The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Blowing Away The Booze In The Autumn Breeze.

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Hello.

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

I'm mouse and I have an abusive relationship with alcohol. I can't have just the one drink, ever.

I'm not alone here, there are Babes who are sober and have been for some time, Babes who are still drinking and trying their best to stop or cut down and then there are Babes who aren't ready to stop drinking. Yet.

So, why not come and say hi?

No judgy pants allowed on here I'm afraid, cakes and cheeses are!

And for those who want to know a bit more about the Bus, HERE is our journey so far.

Saf

i saw it in the 'threads i'm on'

comb dammit!

checking in quickly before I log off.

I am so glad DD seems to escape nits (does not point out that its because at 3.5 she only has a wisp of hair...)

oh, and I am not drinking!!

Saf

Right, tea is finished as are the biccy's so The Body Farm here, tv not actually, and then Bedfordshire.

Night night Babes, thank you for all of your posts and debate and chats and hugs and support for yet another day.

Lots of love xxxxxx

Caught up finally. So glad to see you posting again Silver no pressure.

Mouse hope you enjoyed your dinner out - you deserve it

oteven how awful of your sister, hope she comes to her senses soon. Please dont worry about Xmas although I am too, its ages away and we will be here if you find things tough. Maybe we should arrange a bit 'meet up' in anuary - something to look forward to after xmas

Sorry for typos - mixture of laptopp playing up and the dog lying on it [happy]

I have to say I am loving all the typos today

Just wanted to add, re my post above, that I do not just come here for distraction and support, I really do enjoy all the innane chatter and some of the highbrow stuff too.

Anyone remember Cheers? This bus is like that place but with more soft drinks. Altogether now . . . Sometimes you wanna go, where everybody knows your name . . . and they're always glad you came . . .

im posting but this is really wierd!, the thread seems to have vanished into thin air, melody had to link me here, whats happened?

ohhh that made me shiver!! horrid panicky feeling at not being able to find everyone!

Ooh, thanks for the reminder, hello to Melody & Juggling

Hi Melody How did it go?
MYODD hope you are OK.

yes. i let myself get a bit rattled yesterday by things - think it was defensiveness of the thread and the people on it but i'm sorry - probably didn't help.

day 5 here going well.

good morning to all - i only do caffeine and nicotine for breakfast but can offer that to anyone who wants - i'll leave the feeding to mouse.

woke up really nicely today - was aware of my bed, of my surroundings, the half light and still wrapped up in it when i heard ds's door click and he came and cuddled in with me. a few minutes later i was ready to open my eyes, feed the boy and animals and make coffee with a smile on my face.

sounds such a simple, natural thing but so much easier and nicer and more effortless when not drinking.

how is the trip isndie? is it business?

Morning all,
I was made to think yesterday - about how rather than waiting for family to be supportive I could do a bit more just getting on without them - I think I already do but I also still live in the I-am-really-bad-so-I-deserve-it place a lot. I didn't choose to be an alcoholic and ODAAT I am being a responsible person these days. So going to just get on with it. Thank you for all the lovely support I had in the midst of the tough love that was necessary when it was my tunr so I don't doubt it was any less necessary anyway.
sAf I do love that feeling too - the coming to, the being aware that the world is actually ok! Have had drinking dreams the last 3 nights, and spent the first few moments remembering that they were just dreams :)
Have a good day everyone!

Morning!

New day eh folks! Lovely light here this morning, DD tucking into her second weetabix after waking at 5.30 and going straight into chatterbox mode. Work getting me a bit down but no point in grumbling, am lucky to have the work.

Morning,

What a lovely post Noteven, have a good day.

SAF you did make me laugh, with coffee and nicotine for breakfast, you're a dude!

I'm off for a swim, don't really feel like it this morning, but I'm sure I will be perked up afterwards.

I remember Cheers Zany, I loved it.

Speak later
xxx

audrey hepburn lived on caffeine, nicotine, 1 green salad and 1 medium rare steak a day think she carried it off better than me though.

it is a nice feeling noteven - it's all ok you know? nothing to regret, no awful fuggy head, no irritation at having to be awake. sure there'll be bad days but they'll be for a reason rather than your brain trying to recover from the self inflicted damage of the day/night before.

noteven - i agree with just getting on with it. ok you did bad stuff (don't know what but i'm assuming the alcohol seflishness came into it like it has for so many) and you and others can judge that but it is done and you DID SOMETHING ABOUT IT and turned it around. maybe some will take time to believe that, you can only go about your life and be happy and healthy and live in a good way. hopefully they'll see and come back on side but that's up to them and now says more about them and where they're at than you iyswim? i too get the i'm worthless etc etc etc demons - we must try not to feed them x

msgee sorry work is stressful - do unload if it will help. being self employed must be really worrying sometimes.

oh and i weighed myself today and despite late night munchies and the never ending cycle i appear to be losing weight

Morning all beautiful blue skies here. I too woke early and happy, eager to face the days. Bliss. Happy humpday everyone. Actually, today is not only the 'peak of the week' but also the peak of the term. Where does the time go? Enjoy every gorgeous sober moment babes.

