The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Carry On Into 2011!

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Hello and a Happy New Year!

I'm Mouse, one of the passengers on this wonderful journey to sobriety!

We are a real mixed bunch of people, all trying to control or give up the booze - ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Come meet the others.........

And here are the previous threads, the journeys so far

He made fairy cakes for his DD's the other day so seemed like a good nickname at the time

Noteven, if you feel your job is at risk because of your drinking, then I think it would be advisable to get your doctor to sign you off sick.

noteven - sorry to see that you are struggling.

I think your GP may be your best move next, get signed off work, take some time out and get to as many meetings as you can.

Keep busy too.

Noteven An employee self certifies herself for the first 5 working days but probably be beneficial to speak to your GP.

Also find out if there is an alcohol support policy at your organisation.

Good name Zany let's hope he makes you some fairycakes when you get to meet him. I think you will have to accept his reason for not seeing you as genuine. There are some nice men out there

How disappointing - I thought "making fairycakes" was a euphemism for somethign else.
I am feeling more chipper today becuase DH and DS are away doing a male bonding thing until Sunday. BLISS!! Bed to myself, not bloody sodding football on all weekend - oh yeah!
do you ladies know how I can post a link that isn't a web adress or if we are allowed to? I have something I would like you to hear and it may cheer some of you up for the weekend.I can attach it to emails but thought I might post it on here for Gerald's passengers to listen to.....it's clean - just a song

Hello to everyone that I have missed this afternoon!

noteven I am really sorry that you are struggling. Just remember it's not bloody easy to reverse years of drinking and the shitty thinking that goes/ went with it. Keep on keeping on.

ma - no idea sorry!!

Hello desire, zany and ruby!

And roll on bloody 5 o'clock

Ma - explain? Is it on your PC? Not sure unless it's a web page.

Less than an hour Red!

DH has taken Nemo out. He's v niggly. I hope that he'll sleep tonight, I'm a wee bit zombified!

mouse it's always the slowest hour isn't it?! I really, really hope that you get better sleep tonight - and the rest of the weekend!

yeah, it's on my pc - maybe I can attach it to a pm to you but it would be good to put on here. Its a MP3 file if that helps....

ah red, the slow hour!! gawd i cant stand it!, im waiting for dh and i honestly think he is doing things deliberatly slowly! , the staff are well used to our bickering but im not sure they have ever seen me stick a stapler up his jacksy, which im about to do!

i have to nip to the shop and get a birthday card and some flowers for this evening, im really looking forward to it, apart from the odd coffee i havent spent a great deal of 'social' time with my aa girlfriends, its strange really, we know so much about each other, the sort of things one would only tell a very close friend (or not tell at all!) but i dont know them on a superfical level iyswim?, it will be good to have a 'normal' conversation!

Sorry Ma no idea how to get it on here or even to attach it to a PM......

Phew!

just back in! Am in time to say Helooo Red, have a wonderful weekend.

thurso thank you! You too.

Until Monday Brave Babes x

Hope you didn't harm your DH JWN bvy the way!

Hello all, just wanted to get that quick message in before Red went off.

How are you all?

Noteven I am very sorry that you are having a hard time at the moment. As everyone else has said, you have been through a lot, and sound like such such a strong, and thougtful lady, I'm sure you will come through this. Some time off would maybe give you a bit of time just to be, rather than do?

Ma you sound very chipper, but then so would I, with the prospect of the bed to myself, and no bloody boring stupid tedious cricket

Mouse Yaaay for Nemo, how exciting, now you will have to censor everything that you say in case he decides that that will be the next word he wants to repeat

I have had a good/bad day day, completely knackering...but.... I have got two reports signed off by the powers that be, one of which I was very stroppy assertive on, about what I thought was the right thing to do. Mouse

Dinner planned, chicken enchilada's, a recipe I got from an american website, and found monterey jack cheese at sainsburys which the recipe asks for.

All good, but I do very much feel like having a Friday night, very tired, no school tomorrow bottle glass of wine.

Groundhog day day !!!

Hey thurso

Glad you got those reports sorted

You sound really upbeat too.

well, ive left the bugger at work!, honest to god, he does this every fucking friday and it does my head in!, if he didnt bugger about half the day he could finish at reasonable o'clock like normal people! - im ready for my night out, im lucky that im able to be 100% certain that it will be a very 'easy to say no' evening! just as well!, i still get the 'friday night' feeling, just like you described thurso, its a sense of entitlement that i find hard to shrug off, after all, im worth it arnt i?, the thing is, i keep telling myself that my family are also 'worth it', worth my making an effort to stay sober, worth my not worrying them, worth so much more than a drunken wife and mother, so, just for the rest of today

I WILL NOT BE DRINKING!

see you all later babes!

'I've left the bugger at work'

Hi all,
You're all so good for being so supportive - I wish I could believe the things you've written - I feel like such a failure, a stupid alcoholic that endangers what is most precious in the world because I keep not saying no to that first drink.
I hope this was my rock bottom and that I never have to feel this way again.
Social services are involved again and I feel terrible, but as my wonderful sponsor said to me tonight, if this is how bad things had to get, then I just need to get through it. I may be posting lots these next couple of weeks.

Post away noteven

That's what this thread is all about. Supporting one another get through the really shit times as well as celebrating the better days.

Can I ask why SS are involved again?

I thought that was all done and dusted?

Noteven {big, big hugs} you will get there baby.

JWN star you

I am going up for a long bath, and am going to read my book at the same time

Dh now watching fucking fishing programme!!!

I want a Friday night of intimacy and no thoughts, fizzy lemon and lime, isn't doing it, but will persevere!!

Mouse yes, did feel good, but, bit of a downer now

Feeling really shit. Just logged onto crappy dating site and fairycake logged on a couple of hours ago. So he tell me his Mum has fallen and can't move her legs and then comes home from hospital to log on but not to message the person he was supposed to meet - God I am so niave to believe him. Feeling very tearful sorry for myself and very lonely. Its now the weekend and unless I torture myself by meeting XP for his birthday drinks (more tempting than being on my own AGAIN) I have no plans all weekend and will be spending most of it on my own without the DC's. Sorry for all this self pity.

Hope I don't come across as desperate for a BF as I'm not just sick of feeling lonely :-(

Why the downer thurso?

Do you mean defalted after building yourself up?

Hugs xxx