The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Joins The Foreign Legion In Their Quest For Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse and I have a very abusive relationship with alcohol.

I can't just have one glass of anything, I have to drink until I pass out or run out. Whichever comes first.

This Bus is a place of solace and safety, where drinkers, non-drinkers and those who aren't quite sure can come and post or just sit and 'be'.

No-one will judge you, no-one will think any the less of you because we all have the same thing in common.

Alcohol.

And for those who want to read the journey's so far and the original thread by JWN, the lady who very bravely started these journeys for us, HERE they are.

(PS - the title is just for you notevenamousie)

Actually girls, you have all done so well. Three weeks (more or less) is bloody well done. Some days are easier than others, that's all. Take the opportunity whilst you are drinking to have those soft drinks inbetween. Or stop before you go too far. Hopefully there will be no hangovers tomorrow and no regrets.

Mouse take extra care of yourself, my lovely, go easy on your elephant liver (((()))) x

Ma the basque idea sounds good. I am as clueless as you .

Ah Mouse x post

Hot chocolate in hand, showered and in new jammies.

Off to watch would I lie to you.

Night night Babes. xxxxxx

goodnight mouse - sweet dreams x

love the basque idea! Better not let DH see - he's bad enough as it is!!
Am heading for bed - had a few glasses but stopped now and don't feel remotely like finishing the bottle.
Early start tomorrow to take DD1 to station....yawn

Well of course DD up at 5.30. Serves me right. She was also up in the night and being stupid and not clear of thought brought her into our bed at 3am. Also serves me right.

Unfortunately I did not just stop at one or two but I didn't finish the bottle. Feel just crap enough today though. And cross with myself

And PIL are over today. Today I will not be drinking.

Morning all,
Cunning, baffling and powerful, isn't it??
MsGee - it doesn't serve you right. What I could never work out when I was drinking though was whether DD's sleep was related to my drinking or not - often I would be full of guilt and take on the sins of the world given half a chance, then other times I would think I drank because of how grim it was to have a child who rarely if ever slept through. So, don't beat yourself up about middle of the night decisions, don't analyse it today, it's done. Can your DH let you have a couple of hours nap later on? Can you do something nice for you? I think I see things more as they are now but if we have a random bad night I am still prone to thinking it's all my fault/ she'll never sleep through/ I'm going to feel terrible and tired for ever and ever. Black and white thinking, much?

We're off on an expedition today to see the squirrels and as it's going to be 17 degrees and sunny, we're taking a picnic. Hopefully it'll wear DD out - as with no car it's 2 miles walking to and from the station at both ends plus however far I can persuade her to manage around the woods and dunes.

Hope everyone has a good day. x

Oh, and I have just seen [hgrin] Maybe I could watch the rugby whilst DD does her hated homework [meanmummy]

Thanks noteven you're right. I overthink the sleep thing and try to look for patterns. DD was inexplicably scared of being in her room so she probably would have ended up with me no matter what.

DH is having his lie in (experience has shown life is easier if he is not tired) but will be up soon to watch the game. I'll get him to take DD to the park later so I can relax work. I think I stupidly offered to take DD and MiL swimming this pm. Mustve been the drink. I don't really want to be in a communal change room with skinny MIL.

And def watch the game. Even DD has been told that the game is going to be on and disneyjr / cbeebies off!

Hello everyone. Hope you don't mind me barging in again.

Sounds like you're all doing well. Even if you drank last night it sounds like you all just had a couple, less than you used to? Sounds like 'normal' drinking behaviour to me so well done! I drank last night too. I must admit I enjoyed it at first. I had too much (although less than I would have done in the past and didn't give in to temptation to carry on, even though I really, really wanted to). I noticed after I'd had a few that my mood changed, I got a bit miserable and irritable with DH. I'm usually a very happy drunk (which is one of the reasons why drinking is so appealing!!). Maybe it was the guilt and increased awareness of the fact that I shouldn't have been drinking and that I would regret it tomorrow (ie today!). Has anyone else found that their drinking 'experience' changes after trying to stop or cut down?

