It's all about him

[BibiBlocksberg]

Can't believe I'm going to even talk about this without namechange but need to know I'm not imagining things. So, dp and I were laughing at the cat who was all snuggled into him this morning and started purring loudly when started to stroke and fuss her. Cue us laughing about how much she's enjoying being fussed.

Dp turns round to me and says 'I haven't been fussed in ages (in little boy voice) meaning sex of course.

We haven't had sex coming on for about a year now which is my fault since I have totally gone off it. Any attempts to talk about it have failed since he refuses to take on board some of the things I don't like/reasons I feel I've gone off the idea completely.

Have talked to gp 4 times now re no libido but other than swapping brands of the pill they don't know what could be causing it so am now stuck for ideas.

Anyway am just absolutely livid since it always seems to be about him him him in the bedroom. That comment earlier just made me so angry. Not 'we haven't done anything for ages, do you feel like it etc, no just He hasn't had it for ages.

All topped off with a wobbling bottom lip face and lots of sighing when i went to make a cup of coffee.

Just so tired of it all being my fault really, thanks for reading this ramble.

when he's gone, ask landlady if ok to change locks! (give her copies of keys). Don't want him drifting back. Imagine coming home one day, all happy, ready to play and dance about to "I'm not missing you at all" and similar on cd to find him sitting there, looking all pathetic. Deflating that would be.

Thanks a1b2. Fell asleep. Time to get to bed :)

sorry hope laptop didn't ping to say active and wake you up. Must go to bed.

Yes, once he's gone, get the tenancy changed and the locks changed. Or he will be on the sofa when you get home from work on a weekly basis. With flowers and whine.
And his cock in his hand.

SGB - what a picture you paint! Do not want to come home from work to be greeted by your scenario

Just helping you stay focussed Bibi

and I had to get my phone number changed too ...after repeated phone calls and left messages.

Hopefully you won't have to go this far!!

Yes, hopefully Lydwatt. I've already told him i won't tolerate 'popping' back here every 5 mins to pick up a forgotten game, DVD, etc etc.

Or coming back here to give his cock an airing as SGB predicted

How are things, Bibi?

checking in after weekend

well, bibi ??

Hope things are ok

Hi all, thanks for asking.

Captain Sorry is packing things as I type, set to go to his mothers by the end of next week.

Having a bit of a bad day really, against everything I want to say, lets try again.

Don't understand it. Sorry to even be typing that :(

Last minute collywobbles, bibi

Ignore them

If it is meant to be, and he really does love you, he will still be waiting for you in 6 months time

You would be very foolish to go back now

aww Sweetie... it isn't surprising you would have your doubts especially when you see him hurting, by now we all know that is just your nature not to want to hurt his feelings. You know yourself though that it might make him feel better but it won't make you happier. You only live once, you need to put your happiness first over his.

BE STRONG

Very difficult with him hanging around for so long as well :(

Thanks for the encouragement everyone.

'I have NEVER felt or been this calm and determined. Never had such support behind me either!!'

You said that. Please try and hold on to that calm. We are all here for you.

Ten years is a long time to be with someone but don't panic - you will have some tough days, but you have a future now. You are taking control and being enormously brave. I bet there are people reading this thread and thinking 'I wish I had Bibi's guts and determination to make a better life' and looking at their partners playing on the PS3 and dying a bit inside.

You sound like such a lovely person and I hope now that you can start to enjoy life. It isn't an endurance test, it's for living.

Lecture over...for now.

And go out lots this week. Fill yourself with Christmas cheer. And alcohol

He he he, bit much of that already nora, the festive 'cheer' I mean :)

Oh well, whatever gets me through I guess.

Yes, no more dying inside everytime the bloody playstation goes on, that's true :)

Oh bibi, can I guess what he's doing? Does he look all sad while he's packing? Does he give you the occasional sad, pathetic, reproachful look? I could be wrong.

You are doing so well. You are calm and determined.

Stay strong bibi

By yourself a tin of Quality Street, eat all the nice ones and flick the wrappers at Captain Sorry as he snivels past taking a week to pack his PS3 games.

Why is he taking so long to go?

fab...you need to ask that question ???

Oh, I know why but why isn't Bibi making him go sooner?

Well, no it's all quite normal. Just as if he was just finally sorting through all of his crap like I've been begging him to do for years.

at Quality Street.

IAmReallyFabNow - he only has his mothers to go to and there's no bed in the spare room so that has to be organised etc, etc.

People here would probably say just pack his bags but this IS his home as well and just because I've decided I don't love him anymore doesn't mean he has to make himself invisible in a heartbeat.

That's my opinion anyway as spineless as that may me

bibi...his mother said he was welcome several days ago

what exactly needs to be organised ?

a bed ?

hardly difficult, is it ?