When did I become the pantomime ogre? Perhaps I will change my name to MIFLAO.
Am really pleased to hear that no one who picked up a drink over the weekend has died or even been hospitalised or incarcerated (although I suppose if anyone had died they wouldn't be posting about it ...) My experience, like yours, is that, however long you go without a drink, it is never better when you finally have one (I say this as someone whos penultimate and last drinks were 6 months apart.)
If anyone wants my advice (and it is by no means certain that they do, of course) then it would be, PLEASE give up on the myth of self-control. I have been told off before on here for being, shall we say, a bit too blunt ... But surely we can agree that the very fact that someone has a drink problem means that, where drink is concerned, they are not seeing straight? Yet, like when we drive a car under the influence (if you haven't yet, don't worry, you probably will one day) we convince ourselves that, if we squint, we really ARE going in a straight line, so we kid ourselves that, just because our problem with drink LOOKS like our problem with eating too many Smarties, we can and should control it in the same way.
I'm afraid it doesn't work like that. If you have a drink problem, the same mental blank that keeps you making the same mistake is going to scupper most attempts at moderation. The same thing is going to keep happening and every time it is going to hurt - and yet that hurt is not, in itself, going to keep you from doing it again, any more than the pain of childbirth stops women form having a second or a third.
Who feels like joining me in a day of pleasurable, carefree abstinence? Just for today - if you prefer being miserable, you can choose again tomorrow.
Those of you who would rather stab me, please can you wait till I'm wearing a thicker coat?
Incidentally, there are now people who have met me in the flesh. I wonder if I am as scary in person as I am on here?
Hope everyone has a good day.