The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Spring Into Summer.

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Hello

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

This is a quest full of Babes, all fighting to remain sober, cut down or are somewhere in between right now.

You ticket to travel is free, it won't expire, and the Bus will always be here, even if there are days when you are not. So come say hi.

I'm Mouse. I have a thing for cheese and vodka, not together, well, not always!

Here is a LINK to the last thread, where you can read all of the previous threads and the journeys so far.

Hi all

Was posting a while back, and things seemed to be going well.

Have had a hideous time at work, and ended up on prescribed pills, which I wasn't supposed to drink with, but then I did, and now I've just drunk a bottle of wine. Which is pretty bad for me on a Monday night. For goodness sake, why can't I not do this? I haven't actually got properly shit-faced at all since I last posted a couple of months back, so not a living soul thinks there's anything wrong. I'm not mean anymore, I just don't seem to be able to cope with all the shit without drinking a couple of glasses of wine of an evening. Gah. It's got to be the most pointless alcohol-dependency in the world...

Sorry I haven't read anyone else's posts, but it's a bit of a me me me moment. Should have posted weeks and weeks ago but couldn't because of the shame.

Idiot.

Ellie - I understand that you felt shame and held off posting, but honestly there's no shame in being here. The shame is when you know there's a problem and you continue regardless (there's plenty of that going on elsewhere on MN )

Simply by posting here you're acknowledging the problem and hopefully are in the right frame of mind to tackle it. You should be proud of that x

Still doing well here - am in pain but that's because i have been exercising I am feeling OK about not drinking - no obvious stumbling blocks until Saturday when i'll be going to a family party but at the moment I feel fine about not drinking there either...

Sorry to those who are having a tough time atm, i'm not sure how I feel this will end for me...it feels safer not to drink at all for now...and i'm getting so much done!!

Ma, last September on holiday I ate tuna in a red wine reduction, and while i didn't quite get to the couldn't-breathe stage I went purple and hot with a horrendously painful headache, like I had incredibly bad sunstroke or something. Really scary, and really odd considering i've never had an allergic reaction to anything in my entire life. And i wasn't drinking heavily or not drinking, so that certainly wasn't an aggravating factor.

Anyway, glad you're okay. Mine's never recurred and I've eaten tuna since, FWIW, but it would make sense if you didn't want to risk it!

Frumpy, welcome, I bet it is the acidopholus if you were only drinking a bottle a night. Good work calling time, congratulations.

morning everyone.

ma take it easy with what you eat over the next days. My dsis developed a food allergy (one to one food substance). But initially when her body was recovering from the initial shock to her immune system, it was as if she was hypersensitive and she exhibited allergy-like responses to lots of other things that she isn't actually allergic to.

frumpy it sounds as though you are in a really good 'head-place' for what you are doing. I too had tried all the pretending to cut down, attempting to limit myself tactics but in the end, it was just being ready to do it and to sort myself out that gave me the initial motivation to make a difference. Doesns't make it easy always, but it does feel like the right time for it.

hi ellie welcome back anytime. No need to feel shame, or to let any shameful feelings you do have, to stop you from posting on here. After all, we've all been in the same boat / are in the same boat / run the risk of jumping back into the boat / mixture of all of the above. Can you use your 'shameful' feelings in a positive way - use the negative energy to get to the shops and stock up with bottles of soda or cranberry, or slices of lime, or bottles of purdies. Or use it to write down exactly how crap you feel, (or write down all the great things you noticed about yourself while you were not drinking) and put the the piece of paper somewhere prominent. Anything, so that next time you might feel tempted you have another resource on hand to help you.

Morning ladies, and Miflaw,

Ma how horrific for you. I hope you can take it easy today, are you at work?
Venus Is your cold any better?

I am trying to work from home this morning, but, yet again, I keep finding other things to do! I've done some though, so now I'm going to sit in the garden with a cup of coffee, and read "The Fry Chronicles" which Dh got me for my Birthday.

Mouse Is it today you have your meeting with the respite people? Good luck, and I hope Nemo had a good night.

Ellie Welcome back, and keep posting, it's what keeps us all going .

