....? give yourself a break x

Just wondering how things panned out para?