Hello, hope you don't mind if I join in?
I could do with being a bit more honest with myself, before it gets too bad again.
I used to drink far, far too much and stopped. Just stopped cold, even though it was beyond hard. I did that because one night after drinking a bottle and a half of wine, I dropped my baby when I was picking him up from the cot. Not far and he wasn?t hurt, but it shocked me into actually recognising that I was in trouble. That was about 2 years ago.
But I'm slipping up or relapsing. I've got a hangover this morning after drinking way too much again last night ? almost 2 bottles of wine. There, I said it.
God, that?s scary to see it written down. I?ve got all these stupid rules. No drinking between Monday and Saturday, no drinking before 7.30pm, no this and no bloody that.
But that's the point, isn?t it? People with a normal relationship with alcohol don?t need all these rules. They just either drink or they don't. So it's time to stop again. No drinking at the weekend, anymore. I'm fine all week and then on Saturday, I?m like wheeee! But it's been going on for about 3 months now if I?m being truthful with myself, which I haven?t been. And it needs to stop, because I can?t go back to how it was before. I really, really can?t go back there. I can't bear having a hangover and being depressed and teaful and frightened again.
So I will lurk and read and draw strength from how you are all doing it, and come this weekend, I will just carry on with what I?ve been doing all week and not drink. That?s the plan, anyway.
Thanks for letting me get it out. You really are all inspirational?.