I love babies Chairmum, I really do. Sometimes when I'm out and I see a mum having a hard time with one I really want to ask her if I can relieve her of it for a few mins but I don't ask as these days any mum would probably be daft to hand her baby over to a sranger.
Looking forward to having a hold of yours though.
Thank you so much everyone for your kind and lovely words. I feel so much better today. It comes and goes.
I have no religion but I used to love those epic Jesus films at Easter and it used to make a big impression on me when Jesus on the cross looks down (or up ?) and says 'forgive them Lord, they know not what they do' I don't know the exact words but I often think of that now and I do find it helpful.
Hope you're having a good time with Norm Starting 
. Hope he's worthy of your company.
Mumfun.......forgiveness is giving up all hope of a better past !!!!! OMG that's so unbelievebly sad.......or am I seeing it in the wrong way ?
Getting....I'm sure you regularly turn heads
I can't believe your h said that about not seeing the DC on 'your' weekend.
That's twuntism in it's purest form. What a wanker. I could shed a tear for your DS.
Yours too Happy, so nice though that the shop lady talks to him though.
I don't think I buy into 'midlife crises' and all that. I think it's an excuse for men to get some sympathy and attention as they they stop fancying their wives and can't be arsed with their DC.
Wish I could have the luxury of a midlife crises. My h actually told me he wanted to put himself first. 
my first biscuit.
People said to me at the time, he's probably having a MLC but looking back, nothing could have been further from the truth. He was happily and hurridly breaking the ties that he felt bound him and setting forth on an adventure of shagging and porn and freedom like a teenager who's leaving home for the first time. Midlife crises my arse !! Bollocks I say.
Patience......are you really coming ? 
We'll have a lovely day 
Sov......I LOVE that song, that was so nice.
Thankyou for that mahooosive hug Armbow, any relations I do have haven't contacted me since h left as my mother has comendeared them all (is that the right word ?) and has done her victim thing on. God knows what she says but whatever it is they take her word for it and choose not to contact me. TBH I wouldn't care if I never saw any of them again, they are not the caliber of relly that Mumfun has (glad you do Mumfun).
My friends on the other hand are bloody wonderful gems who really do love me as I love them and we have lovely times which are pure quality and though they all have big problems of one sort or another we are there for each other and the laughter flows.
Getting.......you really need to sit down and concentrate with no DC around to do the outgoing forms so wait till your DC are back at school. It's very detailed, it'll take you a good few hours but you'll feel better when it's done