The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Past the Valentine's Wining and Dining

[notevenamousie]

Following on from jesuswhatnext and her original very successful thread and all the many others here , this is the Brave Babes Battle Bus, sharing struggles, thoughts, experience, strength and hope concerning life but more specifically our relationship with, and our journey through, cutting down or cutting out alcohol.

There is no judging or nastiness, just support for whatever works, and if we fall out of the bus we are always welcomed back on when we are ready with open arms and listening ears.

I'm notevenamousie and I'm an alcoholic. I abused and was dependent on alcohol for months if not even a couple of years. I feel a hundred times better physically, emotionally, spiritually, since giving in the fight with alcohol, admitting I had lost, and walking away, but it's very much one day at a time.

If you are a long time lurker, why not make this thread the one you jump in and say hello!

At this minute, I'm good

I can't believe I woke up this morning and thanked God that I didn't have to drink tonight who was making me??!!

I have roast pork and mediterranean veggies in the oven, huge pot of veg ready to go, and looking forward to taking DC2 to a uni open day tomorrow.

The rest I will sort out and/or cope with, but not in the way I started to in the last few weeks. Writing this, I think it has taken the big crash of the last couple of days to make me fully realise how I want to be.

I am so much the coping and capable one in RL, work colleagues would be staggered if they knew how I felt. The sensible, she's ok, daughter to my parents, because they worry about my sister. And the one holding us together as a family when DH is low. The one people tell their troubles to because I can "cope".

Bet you wish you hadn't asked

But right at this very moment, fab, and all the better for hearing from you

Keep going xx

You have not in any way let Nemo down. You are a wonderful mother, and spend your life doing your absolute best for him. Never, never think that.

Sounds like you and DH are working very hard, probably DH is not sleeping because he's got so much on. Horrible when you feel exhausted but just can't sleep.

Big hugs. xx

X posted

I've X posted with just about everyone to day

Thank you thurso. I can't help feel that I'm not healing him enough. Giving him feathers for his wings and succuring them for when he's ready to fly IYSWIM?

Anyway, time for PJs and a feed for said little chap.

Be back later xx

Sorry - typos, tired now......

Hugs to Mouse and to Nemo

night night my lovley babes - totally exhuasted here - thank god im sober, i could never have coped with all this drunk.

take care all!

L XXXXXXXXXX

night night here too. Day 5 completed - are you still with me Indie, comrade-in-arms?

Night, night all, wishing you all peaceful ones.

xxxx

Evening all,
Crazy day. I am not learning how to deal with these emotions very well though I have just had a good cry. I feel quite bleak and unsure - but only a 3 day week this week which is a big relief.
Hopefully going to see my mum this weekend, after the surgeons have made their minds up what, if anything, to do.
Didn't get much to eat or drink all day, clinic overran so I missed bedtime, then to meeting, lots of guilt about it all, I believe AA will work for me if I work it but I am feeling very lost today. I didn't drink though, some days I guess that's all I can do.
Sorry not to reply individually, I really have to go to bed.

Indie ma keep going comrades in arms!
thurso that inner resolve will keep you going.
noteven just getting through the day sober is enough, don't overreach, ODAAT, anything you don't achieve today, you will achieve tomorrow, just focus on the sobriety.
mouse you are an amazing mum, and nemo is so lucky to have you, you have given him the best gift ever - a sober focussed mum.
JWN how the hell did I achieve anything before I got sober? A question I constantly ask myself.
ruby hope everything is going well with you.

mifl and venus I love your wise words and support.

Just been to an amazing meeting, with an awesome share. So much recognition in it of my own drinking, and the realisation of how much better life is without it.

Love to all and peaceful night, please let all babies sleep peacefully tonight and let mums and dads get some well deserved rest.

XXX

and qo when you read this in the morning - you have reached day 7 - 1 whole week - well done you clever girl!!

Hang in there Noteven, first week back at work on top of everything else will be tough. Today is another day of not drinking. I think you are doing really well.

I got as far as opening som ewine tonight but put it back in the fridge and had a non alcoholic beer instead.

Saw date guy briefly tonight and I think I really like him. Had been a bit unsure as I superficially wasn't 'oh I fancy you' when I have seen him but had a bit of a kiss cuddle tonight and got butterflies.

Hope everyone else is OK. Indie and Ma well done

Sleep well my fellow travellers, dream woderful dreams, and wake refreshed and content in the morning.

I think I might need some help but I am not sure how to start

Hello moments, do you want to tell us anything about yourself? You can say as much or as little as you like. Are you worried about how much you drink? Have you tried cutting down and found it difficult?

Whatever you want to say, I think you'll find a friendly answer here, and lots of help ad encouragement if you want to make changes.

HI moments how are you this evening, how are you feeling

Good morning everyone ,

I was awake really early thhis morning, but thought of Milflaw "lack of sleep won't kill you", and luxuriated in waking up happy that I didn't drink last night.

I'm very sorry noteven that you are feeling a bit down. Just try to remember how far you have travelled, in such a short space of time. You are barely recognisable from the lady who first posted on here. You are so much stronger, and more positive. You should be proud. And you are going through a lot at the moment

Now Mouseface, my own sweetheart, it was you that I worrying about at 5 this morning! I am concerned that you feel more upset than you are letting on, about Nemo being referred. You are so kind, caring, positive, and many other good things, to and for, everyone else, but I wonder if you are kind enough to yourself? You are on call emotionally, and physically 24 hrs a day, and you really couldn't do any more. You have the right medical help for Nemo, you are completely "on his case", and you are with him all the time. You cannot blame yourself for anything. I didn't like to pm you, in case I sounded a bit stalkerish , but I hope you don't mind me writing to you on here. We love you, matey, look after yourself. [kiss icon]

Right, off to Bath, I go, for the open day, wish the weather was a bit better.

Have good days babes xxx

Morning everyone.
Quick check in, hope everyone is ok, and hope you have good days.
Mum needs surgery tomorrow so may be a bit absent for a few days as going to head down south but might take computer for my own sanity! Work today so headed to the shower.
Thank you all for your lovely support - Indie I have been told for years about water and cereal bars and one of these days I'll get round to actually doing it rather than passively going along with the NBM type culture that exists!

noteven don't forget to look after yourself while you are away. And remeber that wherever you are there's probably an AA meeting not too far away.

thurso have a good day in Bath - lovely place. Enjoy speding the travel time with ds.

Morning all

Thanks for the little message bafana what a difference a week makes eh?

Sorry to hear that a few of you babes are going through a hard time :(

I don't feel qualified to offer any advise or pearls of wisdom, as A) I don't know anybody well enough yet and B) I'm crap at it!!

Thankfully there are lots of people here who can help, and one thing I will say is that just seeing you continue to post on this thread shows strength, keep talking :)