The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Spring Into Summer.

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Hello

Welcome to The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

This is a quest full of Babes, all fighting to remain sober, cut down or are somewhere in between right now.

You ticket to travel is free, it won't expire, and the Bus will always be here, even if there are days when you are not. So come say hi.

I'm Mouse. I have a thing for cheese and vodka, not together, well, not always!

Here is a LINK to the last thread, where you can read all of the previous threads and the journeys so far.

Hi Sqee, no rush to tell your story. I haven't told mine as such but get a lot from being on board!

Hey Mitch and sqee - welcome
No run today, will do one tomorrow after work. Going to bed.
Hope you are all ok

Aww honey ((((big hug))))

There is alot of info there so one thing at a time, What are you feeling upset with right now? At this moment?

Indie, have a hug from me.
Day one (again) for me...sigh.

indie, no judging here. distructive families make it so much harder. protect yourself first indie. Other people can often give really shit advice cant they. be strong. day two for me. lucil, come with me on my journey. i need company. today, I am gonna get this essay done, and handed in. 3500 words to do. I can do this. I am not drinking today. I refuse to give in to the stuff. I can do it.

Isindie People who insist you try to build a relationship with such toxic people as your parents sound do not deserve any headspace whatsoever and are certainly not worth drinking over, although I do understand that emotional pain can feel almost unbearable. I hope you are OK this morning, Is sending warm thoughts.

They sound horrific :(. My mother was the same to me with all my three children. Each time i got pregnant, she said 'well, you might miscarry...'. She even offered money for private terminations with the first two. I never knew why really, just plain nasty. Now of course, the children are wonderful and I'm a useless mother... Drinking is an easy way out, we all know that, and no way will I ever judge anyone for that. Hope you feel better today.. x

mich, I'm with you.
Today we won't be drinking.

Mich Good luck with that essay!

Day 10 for me today and I am beginning to remember what 'normal' - ie non-drinking life is like - that is, before I began again on holiday last June.

I have saved £80 to £100 now.

Yesterday I was up early again with the dogs, came back, had a loooong snooze, then cleared out a couple of cupboards and early to bed. Today I have a few jobs to do and a visit to my parents this afternoon.

It CAN be done. I know it's early days again for me, but if I can get even this far, anyone can - I was getting home from work and drinking 2 bottles of wine a night or equivalent, alone, for months and months. Throwing up in the early morning. Getting blackouts and scary palpitations. No proper rest. Terrible nausea and headaches. Then getting up and going to work every day as if nothing had happened.

Isinde, no judgement from here, but I'm sure as hell judging your family. I hope that's alright.

Two day conference this weekend, including Gala Dinner. Utterly dire. The rest of the crowd gave the comedian a standing ovation for a set that included a slant-eyed impression of a Japanese pilot, impressions of Robert DeNiro in Taxi Driver and jokes about marrying a Chinese girl ("my family was throwing rice, hers was picking it up again"). I rang my husband from outside the room and asked if I was the odd one out, and he said he thought one had to be drunk to enjoy these things. I'm fairly sure I wouldn't have enjoyed that drunk or sober, but at least I wasn't hungover in the mornings.

Morning Babes, and Boybabe, did you have a good holiday MIFLAW?

Hello to Sqee and Mich, welcome, lots of good advice, help and support on here.

Lots of thought provoking and honest posts on here, over the weekend, I am so thankful, and grateful to be a part of this community of wonderful people, you have all helped me, to help myself, in so many ways, and more than you will ever know.

Isinde, my lovely sweetheart, I hope you don't feel too hungover this morning, but, I bet you do, because you haven't done that sort of drinking for a while. Lots of water, carbs, protein and berocca, before you even start to think about last night, please darling. Please, please don't go over and over berating yourself for drinking last night, we've all done it.
Read Venuss brilliant post (Thankyou Venus, it was awe inspiring, what a fantastic analogy) from yesterday, what you did was to find yourself on the well worn track, and then you didn't have to think about it anymore.
I can understand that you feel angry, hurt and resentful, in fact I should think that's an understatement, and I wouldn't presume to give you advice on your family. Only you know how you feel about them, and whether you can forgive them for what they have said, and done in the past (not sure I could, to be honest), and only you know whether you can trust them to make a proper and loving relationship with DP and your daughters. I hope that they can do the right thing, for their sake, they will lose so much if they don't. When I look at my DC's with my parents, it is just the most wonderful and precious thing. Crikey, I hope this comes across in the right way Isinde, and not "Auntie patronising good advice". It's just that you have been such a voice of friendship to all on here, I hate to think of you so down. xxxx

Right, I'm going to take myself off and make a cup of tea now, and worry until Inde says she's ok
xxxx

oops, x posted 4C4, lovecorrie, luci and tortoise. I let my mouth run on .
luci day 1 is good. New day, new start.
tortoise I'm horrified by that comedian?. Well done on a sober conference.

Indie huge hugs and a couple of paracetamol. Drink lots of water my friend. Having a destructive father, I understand. yesterday is done now, Day 1 for you again young lady. Day 2 here for me . First Day 2 in a long while, keep me company.
mich and lucil - well done girls, keep at it.
4C 10 days is excellent. I'm impressed.
Thurso how are you doing? How is DH?
Everyone else - hi, here's to a good day!

IsinDe - you know my thoughts on your family and the way they have, and continue to treat you all.

And you know that you owe themm NOTHING. They are the ones who decided you were the scum of the earth because you 'didn't conform' to their ideas of 'normal' FFS .

They are the ones who distanced themsleves from YOU, not the other way around. Don't give them the time of day. Seriously sweets. I know it hurts you, so very much but I honesty think they are doing this to punish you. In a really sick and twisted way.

I'm so so sorry that you are having to deal with this and I can feeljust how much this is cutting you and DP up just by reading your posts.

We all love you lots. And we want you just the way that you are lovely, never forget that xxxxx

You! Sit there and behave!

Morning Babes

for Ma for Day 2!

Welcome Squee and Mich

Venus - wonderful, wonderful post about the tracks. Made perfect sense. My "track" has always grown over a bit when I was pregnant (sounds gynaecological, but I mean metaphorically) and yet each time after baby is born I've very quickly found myself back there.

Have been reading over weekend but didn't have time to post. Rose, thank you for posting what you did yesterday - I know you didn't post it for anyone else, but it gave me at least the jolt I needed.

Isinde not sensible, no, but no wonder you feel hurt and angry. What utterly poisonous things for your parents to have said. Having mentally composed more reply, I find that Thurso has already said it all above...

Waves to everyone else

x-posted

.I take bac0k the , ma, you're scaring me now! (sorry, baby basking keyboard_)

Indie That's better!!
Man, I could used to these jackboots.

eek! hastily changes back into jeans and meek and mild mode!
I have led a very sheltered life you know......