The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Head To The Summer Of Sobriety

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Hello

I'm Mouse

Welcome aboard The Brave Babe's Battle Bus. There are a whole host of lovely posters here who will support your journey to sobriety, however you choose to get there.

We are a Bus full of drinkers, non-drinkers and those who are somewhere in between.

BUT - we will never judge or leave a poster out in the cold. So, find a seat and settle down for the journey ahead.

And HERE is the last thread and those before it too. Just follow the links to read the journeys so far.

Oh and I forgot to say, Nemo's meeting this afternoon with his nurse and his SALT went really well, they are both really pleased with his progress and said how much he's gone forward in the last few weeks.

Respite lady is coming on Monday to meet us for the first time. I'm a wee bit nervous, wondering if I'll like her or not.........

I hope I like her and get on with her, otherwise it's going to be a bit embarrassing having to ask for someone else.

Mouse presumably you can object if you don't like/trust the respite lady? My dh works with a severely disabled child. It's a bit like respite I suppose as two afternoons a week he spends time with him doing stimulating play/learning type things so that his mum can get on with other things. The council pays for it but the mum got to choose the carer (dh) by interviewing.

I do feel for you having to wave your child off into theatre, that must be one of the hardest things any mother has to do xx

Hello again!

I'm so glad your meeting went well Mouse. Re: respite, I hope you like the lady, and I'm sure you will, but, remember, Nemo is your child, and you have to feel happy, comfortable, safe and secure with whomever you leave him with, so nothing is too much to ask!

Golly Hungry and tired, I think, but I have the dinner sorted, and I have to pick DC2 up at 7, half an hours drive away, so the danger zone will be over by then. Daft, really, I've never been a good sleeper (except when I've been drinking wine), but because I go to bed with none, these days (because one would be a complete waste of time, for me), as soon as I go to bed my mind starts whirring away, and when I do get to sleep, I have technicolour dreams, and not always good ones! I have been rather a worryguts about work lately, and internalising it (most unlike me!), so maybe that's it.

P.s Handing children over to the theatre nurse , I always kept it together until I turned away, and sobbed all the way back to the ward .

Golly what you wrote earlier about not liking one drink, is so true. It really helps to see other people expressing what I think and feel. I often find it hard to put things into words (well ones that make sense) this thread has really helped me to see that things that I thought were "just me" are shared by so many others. Mouse I hope it goes well on Monday, I think if you don't feel right about the respite lady, you will find you get past the embarrassment, after all it will not be a proper break if your worrying about her. x

Also mouse remember that you are an incredible, wonderful, loving mother to nemo. How could you possibly be replaced? But you are not looking for a replacement mother for nemo, you are looking for someone who is strong enough, and loving enough, and good enough to look after him for a very short time in the day. He will build a bond with that person, and it will be a different bond to to the one he has with you. He knows that YOU are his wonderful, amazing mother. That doesn't stop someone else from being able to build a lovely close relationship with him too. (Now that all sounds like advice for Thurso in respect of her grown-up sons )

will you all stop with the nice posts please, I'm struggling to see with all the tears.

Thank you all so much for your support.

venus - that's it isn't it...... I expect her to be like me, do what I do with my precious boy. Daft really. I'm sure I'll like her, I'm projecting aren't I! Norty mouse!

How is everyone doing on a Tuesday evening? I'm looking out for isindie and silver...... if you're lurking come and let us know how things are.

Hey Venus

Still lurking

Am OK - pretty down emotionally, but my drinking is much improved with taking the naltrexone.

Just getting through each day at the moment x

Hey all,

mouse I had no idea about Nemo, what an inspiration you are.

ma sorry to hear your feeling so flat. A lot of my drinking came from a place of needing to get "out of my head", to flee whatever I was feeling. I became an oblivion seeker. It took me a long time to realise that alcohol was no reward. Up, down, flat whatever I feel now, I just go with. It's all temporal and it's authentic, not influenced by booze.

Lovely to see you silver. If I recall correctly, this is about the time that Naltrexone really has an impact. Good for you.

venus are we still on for next week?

