The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Joins The Foreign Legion In Their Quest For Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse and I have a very abusive relationship with alcohol.

I can't just have one glass of anything, I have to drink until I pass out or run out. Whichever comes first.

This Bus is a place of solace and safety, where drinkers, non-drinkers and those who aren't quite sure can come and post or just sit and 'be'.

No-one will judge you, no-one will think any the less of you because we all have the same thing in common.

Alcohol.

And for those who want to read the journey's so far and the original thread by JWN, the lady who very bravely started these journeys for us, HERE they are.

(PS - the title is just for you notevenamousie)

Hello everyone

I've just been out for a meal with DH (no booze) and asked him to support me while I'm staying away from the booze, by not keeping it in the house. He was really cool about it.

The job is for a senior fundraiser post (I'm a charidee bod) and it's the umpteenth interview in the last few months. My plan for tomorrow evening, whatever the outcome, is to call a friend and to start studying my new OU course.

noteven - head banging was due to me forgetting loads today but that one was due to me forgetting my lunch for the third time! I was all ready for settling down with it, catch up on the thread and then I came into the lounge without it. Again!

One of those days.

Right lovelies, I'm off to bed. Feeling rough so I need to get my sleep on.

Night night all xxxx

wow, Gerald looks cool!
well, I'd done pretty well and been to Pilates but just received a photo of me taken at the conference last week with my two DDs. OMG I look dreadful! I thought I looked smart squeezed into my new suit and I look hideous, with a jowly face and short cropped hair. I look like a man, and a feckin ugly one at that. Who am I kidding that I will be able to wear a gorgeous frock in 4 weeks and look nice.

Stupid seems a bit harsh isinde If you only had one leg (assuming you have two) you wouldn't be stupid for finding two legged things challenging. I am trying to accept and manage a significant deviation from how most of society functions, but that isn't all I am, well actually at the moment it seems it is, blah blah.
I don't underestimate the seductiveness of your demonic one night stand. Do you have to stay away? Anyway a dry house filled with love is a huge achievement.
Hope I haven't been rude or inappropriate regarding quantity of legs.

Ma don't give up!!

I don't like photos of myself either. All the more reason to change my bad habits .

If you stick to your diet you could see a real difference in just one week. Just 7lbs will make your clothes looser and 14lb will be one size smaller. Every little bit really, really helps.

Well done on pilates. I went this evening as well and my legs feel quite wobbly.

Are you staying off the booze today?

ma I bet you don't, just that to you, your DDs look so young, fresh and beautiful. Ask yourself where they got that from. At least two shapely runners legs will be curving from your frock. If it really is an unflattering photo, why did someone give it to you, how do you know they didn't shred five fabulous shots muttering in a jealous rage?

sorry, I'm sure your DDs look lovely to every one, not just their mother

I have to admit that I quite liked the name newlylush. I worked with someone who called everything good 'lush', and the dictionary defines it as "luxurious, opulent, voluptuous, sensual, abundant, plentiful, thriving". That all sounds pretty good to me

ma don't let your perception of the photo put you off. You CAN lose a bit of extra weight and you WILL look fab.

Never done a link before so not sure if it will work, but this is my Gerald.

www.thedoubledeckers.com/album35.htm

How old are you Faire???

As old as my tongue and a little bit older than my teeth

Thanks for the name analysis venus. That's what I was trying to achieve - to be lush in a good sense instead of being an Old Lush. But maybe it was confusing. The name "lush" has been taken. Am thinking this name will be shortened to old, which although technically true-ish might not be that helpful. Will ponder.

Had a nice evening out and resisted the trip to the pub after.

Good luck with your test Mouse

Ah Faire by using that saying you have really given yourself away!

Isindie I had one that didn't sleep through the night until 4YO and one that slept through from 16 weeks, think it it is the luck of the draw.

Of course you are tired with 2 little ones waking in the night, working and travelling for work, try not to worry about it and remember that this is another situation that would only be made worse by drinking on it.

All things shall pass...
I think of Lush as the west country/welsh? meaning of lovely, how about WellLush or has that been taken?

Morning all
DD is still asleep which is very rare!! I am going to have to wake her in a bit and get some calpol down her and please please let that have her fit for school today. Bit of a crisis of confidence the last couple of days, hoping that will pass now. Hope all have good days. Inappropriate guilt has no place in my/ our lives today. x

Morning all!

Haven't quite got Jesus' boingness, but life is pretty darn good.