Ma will be thinking of you today x

noteven crossed posted. Sorry in the midst of yesterday I forgot to send a (( )). Families have the power to hurt like no-one else sometimes. I'm so sorry that your sister is behaving like this, it must be like a further bereavement. I am trying not to judge her, perhaps this is a strange reaction to losing your mum? Other the other hand, its just a horrible thing to do

isinde your parents never fail to astound me ((( )))

Mouse I know that today will be a sad day for you, ((( ))). Take time to think of your babies and to be sad. You know where I am if you need me.

saf hurrah on the losing weight. I daren't weigh myself but I think that the diet is working. After three days I should have lost weight yes??!! That said, I do find that the first week of dieting is the best for weight loss. I want to lose half a stone before December (swimsuit inspired as I will be on holiday).

I don't really know what to do about work. Its of my own making I just took on too much. I have been working extra half days (each week) and hate DD being in nursery for that extra half day (so 3.5 days in total) - I really miss her. I work in the evening for an hour or two (little time for much more after bedtime and early night to prepare for 5.30am start), DH takes DD out an hour or so on the weekends so I can work then (which I don't like as they get to do the fun stuff!). And I am just, just keeping on top of it. I felt quite pleased last night to not be behind and then looked at the workload for next month and I have to fit another half a day a week in somehow. I just don't know how I can do it.

Sorry for the moan, I am sure that lots of people would love to be in the position of having too much work, so probably throwing cake crumbs at me on the bus but its really stressing me out. Any time management tips? (apart from staying off here ).

Sunny autumn greetings to everyone xx

swallowedafly My DS came in to give me a cuddle when he woke up this morning, which he often does still, and is such a nice start to the day. Some cheerful music on Classic FM too - A clarinet concerto by Mozart I think which went well with the hugs from DS. I'm loving the sunshine today too - and yesterday - when we went for a lovely walk in the park after school - DS with skate-board. Had a reasonable first evening with DH away for the week, but DC's had loads of home-work which was a bit stressy all round.
mouse Thinking of you and yours today.

< Can we have the salmon for lunch today - while veggie DH is not looking ! >

Not sure I should really be on this bus except that I will probably be a better Mum to DC's this week if I don't buy that bottle of wine ! - Just drink in the sunshine instead !

Morning to all on this lovely autumn morning. Special thoughts to ma as you prepare for your dd to go off on her adventure. It will all be fine. She willblossom and grow, and you may find a little extra space for yourself, to plan for your own future. Big hugs to mouseface. Take very special care of your heart, acknowledge the empty space that is in it, and know that you are still the mummy of those 3 little boys, as well as the wonderful mum to dd and nemo who will grow and change with you.

re: children growing up, I was talking with a friend yesterday about my dd leaving home. She and her dh could not have children and she says that even now 20+ years on she still finds some things difficult. She feels the absence of not having an 'empty-nest' feeling, of not having that cycle of leaving and return that I will have when dd comes home at Christmas, she feels the lack of the sense of a bigger picture that comes when you see your dc going out into the world as young adults. A reminder for me of how fortunate I am.

Just a thought for those whose children are flying the nest. JWN was right yesterday, they will call sometimes to cheer you up but mainly because we always want our mums, particularly when we need to be comforted, to be cheered on or just to be told that we are doing ok.

I left home nearly 20 years ago and I know that it was hard for my mum. I know that she hates the fact I live 5 hours away from her. I also know how proud I was to show her my skanky student digs. To show her the pot plant I'd bought, the tea towels I'd got that matched the oven gloves ... to show her that she taught me well. I remember her laughing at a story that I once got rather drunk and vomited all over my bed ... she liked the fact that I immediately stripped the bed, put the washer on and cleaned the room. She loves the little details that show that she is present in my life every day. I think of my mum every time I put the washer on (the woman loves to wash), when I make cheese sauce or gravy, when I sing the songs to DD that she taught me. She is present in my life every day because she is my mum.

I also know that she would sometimes quite like it if I didn't call her every day. I know that sometimes she wishes I would shut up a bit and not involve her in every minutae of my life. I know that she's just had her first holiday this year without grandchildren and that she loved it.

I'm not sure where I am going with this but I just wanted to let people know that their DC will always be thinking of them, always carrying them in their hearts, always coming back to them. Because they are mum.