The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Giving Up Booze For Lent.

[Mouseface]

Hello.

I'm Mouse.

We are a Bus load of posters with various relationships with the demon booze. Some are sober, some are not and some are inbetween.

So come say hi and meet the rest of The Babes, there's always plenty of room on the Bus, the doors are ALWAYS open.

No judgy pants are worn on this journey, pants yes and even the odd Tena Lady but always of the non judging variety.

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have a nice time mouse!, stick rigidly to the plan though, you dont want to be a drunken old bag in front of someone new!, they might think you are a bit of a lush!

got some great news today, our local womens aid centre want to give us space for our meeting - i think it will be run along the lines of a meeting for women with any addiction, be it an eating disorder, self-harming etc, not just alcohol - it is now 10 months since i stopped drinking! , if you had told me that i would still be sober back then, let alone be part of the process of setting up this meeting i would have laughed out loud (a dry humourless laugh! ) - god!!, i feel like 'me' again!, i have honestly lost that helpless feeling, the feeling that i was worthless and useless - i have my drive and ambition back, my sense of self worth and self esteem, i look better, behave better, perform better (i still drive too fast and get impatient and i have never suffered a fool gladly! ) its lovely to be here!

THANK YOU!!

Me? A drunken old lush? Less of the old ya cheeky bugger!

Congratulations Jesus

You are a bloody star you know that, right? 10 months ago your life as you new it stopped and you started to kick it's ass. You told it to fuck the fuck off and took back your family, your own self worth, but never forgetting that you were always close to fucking up at any point. you took nothing for granted.

And that makes you real.

So real that most of us here hurt inside for you when we read your first thread.

I heart YOU JWN, you rock lady xx

Thank YOU JWN for starting this process for us all.

I know exactly what you mean, to quote the advert, I am like me, but on a good day, nearly all the time.

I have given up the booze for a few weeks at a time before, but I think because I always knew I was going to go back to drinking again I just didn't get the benefit I have now. it feels so good to be free of the guilt and feeling of worthlessness I used to have.
Thank you Babes!
Have fun tonight Mouseface you really deserve a great night out.

You have done an amazing thing JWN in the last 10 months in starting this thread, not just for yourself but for lots of others too.

Enjoy tonight Mouse, sounds to me as though youare becoming someone who is happy to have just one or two and leave it at that. Well done.

hey mouse, have a good time.
I went out for a run tonight after work with a super fit colleague who spurred me on. i managed to run for EIGHT whole minutes, then walk a bit, then run for another EIGHT whole minutes then walk, then run for FOUR!!
i know it doesn't sound much to some, but for this fat, middle-aged out-of-condition bird, it was a big step forward.
i am officially CHUFFED.

Hope you have a good night, Mouse.

Ditto the others, JWN

Ma - sounds like a whole lot to me, well done! I couldn't run the length of myself GOYCRWMQCP

Oh dear - that last little bit was supposed to be a blushing face! Don't know what happened there...

Hope you had a fun evening Mouse.

Ma - more than I could manage - fantastic. I think you may be contemplating the Race for Life? DD did it last year and we went as support - it was a really uplifting event.

JWN - Thank you from me too. Finding this thread last summer was just what I needed having given up but often struggling. The tips and suggestions have been lifesavers and marriage and family too. And the humour and wit has been a real tonic - that's without the 'G'.

JWIM yes doing the Race for Life again for my dear friend Elisabeth Blosseville, now fighting breast cancer for the SECOND time!! Tell that fucker to fuck the fuck off!
This will be the 4th time - last year was the first time I ran the whole distance. As well as supporting Elisabeth, it was a very personal challenge for me to prove to myself that I was not washed-up, useless, a pisshead, a nobody, a wife and mother and drudge......I challenged myself to be someone and I did it, and I will do it again!!
i could post a link to our fundraising page but don't know if that's allowed??

Ma you are a strong woman and clearly a great friend. I hope your friend recovers from this second cancer.

DD ran in memory of her Godmother - died the year before - she was 9 days younger than me.

Good luck with the fundraising.

blimey ma!, eight whole minutes! - i couldnt run for bus! let us know how you get on on the day? , very best wishes for your friend too!, its a bloody bastard isnt it? - fwiw, my neighbour has just finished treatment for a second bout of it, although she has been very ill, she has been told she is clear atm, something that wouldnt have happenend a few years ago!

im off to bed - just think about running for eight minutes has nearly killed me!

