The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Head To The Summer Of Sobriety

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Hello

I'm Mouse

Welcome aboard The Brave Babe's Battle Bus. There are a whole host of lovely posters here who will support your journey to sobriety, however you choose to get there.

We are a Bus full of drinkers, non-drinkers and those who are somewhere in between.

BUT - we will never judge or leave a poster out in the cold. So, find a seat and settle down for the journey ahead.

And HERE is the last thread and those before it too. Just follow the links to read the journeys so far.

I know Mouse. I just really really don't want to screw up again this weekend. I just can't. You are right of course. Glad your meeting for Nemo went well yesterday.

I was doing ok but now im not......but im so pretty and witty and not a fuck up when i drink....shame about when i wake up hey...

managed a 36 minute run tonight and it damn near killed me.
I felt better later - if I can do this i can do other things.
I will get control of my life, I will!!

I know what you mean kandi, I would find that with a couple of drinks in me I'd find sharper words to say, faster to tease others, quicker to spot the amusing element. But I've learnt 2 things - the first was that my rapier-like wit was quite short lived, a couple of drinks later and I was dull as ditchwater (even if I couldn't see it). I have also found that I'm much kinder and gentler now. I think kindess is an under-rated quality. I (and other people) may not think I'm quite so amusing, but I don't run the same risk of hurting other people's feelings and I like myself a whole lot more.

PS - I also thought I was prettier drunk - wide eyes, fewer wrinkles. Funny that beer goggles also worked on myself . Also didn't like waking up with myself the next morning - not so pretty then.

ma I think it would kill me to run for 36 seconds. Well done. (And you can. You can.)

Hello, just popping in before I go to bed,

Ma I am in awe! If you can run for 36 minutes, you can do anything you set your mind to. I am also very jealous of your meet up next week. DC has decided against Edinburgh, so it doesn't look like I will be up again in the near future. Have a tall, cold, glass of sparkly (water) for me!

I too thought that a few glasses of wine made me sparkle, but I have found that I still have funny and interesting conversations and I can remember all of them! .

How are you Venus Is DD still at home? I am so excited about DC1 coming home, but nervous about meeting his girlfriend for the first time. I am dreading that I will get the dreaded nervous verbal diarreoa!!

Night all, fairy dreams to you, and I hope you and Nemo are peacefully asleep Mousie.
xxx

Morning all,

Nervous anticipitation kept me awake! [silly sausage icon].
I am at college this morning, and that will keep me busy, so that I don't keep cleaning the house! (reminds self that GF is coming to see us not inspect the house!)

Love to all, have good mornings. xxxxx

thurso just remember 2 things:

• you are lovely and she will love you
• she will be much more nervous than you (however cool she appears outwardly)

ahh thurso!! - dont worry! im sure you will be fine, and if you do turn into embarassing mum just tell your self its charater building for ds, if he can cope with that he will cope with anything!

hello venus!

Morning Babes

Well, I may have to strangle that bloody sleep fairy, she clearly got lost last night. I've been up with Nemo since before 4.30am. No idea what time he actually woke up but that's when I looked at the clock.

So far, he's lost his first feed and pood for England requiring a full change and strip wash.

It's going to be one of those days...... DH is out all day interviewing but has promised me a McDonalds' for lunch, he's bringing it back with him before he has to go back out and interview.

DD has gone to school in her own clothes and looked fab. She's so bloomin tall!

I was stood out in the street at 7.30 dealing with the water board, some idiot workment have resurfaced the pavements but covered the access holes to the water so we can't carry on with the kitchen until we can turn it off.

The guy was like, 'Hmmmmmmm, ahhhhhhhh, welllllll, urmmmmm,' 'well I'll have to go and get the plans for the road and the council won't be open until 9 so urmmmm....... can I call you later'

I have to otherwise I might just

Oh Mouse! What can I say? Enjoy your McDonalds. What are you having? Being on your own dog tired with little ones is so hard.

Hello everyone, I have my laptop back!!! I've actually had it back since wednesday morning, but have had such a mad busy week I haven't found time to get on it!! I've actually quite enjoyed my abstinence from internet, and am going to try not to get too "sucked back into it"

Hope everyone is doing well, I'm on top of the world - still going strong (9 weeks now) and what a difference it has made to my life! I've also managed two music festivals, hosting a party, a gig and a day out in town when everyone else was drinking, and enjoyed all of them so much more than I would have if blotto. So that put my fears about not being able to socialise to bed!!

The best news, remember the friend who washed her hands of me? She approached me at sports day on Tuesdat and asked if she could come round to see me.
haven't been able to fit that in yet because of previously stated manic busy-ness, but I'm pretty sure that we're going to be able to smooth things over - which I'm really happy about.

Hope everyone is happy and doing well, looking forward to catching up!!!

Morning Babes

Sorry I'm not posting much. I have a new sooper-dooper phone which lets me read, but on which my typing is like that of a pianist with her fingers taped together. Am on laptop now, so any typos are all my own fault!