Here's to a sober day, one foot in front of the other, one day at a time.

another vote for newlylush - i like it.

morning BB and noteven and everyone else as they emerge

we're up around 5.30am at the minute - not sure what all that's about but it's not bothering me.

day 11 feeling good. getting lots sorted around the house, losing weight, being a better mum i think and generally feeling and doing better. there really is no downside is there except the one's in our heads?

yy to inappropriate guilt being tossed away noteven - and in your words remember, misery is optional x

Haha BB I knew that would make me sound old. It's what I say to the children in class when they ask. Either that or 107. Being 5 year olds they all think I'm ancient anyway.

I'm actually 46 and just about old enough to remember the Double Deckers. .

Clouds are back today, think summer is definately over now . It was dark by 7.00pm last night and the clocks change in a few weeks .

Have lovely days babes x

Morning Babes

Day 13 bring it on!

Ma - use that photo as extra incentive. Stick it on the fridge door. That's the old you remember? We are going to cheer you on every step of the way and YOU WILL get into that dress, short cropped hair eh? And that dress? Perfect combo.

Right, what is your food plan for today? And what exercises do you have planned?

Great night again, Nemo slept in his own bed AGAIN all night!

Saf - great post to wake up to, so positive. I like it.

Docs in a bit for the test results then shopping to grab DD's food list. I have made her plan her week, each night she has to have a proper cooked dinner with at least one veg and has taken an apple to school.

I'm fed up with her being ill. She needs to EAT!!!

thanks for the support all.
exercise plan is a 40 minute walk/jog outside after work. Breakfast will be (when I get round to it) coffee and a banana. Lunch is pasta salad - low on pasta, high on salad, - and a yoghurt. dinner unfortunately is DH's sweet and sour chicken with egg fried rice. Guess I just don't have the rice?? Snacks for the day are a low fat breakfast biscuit thingy and an apple. How does that sound?

Morning all,

Mouse great news on Nemo sleeping. You sound so positive at the moment, I love it.

saf - yay, Day 11. I am also feeling good- we can definitely do this!

Isinde ... sadly I can tell you all about bad sleepers. I have found that the ones who don't sleep well as babies, just continue not to (sorry). However, if she is settling herself without you having to that is a really good sign and bodes well. I think the main problems are that some babies / children just don't self settle well and therefore need constant reassurance throughout the night (see my DD as exhibit A). But that doesn't seem to be the case with DT1. Can you time her and know that if you leave her for 1 or 2 or 3 minutes she will be fine. I have found that with bad sleepers you do what you can but eventually you need to find a way of managing it (rather than fighting it) so that you get some sleep. Are you going to bed early? DD is 3.5 we can bargain with her so she is sleeping through the odd night now. (sorry,that might depress you).

ma do not dwell on the photo. Its one image of you and I suspect if you felt damn fine you probably looked it. Photos sometimes just do not do us justice and do not represent how we looked at the time. (I am not just saying this because I am notoriously unphotogenic). I am glad its not disheartened you. I was thinking last night that if you could book yourself in for a spa treatment at the end of the diet as an extra incentive? I am going to do that - going to get a pedicure and one of those wraps so that I can lose an extra inch before hols!

(am worried your breakfast won't keep you going though, particularly if you are running... I get alpen low fat muesli bars which are ok as a snack). Can you do yourself some noodles instead of the rice? And just have a bit?

Anyway, have a lovely day babes and MIF ... I worked so hard last night I have an ok day today. Hurrah.

Thanks MsGee

I've just had some very news, one of my friends died on Sunday evening, she had been battling breast cancer for several months. She leaves behind two gorgeous boys, aged 10 and 7yrs.

I can't stop crying for them all. Such a horrible thing to happen to such nice people. Life is so unfair. I have not let go of Nemo since we got the call. Life is so very precious.

I'm going out now, be back later. Sorry for bringing the thread down but I wanted to tell my friends so that you don't think I'm being off with anyone.

xx

Advice please!

I spent the weekend with a group of friends a few weeks back and was the only non-drinker. One of the group, who I had not met before, wanted to talk about why I didn't drink, how I stopped and her attempts to give up. She mentioned not stopping until the 3 October so is this striking while the iron's hot or stalkery. Would you have freaked out if you received this email?

Dear Nameoffriend,

Chatter about the weekend away and contact details in general. And the weather, about five lines

I know we talked about drinking in general, but in case I didn't spell it out, I don't drink because I can't- because I'm an alcoholic. I have no idea whether you need or want to stop, but if you want to talk more I'd be very happy to.

Keep in touch,

Helpmenow'srealname

On the off chance she is really offended and angry the mutual friends all know that I'm an alcoholic in recovery, and I'm sending it from my home email, so I'm not risking anything.