The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Spring Into Summer.

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Hello

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

This is a quest full of Babes, all fighting to remain sober, cut down or are somewhere in between right now.

You ticket to travel is free, it won't expire, and the Bus will always be here, even if there are days when you are not. So come say hi.

I'm Mouse. I have a thing for cheese and vodka, not together, well, not always!

Here is a LINK to the last thread, where you can read all of the previous threads and the journeys so far.

Ma anyone shivered your timbers again lately

thurso, are you worried they're too young, August is too far away or that they haven't been together long enough for a trip abroad together?
I can see your point if that is the case.
God, when I look at my 4 and 2 yr old I can never imagine letting them go anywhere on their own..

Venus Me and DP have read your post quite a few times. He said it really opened up his eyes to everything! We spent long time establishing road blocks last night and today will be the first day of starting my new track! I'm very excited.

(a brief history) I have been drinking since i was 15 but for the past year and a half i have been (Was ) drinking 2 bottles of wine every 2 nights. II have a beautiful 3 year old DS who deserves better and a wonderful DP who has just finished university. We are starting up a business and I feel like my life is at a big cross roads. Either change and be the best mother/partner/person I can be, Or continue this horrible existence and be dead before I've actually lived my life, or be horribly alone.

I'm typing this with a big smile on my face and hope in my heart. I know this will be the hardest thing I've ever had to do but I've been really inspired by you guys and for once in my life believe I can do this!

Thanks

(sorry for just jumping in there!) Just had to get it all out!

Raises eyebrow The U actually looks better! How odd. :o

Sqee how exciting, you sound so positive.
I am now on day 12 and it's gradually becoming normal not to drink. Stay positive and keep posting. If you're anything like me, get the sweets in!!

thurso - I know what you mean. What if's and all that. It's natural to feel the way you do. You're just looking out for him xx

sqee - GO YOU!!!!! xx

I LOVE this thread! And all you luvverly ladies.

Well, Day 10 nearly over - got loads done round the house and even measured up for some glass I need for the bathroom and to replace the manky old fanlight. Oh and sorted the shower curtain and bought some flowers for pots. I am a bit at myself.

But it doesn't end there - visited me old Ma with whom I have has a difficult relationship down the years - and took her to the garden centre. We had a great time.

Drinking - I'd have wasted my day off with one mega hangover and done only the bare essentials.

Almost like all this stuff was squished down under the alcohol - and I just felt guilty and horrible, not just about the drinking, but that my life and my surroundings were getting in a bit of a mess.

Good to take my power back, it really is.

Sorry if this sounds like crowing - it really isn't - as I said upthread, if I can, anyone can - I was drinking 15 to 20 units a night, I reckon for the last 6 months....

Oh and squee well done!!!! Welcome aboard!

Yay 4c4 Crow away!! Get your bloody rooster outfit on because you deserve it! Cocka doodle doo to you! Well done!

On day three again here after my leap off . Welcome sqee. have had a traumatic day dealing with mother and her 'issues' Felt like screaming, drinking and screaming some more..but took deep breaths and did twenty lengths in the pool instead. Go Me

Corrie - WOW!!! That's great going because I for one am the first to fall when under pressure, like I am now. I admire you, keep posting sweets xx

4c4 - well done you. It's amazing what you can do when you invest your time in not drinking. I have lost years of my life drinking and yet, even now, I still drink to blur the edges.

Oh woe is me indeed!

We have an emergency SALT appointment on Wednesday so hopefully, I will have some solutions for how best to deal with Nemo's outbursts.

I am tired and battered and bruised through being hit all day by a 2 year old boy who doesn't understand, can't tell me what he wants, has no way to communicate and who feels constantly ill due to his reflux.

Stop the world, I want to get off.

I can't stop the world,

But I can tell you that you are very brave and give you a big (((((Hug)))))

Sqee - that was an amazing hug. Thank you xx

I'm going to sign off. Nemo has finally gone into a deep sleep so I'm going to try and get him into bed and spend some time with DH.

Sorry for being a moany arse, I just need to get it out IYSWIM.

Thanks Babes, for being here, you are all fab xxxx

See you tomorrow.

mouse what you decribe is hard enough with any frustrated 2-year old, for you and nemo it's extra tough. You deal with so much, your own personal history, your simultaneous joy and frustration with nemo, your pain... But please, little mouseface, I ask even one thing more from you... please, please pull back on your drinking.

I know, I really, really know that it dulls the edges of acute pain, but it also builds up more chronic heartache. When you started on this journey, you were doing it for you, and you were doing it for nemo. In the midst of this horrible and difficult time, please do not lose sight of that. You are such an amazing woman mouse, and I know that you don't want to slip back down your previous route. Is there anything else that dulls the edges of pain for you? what about laughter, what about good sex, what about 5 minutes sitting in the garden with the sun on your face?

Return to the old process, take it one hour at a time, one day at a time. Have warm bath when you feel stressed, cry when you need to. But don't let booze ruin a single moment of it for you. Please.

4c4 I love your phrase about taking back your power. Go girl!

reading your comments and seeing how much you draw strength from each other is quite humbling actually. I am really pleased I am here. terrible essay done. day two? no chance, not after ten hours of writing. three beers. if only i could do that every day then i wouldnt have a problem would i! night all. cup of tea.bed

Mouse, I am hoping today finds you (and Nemo) rested and happier. You have done amazingly well with your drinking and are an inspiration to me.
Me? Some of the usual despair and anxiety from yesterday's hangover has lifted.
Day 2 here we come!
Today I'm going to not drink.

My husband is out tonight. thats when i always get pissed. dreading it. wish me luck

mich, I am wishing you all the luck I have. Don't worry about it yet. Try and just live minute to minute and try and keep your mind occupied.
I totally understand how you feel and I'm with you.

Day 3 here - the first day 3 in a long time. Mich my DH is out tonight too so this will be a trigger for me to "relax" and drink.
Thurso in answer to your earlier post, my timbers haven't been shivered, my swash unbuckled or even a jolly good roger(ing) but maybe one day
I ran 5K last night all by my very own self.
Mouse my furry little friend, how are you today?