JWIM I am sorry for your loss.
I am not a strong woman. If I was I wouldn't be on this bloody bus, and drinking tonight!!
But I will run this bloody race whatever it takes for elisabeth, for me, for women everywhere.

Thanks Ma. She was a great person - always saw the best in people.

You are on this bus though Ma and that is a good place to be.

Off to bed now. Wishing the sleep deprived a little more rest tonight.

Morning babes,

Isindie I remember it so well! I truly feel for you, no sleep meant that I used to go through the day, in a sort of fog, I didn't drink at all in those days either!

JWN 10 MONTHS . I thank you from the bottom of my heart for starting this thread of friends [kiss icon].

Mouse I hope you had a good time last night, I bet it felt quite strange to just be "you" for the evening.

Ma so true...things did improve for about 24 hours a while. I shall draw a line under won't bore you with details of Monday night, suffice to say that I felt dreadful yesterday (not at work), and there are other ways to deal with stress and miserableness!

Last night I did the ironing, read some of "Great Expectations", had a long bath, and in bed by 10, so quite perky this morning.

Best love
Speak when I get back from work.
xxx

BOING!
thats me!

am off out for meetings today, have good days everyone!

i bloody luv yers!

Thurso have a hug...((Thurso))
Glad you are feeling brighter today - just try and keep carving out sanity me time, and keep telling him how YOU feel. Not that it will make much of a difference but at least you will have tried
PM me if you need to chat
indie will do. Hope you can stay awake today.
mouse how was your night out?

Morning Babes.

Thank you all, I had a fab night out. 2 glasses and about 2 pints of water two!!

JWIM - sorry to hear your news. I think we all know someone who has lost their fight with cancer, some more than one person too. xx

thurso - it was odd. Nice to just be Mouse and not mum, carer, wife for a few hours.

IsinDe - nope, no sleep here even though it was my night off. Nemo's cold is worse so his breathing is shocking.

Ma - go you!!! Race For Life is a fantastic cause. Ask MNHQ about linking to the fundraising page.

JWM - I told my new friends about you last night. And this thread. Not in any detail (names or anything) just 'how much of an inspriation this lady is that I know' kinda thing. You have changed so many lives.

Just by being yourself and being honestly, raw and caring. Never forget that. xx

Right, today I will mostly be fishing cars out from down the back of the sofa. Clearly Nemo's cold is not stopping him from doing that!

Bloody raining here so we're stuck in. DH needs the car.

mmmmm, hot buttered toasted tea cakes........yes please!

Morning all

Have dithered about whether to post this, but am going to, and keep a copy for myself for times when I'm wobbling.

Day 5 here, and I have a real feeling of peace about this which I hope will last a long time. I'm not making any grandiose declarations about "never again", but just concentrating on the positives of going one day at a time without a drink.

I can't stop thinking about all the time I've wasted. The circumstances of my life are such that the real making-a-total-tit-of-myself in public episodes are a while ago now, but I've spent way too many evenings sodden on the sofa, not getting on with stuff or interacting with my lovely DH, and way too many days feeling tired, grumpy, guilty - reaching for the paracetamol before I've even got up, swearing "never again" and then planning my next drink by lunchtime. It makes me so sad that my memories of so many special occasions and seasons of my life are tainted.

I DON'T WANT TO LIVE LIKE THAT ANY MORE!

Just at the moment, I can see really clearly that I'm only running at about 50%, and how much better both I and my life would be completely alcohol-free, even though things aren't that bad at the minute.

Sorry for grandstanding

ps - teacakes and about 24 hours' sleep would be marvellous, ta.

Trist - it's lovely to read how much better you are feeling.

Morning all
I am home, and can actually sleep in my own bed for the next few nights - yay

Just been and given blood, and am now sitting waiting to get my toenails pedicured! I deserve it!! I realise how much I used to spend on hair and beauty stuff, and am not going to feel guilty about an infrequent treat for me! Saying that - I am getting my hair done on Monday too.

Absolutely knackered, but glad that I have managed to get through the last few weeks without succumbing - even when is was REALLY FUCKING HARD. But it's done - I even have a liitle AA 4 month medallion .

Hope u r all well, shall read what e etyone has been upto tonight with a nice cuppa tea.

Bafana
Xxxx

its not grandstanding trist! - its nice to hear you! - just do it one day at a time!, dont over think it, dont keep thinking too negativly about the past, its YOUR time now! time to take back what you were losing and start enyoying life again!

back to work now!