MIFLAW, thanks for your input, I appreciate it. Maybe a box (or a punchbag?!) in the garage would be a good idea! Might get rid of the tension of the day, sounds fun too . Regarding the unwanted thoughts etc, I have wondered whether I should start some form of counselling. This whole not-drinking thing has really made me look back at my life and I'm wondering whether I need professional help to help me deal with certain things that have happened. Am thinking that a two-pronged attack might be needed - to tackle the drinking (via AA or on here), and to deal with the underlying reasons why I might be drinking in the first place. Has anyone else felt this was necessary or helpful? We're all different I know. Just wondering whether I should tackle both problems at the same time or maybe crack the drinking and then move on to the other stuff... Wouldn't it be nice to start a day not thinking about such stuff!!

Good luck everyone

Morning all,

Msgee Sorry to hear that you aren't feeling too good. I echo Noteven, it was one day, done and dusted, if Dh takes DD to the park do rest, not work, you will feel so much better this afternoon.

Saf I hope you are ok today.

Mouse were they magic pj's that gave you a whole nights sleep? I hope so. xx

Ma the basque idea sounds fab, just don't try it on, while DH is home .

I tried to change my name back to plain thurso, whilst I thought of another one, but the computer said "no"!!!

So, for a bit I am thurso 1, sister of thunderbird .

I have lectures at college all this morning, but, back later.

Have good mornings everyone
Much love
xxx

P.S Hello Inde and JWN, where are you? xx

glued to the rugby and swearing like a navvy. come on Wales!
If the furniture recycling people turn up now they will find me in red tartan jammie bottoms, a paint spattered t-shirt,a cream and brown spotty dressing gown and mismatched socks. Hot or what????

Having watched rugby, my DH has taken DD out. Now sat in facepack with a book. Better late than never.

saf i didn't respond properly last night bit FWIW you made the best choice you could after mc. In a traumatic situation you have to go with what adds least further trauma at the time. Funnily enough one of the things I am struggling with now is the speed at which everything happened. From what I can gather it's not conducive to a good recovery. So maybe you knew you needed more time and allowed yourself that? ((( )))

for Wales. We're Welsh and live ten minutes from Wales so DH was hoping they'd kick ass!

Anyway, I was up all night to MsGee, maybe DD and Nemo had told one another to wake us up huh?

One glass was all I needed and to be honest I really enjoyed it but didn't want any more. It was weird, I gave myself permission to have a glass and that took the craving away.

Totally in control and knew what I was doing but still felt a bit guilty, I only let myself down though. I didn't get into a row, fall over and smash my face in....... try to cook steak and chips, or anything else dangerous.

Ma - great idea for the corset, you could also get something like THIS?

I have one of the open bust body smoothers in nude to wear under dresses.

thurso - hallowe'en name? How about ThurstOfAVampire or ThurSoVeryWitchy hmmmm, will have a think.

Morning all

mouse DD can use my phone so they probably called each other to coordinate! She is a bit tired and grumpy today but looking forward to seeing in laws.

I am going to look into shapewear. Do you think I could get something that pushed all the fat from my knees upwards. I reckon I'd get a decent pair of boobs out if it

morning.

i feel fine - had just the two glasses. bit fuggy but no headache or anything.

msgee - i ended up having to have surgical intervention anyway. lots went wrong (in terms of staff messing things up and making mistakes) when i went in for surgery so i wish that could have been avoided altogether but at least i'd had quiet time alone to start absorbing stuff before all that i guess. and it gave time for it to sink in before i dealt with the next traumatic bit. so yes think you're probably right.

Saf - xx

MsGee - yep, a bit like the body suit that Robin Williams wears in Mrs Doubtfire I'm sure if you squished it up north your norks would be awesome!!

[hgrin]

Back in, and out again to do the food shop.

xxx

Dubs - see my link ^ up there to Ma, next do a great range and they actually work!

Lazy day has so far included bacon sarnies and a HUGE much of tea. Lush. Now I should dress and go to get some shopping so that we can eat. Booooorrrrrrrrrrring!

When is JWN back?

venus - How is DD today? Any more news? Think of you all, much love xx

YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!! Great name Thurso! [hgrin]

I have the norks. its the spare tyre thats the problem! That link is great mouse just wish it showed you the back view. We don't have a very big NEXT near us so will probs have to order online.
got the house to myself for a rare few hours so am catching up with housework on MN

mouse does the open bust one go under the norks then?