I hope the sun is shining on you all today.
xxx

thurso I am feeling a bit better, but I sound like a man

morning!!! nice to have back ellie!!

thurso, i do love a deep voice!

ma, i have a problem which is now known in our house as 'itchy prawns'! , happened after a stir-fry, felt dreadful and went to chemist who was an indian chap who did that 'goodness gracious me' voice , announced to the queue that this 'very poor lady has very bad itchy prawns'!

i have been to the gym at sparrow fart this morning, thats twice this week! - i now have even more to stay fit and sober for, dd has set the date!!! august next year!! I WILL BE A GLAM MOTHER OF THE BRIDE!! to that end

TODAY I WILL NOT BE DRINKING!!!!

Morning all. Have decided to stop lurking and step firmly back onto the bus. Day 3 for me.

morning obrigada Day 3 is good. stick with it.

Day 2 for me. Welcome to all the newcomers. Am feeling a bit stressy and edgy today. Got a meeting at DD2's nursery later with the SENCO. (Special Educational Needs worker) and am hoping she'll give me some tips and positively regarding how to bring on her speech.
DP had 2 cans of beer last night. He asked me if I wanted one and I resisted. Felt so much better to have got to 8pm having survived.
Am dieting for my holidays in August and am bloody starving! Lot's of coffee, chewing gum and a banana so far today.
Today I'm not drinking...whatever the outcome of the meeting. Let's face it, it won't help.

positivity not positively..duh!

Thanks Venus.

Morning all.

Obrigada I am so glad I finally stopped lurking as I find really helpful to have somewhere to 'check in' amongst people who understand how I might be feeling and that don't judge or treat me like the fool I feel at times! Day 3 is great, well done.

Good luck with your appointment luci. If it's any help, since dp has joined me in not drinking, he's lost 5lbs in a week and his clothes are much looser. It seems to have given him a real boost; thank god, as I was sick of tripping over his bottom lip every time he looked in the fridge and saw it full of soft drinks

Waves to EllieorOllie, venus has some great advice there, I can only echo what others have said, keep posting!

Had such a deep sleep last night - best night I've had in a long time, so I think that my body is finally catching up with the trauma I've been putting it through. I've got so much done around the house and caught up with work for my course which could have been done 2 weeks ago .

I feel in control of my life and my feelings today, so to continue with this, I won't be drinking.

That is definitely a statement I would like to be able to make Wasonce "I feel in control of my life and feelings" but I am a helluva long way from being able to say that!

Notice I put 'today' on the end, though

NEMO HAS BEEN AWARDED 3 WHOLE HOURS OF REPSITE A WEEK!!!! WHOOOOOOO-HOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

I can't believe that he has that much. I thought we'd get an hour if we were lucky. What will I do with 3 hours off? Where do I start? [wibble emoticon]

Hello again to Ellie and any new Babes - sorry head is spinning so I can't remember names

Obrigda - here, this is for you {{{{HUG}}}}

Crap night as per, 4 hours of broken sleep......

Many thanks to thurso and Was for remembering today was our big day

Off for lunch, will be back when I've caught up. xx

Absolutely delighted for you Mouse!

Just catching up

WOW 3 hours Mouse thats brilliant

Isindie hope your getting over your shocker of a holiday now

Fantastic news Mouse. Well done!

Hello and good afternoon

2 solid hours of reading my book, what a lazy good for nothing lucky girl, I am .

Mouse Yippee, I am so pleased for you, and your family. I would say start with actually giving yourself 3 hours off xxx, and not doing anything for anyone else!

ooh, that was meant to sound fondly jokey Mouse, I'm not sure it read that way. I just meant that I can imagine you filling 3 hours with a billion things, and not actually giving yourself any time.
xxx

mouse I'm putting on my very stern face here, so you must listen to me:

Respite means a short period of rest or relief from something difficult; time out for relaxation and recuperation.

Did you get those words: REST, RELAXATION, RECUPERATION. This is time for YOU, my dear, time for you to build up your energy and get a break so that you can return to your responsibilities with more energy. And that means that however difficult it will be for you, those 3 hours must be used to do things that replenish you energy, lift your spirits, and refresh your heart. They are not, not, NOT 3 hours to catch up with chores. OK? Promise?

Once nemo has become accustomed to his respite carer, we will be checking up on you. We expect to find you using the time to snuggle up for a whole hour of undisturbed, untroubled, unguilty sleep; or to be sitting in the sunshine in the garden with a good book and a glass of lime and soda; or having a massage; or whatever is good for your soul. xx

x-post with Thurso, I think we know our little mouse-friend too well

Venus, shall we be the mouseface-fairy aunties ?