The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Into Spring - BOING!!

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So, this is The Brave Babes Battle Bus.

All are welcome, regardless of your background, stage of sobriety, or anything else.

I'm Mouse and have been here since June 2010, and in control of my drinking since August 2nd 2010.

You will find unconditional support here. Always.

Whatever you feel about drinking (or not), we've been in your shoes. Some more than once.

So, come say hi, come grab a seat. There is always an open door and a warm welcome on this Bus.

at Indie. No, it's my elbow and my gob that need to be out of action! I know!

at you two.

Ma - fab to see you again. Can I suggest a straight jacket to help you in your quest to stop your elbows helping your arms to bend when lifting that first drink?

How are things generally?

mouse you know though how innovative we alkies can be - we can open wine bottles without a corkscrew, we can drink through a straw or lap up booze from a saucer

So nice to see lots of activity on here - I was wondering if everyone had disappeared. I also think that if people stop posting because they've had a drink, or because they've got nothing 'wise' to say, then there's less for other posters to respond to..... and it all goes quiet...

So my contribution for this evening - dp left to go and see a friend, and my immediate thought was that I could down a bottle of wine and hide the evidence and be in bed before he came home. Luckily the thought lasted less than a few minutes, but as they say - old habits die hard.

you lot are a bunch of loons you know!!
Wonderful, lovable loons!

Had a really lovely meeting tonight, was in an anteroom at on of the Church's in town. The choir were practising and it was a really lovely peaceful meeting. Oh - and the biscuits were good (actually there were mini chocolate muffins - yum)

thurso would love to see you in my neck of the woods. Hope they get word soon - and obviously they hear the right word!

DD is feeling better - ie well enough to irritate DS, so shall be shipped off to school tomorrow, I managed to get far more done this afternoon than I ever would have achieved at work.

So a good positive day here, a good day on the bus too - lots of people are sounding like progress is being made against our joint nemesis.

Love to all and I hope all small children give their parents peaceful nights, and you are all safe.
Night
Bafana

Hello lovely ladies

It's great to see everyone back and sounding positive - has been very quiet recently! I miss reading these very entertaining conversations!

I'm on day 18 now (wtf? how did that happen?!) and feeling much much better in myself and with myself. Temptation has come my way and I have resisted, and the little wobbles are becoming less and less frequent. For the last few days I haven't really had to apply my mind to NOT drinking, it just hasn't even occurred to me to do it. I know that my issues are a lot less serious than some people's on here, and I don't want to sound complacent. But not drinking seems to be a lot easier than moderating, because you don't even have to apply your mind to worrying about how many units you've had this evening, or over the course of the week. I guess I've been worrying, and feeling guilty, about my drinking for a long long time, and abstinence is definitely lightening the load!

Hope you've all had great evenings - and, again, welcome back to those who've returned with their tails between their legs!!

E xx

indie sorry to say - you are top of the loon list .

ellie glad that you are doing so well, we were talking about this tonight. For me, it was about surrendering to the problem, admitting it was a problem, admitting that I could not control it no matter how hard I tried, and OMG - I tried everything, and it consumed and controlled me. I constantly constantly thought about drinking, not drinking, drinking a little bit, drinking alot.

It was the first thing that I thought of in the morning, and the last thing I thought of at night - even when I was not actively drinking.

I tried moderating, stopping, drinking as much as I wanted, and every single scenario continued to make me miserable.

So I surrendered. I walked away. I stopped fighting the fight. I asked for help.
And in the main, the desire to drink has left me. It still rears its ugly head on occasion, and I am incredibly careful when I have to place myself in harms way (like alot of people here, generally when I am travelling for work), but I am very very blessed that I do not have the desire on an hourly/daily basis.

Whatever you do - do not become complacent, that is a dangerous place to be, and you drinking was serious enough to you - for you to come here, don't diminish what you have acheived - 18 days is bloody fantastic!!! Well done. It does not matter whether you drank 1 glass of wine or 12 glasses, it was a problem for you and you are overcoming it ODAAT.
Keep going - it's truly fantastic!!

Ah thanks Bafana. I'm definitely not complacent, I promise. I might not be an alcoholic according to my GP, but having had alcohol-induced psychosis on more than one occasion I am deeply aware of how dangerous my drinking can be. And I know it's all about ODAAT. I think I just worry (ridiculously and unnecessarily I know...) that some of my fellow bus travellers might think that I'm just finding it all too (irritatingly) easy, particularly as this is the first time I've ever attempted to abstain. But it's not easy, just easier than I thought it would be, having tried oh-so-unsuccessfully to moderate the booze. I guess I have far fewer external stresses than lots of people, so I am able to put myself and my mental and physical health first at the moment. And I'm getting a lot of support from my husband.

