brave battling babes get even better without the booze!

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10 weeks ago i started a thread asking for help - i was in a very desperate place, totally dependent on alchohol, unhappy, lonely and floundering around trying to make sense of it all. i was in danger of losing everything i hold dear.

in those few short weeks, i have got my life back and picked up a few computer friends along the way - we help each other, support each other, and laugh and cry together - if you would like to join us, please feel free - no judging, preaching, sermonising or moralising - we are simply ordinary people with a bloody awful illness!

I am not the best person to answer that! mouse - you seem to know what you are doing!

Forthe

Type it in a post and I'll link it for you

Can I join in? I have been lurking for ages and in great admiration of the progress you are all making.

I've just been on holiday for 3 weeks and I think actually drank LESS than I do at home. More relaxed, not in normal routine, and I could have a glass of wine when I WANTED one ie at lunch or mid afternoon without DH turning a hair or me feeling guilty.

Back at home I am back in the normal spiral and I am fed up with feeling crap in the mornings - I am sure I am not giving my all at work - or at home for that matter....

DD's friends are signed up for a dance class starting next month and dd (6) wants to go too. It takes place at 10.30 on a Sunday morning.

Despite knowing that it will be a nice opportunity for me to have a coffee with the other mums, the thought of being up, dressed and out the door - and not feeling tired/hungover - at that time on a Sunday morning actually scares me a bit!

I have come to the realisation that if I am worried about doing stuff with dd in the morning at the weekend, that I have got to the point where this MUST stop.

Moomin, he's got pages and pages to read. Poor guy. At least it's not all about shoes and hair dye.

Haven't a clue, mouse.

On Friday I disabled by keyboard and every time I pressed a key, I got a very annoying theatrical squeak. I only sorted myself out by moving to the guest account. Literally the only thing I could do until I had a random guess at that was play internet bridge, because then I only needed the mouse and clicking. My ds is in the Med, and I have tried to call him to advise. Have the computer guy coming tonight to fix various things. He can make a laptop dance.

My name is Ftvlt and I am addicted to bridge and I advise none of you to ever go there.

I thought I had kicked it.

Welcome porto! I am sick and tired of being sick and tired also. Are you starting today? I can have a sobriety buddy!

venus - thankfully the posts are actually about the battle with booze as you said!

bridgedoctor.com

Tells you all you need to know. Do not go there. It opens a social life which involves talking about (really) the war, etc.

MIFLAW!!!!!!!!

WHERE ARE YOU?

Hello Portofino.

Well done for getting this far.

I'm on day 8.

mouse - Are you still keeping a note of how many of us are aboard? I think my list is totally out of date now!

Hi portofino. It is so easy just to get into that habit of opening a bottle of wine with everything, and then going on to have even more at the weekend because, well, just because it's the weekend.

I will not be drinking today. I don't know about 4 weeks time, but it starts with today anyway.

And there is something especially nice and refreshing about feeling sober and clean on a weekend morning.

Question for those of you in AA: Would it look really, truly awful for an obviously-pregnant woman to walk through the door? Or would no one bat an eyelid?

There are 2 English-speaking meetings here a week and it would be great to find some kind of non-drinking support network.

Not sure I have the nerve though.

Red

There is 28 on my list, from this and the last 2 threads.

Do you want me to post it?????

Forthe

Do you want me to link that bridge doctor?

Maddogs - do it!! I have been to meetings with pregnant ladies and it's all fine. Some of them had been sober for many years but they still attend meetings. And even if you walked into an AA meeting, pregnant and drunk you would not be judged there. You will get fantastic support. When's the first meeting you can get to?

I want to see the list but only if everyone's OK with it too!

maddog - no one would bat an eyelid!! they will just be pleased to see you!

Maddogs, I think no one else judges us as harshly as we judge ourselves anyway. And most alkies (including me) are notoriously self centred anyway, and may be too busy judging themselves to jusdge you.

For me being sober is about MY sobriety, not about other people's. I will shamelessly use others if it helps to keep me from picking up the first drink. But then I hope I have the generosity to give back at other times, or to simply share what I have experience and trust that it has meaning for someone.

mouse are you still about? Feeling awful again... Not going to pick up though - so no need to worry in that regard... So tired too - am looking forward to going to bed this afternoon!

Im here. xx

Stay strong.

Thank you. Just got to get through the next hour and then I can go home and go to bed. I have not really done anything work related this morning!

Yes I WILL start today!

moomin - look after yourself this afternoon, a good sleep and a decent meal will make all the differance

hello to portofino!!! nice to meet you!

MIFLAW I am going at 12.30. Any chance of hearing from you before then?? Maybe you are actually doing work!

mouse - i like the idea of our 'battle bus' , i think we will need a double-decker though! and definatly a loo on board!

That's great porto! We can do it - together!

Yes, I have not eaten anything yet today so I am looking forward to getting some food - soon!