Yes ma - I'm spending every spare minute in the gym, aiming to lose 2 stone before we meet, and I'm having beauty treatments every day.... [JOKE!]. Looking forward to it. x

Morning all,
Take it from one who knows Venus*, you don't need any beauty treatments, or gym bunnying. My friend xx

Morning again,

Read my first post, and am wondering if the inflexions work, hard to do in type! Just meant that you are beautiful inside and out Venus.

I've just seen the boys off to school, and work, and it's my day off .
To borrow from JWN, Boing! I think I was just really tired yesterday. I got back from picking up DC and spent a couple of hours reading my new book "The Good Companions" by J B Priestley, a very restful read, recommended by my Dad!

Silver I'm so glad to hear from you, sorry that you're feeling down, but hopefully that will change soon, when your med really kicks in. I often think about you, as you were a pal, when I first joined.

Isinde Where are you, sweetheart? are you, and the family ok? Please let us know, we worry .

I hope everyone had a peaceful night, and restful sleep. Very bizzarre dreams for me, again.

This morning I am shopping for dresses . I have a couple of events coming up, and I need an evening dress, and as the internet ones were such a letdown, I'm going to have to do the deed, and try some on in a shop! I'm not holding out much hope, to be honest. It seems that when I need to find something, there's nothing, and when I don't I see lots of lovely things. i should get them when I see them I suppose. Oops rambling....

Love to all, speak later xxxxxxx

P.s I meant to say yesterday,Venus are you a mind reader? DC1 is coming home this weekend, with his girlfriend, for the first time, and I am very nervous. Your advice to Mouse definitely works for me .

boing!! well nearly! my mouth still hurts like mad but the antibs are kicking now!

silver - lovely to see you!, let us know how you are getting on!

venus - i have never clapped eyes on you but i just KNOW you are a beauty!

thurso - hmm!! evening dresses! do you have a txmaxx near you?, because i need so many of the things that is the first place i look - i now have about 12 evening dresses (all long!) bought for between £35 (honestly! and it is my fav!) to about £120. you have to rummage at times but now is a good time to look as its prom season (i know you dont want a prom dress but sometimes a gem will creap in!) i dont want you to suck eggs but its a good idea to take the shoes you will be wearing and your sucky in knickers!

i have to look for a bloody hat! i hate the damn things and dont own one but my dear friends dad has just passed away and its a proper east end funeral with plumed horses and the fella walking in front down bow high street etc - a hat is a must! he was a scrap metal merchant and very kind to me when i was a single mum, so a hat it is!

How is everyone doing today?

Afternoon All

Just popping in to say hi, am in Sunny (not so much right now) Manchester!
Loving being here and being sober. Life is truly great!!!

Home tomorrow on the train, and then off camping with the kids for the weekend, to say that I am truly dreading this would be an understatement!!! Apparently it has rained all week, and a weekend under canvas in the damp cold misery that is the Scottish summer does not fill me with joy and happiness, but I am trying to adopt a positive attitude towards it!!!!

Hope everyone is good
Big kisses
Bafana

Hi Venus today I am feeling vaguely traumatised after cleaning/mucking out both of my teenage sons rooms. Both equally horrific, it seems The Simpsons comic has been replaced with Nuts Magazine I found Cheerios cemented to furniture and a complete science experiment growing in a mug!! Might need a lie down and a stiff Cloudy Lemonade later (my new favourite drink). x

Silver - mind reading eh? I was going to text you and ask you to update on how the meds have been going.

Fab to see you here xx

starmucks - thank you xx

hi all
venus going for a run tonight in an effort to lose about a stone and a half before next week!
What to wear, what to wear.....
Where the bloody hell is Indie

I don't any contact details for her Ma, not sure who does

• IsinDe where are you?!

Day 3. Feeling strangely calm and not missing a drink at all so far. Tomorrow night may well be a completely different story, as will the weekend, my traditional "getting pissed" times.
Also wondering where "Indie* is an hope she's ok.