Also I don't think I'd have got this far if I haven't found this thread

Oh dear, I'm even annoying myself by being so me-me-me...

Glad you enjoyed your chocolate mini-muffins!

Off for a nice non-alcohol-induced sleep now...

E xx

Good Morning Babes and Miflaw

It's murky here, and was blowing a gale during the night, and I was very wakeful.

Ellie Congratulations, you are doing so well. Please don't think you are being me-me-me. It helps me a lot (selfish, I know) to read about everyone's success or otherwise, so many things, that so many people say, I could have said myself, whether they are drinking, or not, and it's comforting to know that I'm not the only one with all these thoughts.

One post that did strike me almost like a physical blow yesterday, was Miflaw saying about showing someone, and only hurting himself. My G, the times that I have thought " right then , I'll show you" and got out the wine. And yes, the only person it punished was me.

I hope all you lovelies had a good night sleep.

Indie keep up the good work, maybe we can do this together, for a while? I hope babe 1 is not too poorly, and that babe 2 slept.

Ma how are you and DH?

Mouse How's the house?

Noteven I've thought about you a lot. I hope someone is looking after you, and that you are getting the help you need. You have been so strong. You can conquer this, I'm sure. Sending love.

Ok, not going to re-read this, deep breath....

BOING!!! - yep!, im irritatingly boingy this morning - SO much is going on, so many balls are in teh air, that i feel almost delirious - a couple of good things, business wise, have happenend, dont want to say too much in case i put the mockers on it! - im networking like a frantic thing, its something i enjoy but right now i could do with a couple of days off - hey ho!, sigh, have to go to the dorchester for lunch, its a tough old life but someone has to do it! , i used to think, 'thank fuck its friday', now i just think 'thank fuck im sober'!, i couldnt have kept up the momentum and drunk like i did, i honestly think i would have killed myself with it.

btw, well done for not re-reading thurso!!

Morning everyone, day 3 for me today and I will not be drinking !

Goodness me I turn my back for a few hours and the bus is full again. Yeah. Glad to see people posting again.

Congrats Ellie you have done realy well.

I often worry that people on here and in RL like me so I can relate to what you said last night Thurso. I do think at times that I am too much of a people pleaser.

Hi Indie - glad to hear your OK after your blip.

Silver good to see you

Things are going really well for me and new guy - he is lovely. I am still managing to drink moderately and not every night

Morning Babes (including MIFLAW, he's a babe )

Ellie - WELL DONE YOU!!!! That's a huge achievement, you should be very proud of just how far you have come.

And never think you are all 'me, me, me'. That's not how the bus works, we are all important, as are our individual journeys.

bafana - reading your post about that meeting made me feel all calm and peaceful. I have moments of clarity at times like that and feel very pure within my soul......

JWN - I'm sure you are doing just grand! Keeping the wheels in motion and doing it sober day after day must feel wonderful. Knowing that YOU did that, YOU are in control. Go on girl!

thurso - hmm, the house? What the house that has more holes in it that a sieve?

Oh God, I don't know where to start with it all. There are holes in the all of the ceilings and walls upstairs, lights broken, floors ruined etc. But at least the house won't burn down now.

We've yet to have the downstairs re-wired but the guy said it'll be far worse so I need to find somewhere for Nemo and I for four days, Premier Inn here we come!

Nemo is full of a cold too so last night was sleepless here. Because of his cleft, he struggles to breathe, his nose and mouth get blocked so I have to make sure he's in a good position for his airway..... meaning being on breathing watch.

Other than that, life is good here and let's be fair, there are people far worse off than me right now.

Thanks Isindie, have been drinking way too much lately so definitely time to stop and give my body and mind a rest!

If he naps today, I'll have to be with him to check he can breathe IsinDe. So not really but DH may swap a night with me depending on his workload.

Hey Mouse:)

Eh up desire, how are you? Missed you on the bus of late. How's life? x

Still very much a non-life Mouse, eat too much, drink too much (well not anymore!), smoke too much, seem to spend all my days either working or at home or in my mothers.

Ooops . . have I killed the thread??

Sorry, no. Nemo needed me.

Have you packed the dieting in then desire? I'm with MIFLAW on dealing with things in the order that they will kill you.

Not a quote, just paraphrasing.

Pass no heed Mouse, just feeling bit sorry for myself at minute

Morning all,

Glad to see everyone is feeling chipper this morning.

Sun is shining here, isn't it amazing how a wee bit of sun can make everything seem so much fresher and brighter.

At work, and trying to get things done , there is alot to be said for homeworking and getting things done!

Have a great day BB's
Bafana