Ma - wow to the running. I hope you don't mind me saying this, but it sounds to an outsider that all your energy and life-force are being turned inwards and against yourself with the frustrations and problems of your day-to-day life. It's amazing that you're keeping the running going, against all odds - I hope that it helps give you a safe outlet, and agree with Venus that you can do this (very much easier to type than do, I know).

Kandi - hope you're not feeling too bad this morning. I remember saying to a friend years ago (warning sign much ) that I felt "so much more myself" after a couple of glasses. The problem was always that I kept trying to improve on that by chasing myself down to the bottom of one bottle then the next, and by the end, well, I didn't feel like anything much human.

Luci - well done, and good luck this weekend. We have a couple of situations where it's going to seem pointed and really almost rather rude not to have a drink. Not quite sure how I'm going to handle that yet.

Mouse - the sleep fairy rarely darkens our doors, but paid us a visit last night - I now know that she was clearly lost. I'll kick her glittery little backside over in the direction of you and Nemo, who need her presence so much more.

Thurso - good luck for the weekend!

Am also wondering about Isindie and hoping she's ok.

Me - well, things are pretty good. Am very busy and tired, but haven't really been drinking over the last few weeks. Have had a couple of blink-and-you-miss-it downing-a-bottle-of-wine-in-half-an-hour evenings, which actually I feel more frustrated than bad about. It's as if the drinking demon (I know, it's really just me) suddenly breaks through and suspends normal service for a short period; seriously, I didn't like the frantic nature of it, but I didn't follow it up with any more, and as I say, it's been pretty sporadic.

Hope everyone has a good weekend (oh! Zany, good luck with camping!)

x-posted - hello qo and on the 9 weeks and the friend! Great to hear you so happy!

Wow Qo, congrats on 9 weeks, you sound so much brighter and happier than a couple of months ago and great news about your friend wanting to call to see you.

QO - thats fantastic! you sound such a different person! im sure your friend will see that too and is proberbly so pleased at the thought of getting her old 'new' friend back!

i just saw some pictures of glasto, i dont zany! it looks like my idea of hell on earth!

wanders off muttering about the youth of today!!

Luci - Big Mac meal of course

I'm on auto at the moment, washing, drying, paying bills.......

qo - hello and wow at 9 weeks, that's brilliant!

tall - thank you, when she gets here, I'll pin her bloody wings together so she can't leave.

obrigada - sending you love and strength, hope your mum is okay xx

Hi to all
got the entire office to myself for an hour as everyone else has fucked off early so am surfing the net and trying not to be tempted into spending any money seeing as I just got paid today and have my card handy...........
Think the long hard run last night did me good, I felt quite positive this morning and am hoping for a nice weekend. This is mostly becuase DH will not be here for most of it, including Saturday night, so I will be at peace, relatively speaking.
thanks for the nice comments on the running. i find it hard as I am not a natural runner and overweight so it is a real stuggle,but it gives me head space when I can stop overthinking things for a while and just concentrate on breathing and getting to the next lampost or where ever. Doing 2nd Race for Life on Sunday - 5K - and actually quite looking forward to it.

Ma I'm a runner too. I discovered it 14 years ago, I was three stone overweight and feeling very trapped with two small children. I started off running a few steps, gradually I built it up. I've run two marathons now!! Running has saved me so many times, I have run my way through all the most difficult times in my life including bereavement. Since I gave up drinking my running has really improved, I am loving it now more than ever. Keep it up it will be your friend. Its the one time when its just you and the open road, like you say you can focus on breathing and the next lamp post, and enjoy the runners high aswell. Nobody can ask anything of you while you are running.

Hello!
I am creeping on to see if I am an alcoholic- I suspect I maybe and have yet to admit it (to anyone). I drink 1-1 1/2 (large) bottles of lambrini a day. I suspect that the perry replaced fags but i gradually drink more and more. I have put on 2 stone on last 2 years drinking and feel I get a little twitchy around tea time when i fancy a glass. LAst night was first alcohol free evening in at least 3 months!

hi rusmum welcome to the bus and well done on an alcohol free day yesterday! I don't think you need to lable yourself, but yes you are drinking a lot. Maybe about the same as I was when I got on this bus, maybe more than some of us, maybe less than some of us, but if you are not happy with how much you are drinking you are in the right place.
How are you getting on this evening? Have you had a drink yet?
i have been here for about 8 months now and it is great community so stick around and tell us somethiing about you if you like.

rusmum do you want to stop drinking all together or do you want to be able to drink like 'normal' people do? I have gone for the nothing approach because I have tried controlling my drink for many years and never been sucessfull, but some of our lovely babes have been able to develop a more healthy attitude to have an occasional drink.

I am drinking flavoured water tonight! i would like to have a couple of drinks if on holiday, special occasions etc but not as a everyday occurance and not in such quantities!

That's great, you are on day 2 already! You say you have been drinking more for the last couple of years - what sort of drinker were you before then and what happened to increase the quantities? Do you know?

I would say I have always been a heavy drinker - able to cut down for pregnancies (although not give up completely, I am so old that the advice in my day was you could have one or two a week - so of course I did!). Do you have any DC?