brave battling babes get even better without the booze!

[jesuswhatnext]

10 weeks ago i started a thread asking for help - i was in a very desperate place, totally dependent on alchohol, unhappy, lonely and floundering around trying to make sense of it all. i was in danger of losing everything i hold dear.

in those few short weeks, i have got my life back and picked up a few computer friends along the way - we help each other, support each other, and laugh and cry together - if you would like to join us, please feel free - no judging, preaching, sermonising or moralising - we are simply ordinary people with a bloody awful illness!

Christi

Based on all you know about alcohol and its effects on you and your relationships, you're surely not suggested that a drink is that "something," are you?

You might as well look forward to a punch in the face.

christi, just went back and read your posts from earlier. Sorry don't know what to say, apart from repeating that drinking will not be the answer; apart from anything else, it's a bloody expensive habit!

Stay strong Babes.

It would be wonderful to pour that first drink. That first drink that you glug down. Ahhhhh. Wonderful. The warmth that you feel. The fuzzy glow as the alcohol seeps into your blood stream. The numbness. The stresses of the day ebbing away.

Then what?

Another, then another? Then the whole 'fuck it', Mastermind theory - 'I've started so I'll finish'?

Finish what? The glass, the bottle or your life as you know it. In the end, that is what this illness amounts to.

Take control. Beat this beast. We can do it!!! We can support each other. That is why JWN carried the threads on.

Support.

Sorry if I am speaking out of turn, but I refuse to give in to this. I am feeling very passionate tonight.

I'm not going to drink. but I just want to run as far away as possible and start my life over.

moomin, night...won't see you now 'til next week. Need lots of positive vibes, will be facing many of my own 'demons' over the next few days, and feel like a friendship hinges. That's cryptic for you, wish me well.
With liove

love

Mad dogs

genuine question - if you're going to start your life over anyway, why do you need to run away? Why can't you do it where you are?

maddog...sorry. look after you and your bump!

Taking a break now chaps.
LAter

Miflaw - because I hate it here. I'm so homesick, I can't look after my mum and whenever I make a good friend, they leave.

I'm not talking about looking forward to drinking. just looking forward to SOMETHING.

MIFLAW said it all much better than me.

maddog - are you on a military base? - i was living abroad when i had dd, it was very hard, but you really must keep trying and talking, you really arnt the only lonely woman there, i am willing to bet! join as amny clubs as you can find, take the class in whatever languague you need, i found that that was less isolating once i could at least chat in shops and things.

i do know that that we stated no preaching - in your case i am making an expection!!! you are PREGNANT - this little one didnt ask to come along!! now, get a grip and go and find something useful to do!! (end of nag!!, only doing it cos i care!! )

thanks miflaw - i have missed going to meetings this week - you are saying just what i need to hear right now!! thank you!!

Love how strong people are.

When you look back over the threads you can see how people have changed.

Mouse - you are like a different woman!

Stay strong people. i feel like a hypocrite after last night, but the answers aren't at the bottom of the bottle.

Maddogs - why don't you go and do some planning for your little baby - focus on the amazing thing that's happening inside you? You DO NOT NEED A DRINK.

You are totally right, Jesus. I do speak the language. But when can I join clubs when I'm working full time - in the evenings all I want to do is see dd for a little while and then sleep. I keep coming home from work in tears because I'm so exhausted. I know it's pathetic.

I do have friends that I have made through work and through climbing.

I'm not going to drink, don't worry, but without it I just don't know what to do with myself.

I know what you mean. I feel all shiny and new!

Sorry, I have scared everyone off being so sorry for myself.

Going to curl up on the sofa with dd and watch a dvd, and have a cup of chamomile.

Have to call my mum later as today would have been their wedding anniversary - maybe that's why I'm feeling so awful and guilty that I'm so far away from her.

Maddogs

You haven't scared anyone off and you have a right to feel sad and down.

I think what people are trying to get across - certainly what I'm trying to get across - is that, in running away (rather than walking) it's very easy to take some or all of your problems with you in the panic and haste.

Maybe it would be better in the long run to stay put, fix what you can, and THEN consider a move if it's still not acceptable?

Mouse - don't know what Shinyandnew would say about that :o

Maddog - enjoy your dvd and cut yourself some slack, pregnancy is difficult enough without this extra challenge.

MIFLAW - wise words as always!

Toclear - whoops!!!

Trinity - how are you tonight? Hope it's better than last night for you x

evening all...venus how was mil??
jwn did that girl that turned up at aa ever show again??? Don't know what made me think about her today, but it 'popped' in to my mind...

rest of you hope you're all sober, if not happy.

Hi guys. I don't know what to do with my future. I am so down. I don't know what I am doing. I feel completely useless. I have qualifications and work experience but that's not getting me anywhere, I looked for DH's job and there is NOT ONE SINGLE listing in scotland. It is ridiculous. The only retail jobs I can find are manager jobs full time and I wouldn't get that, no experince.

I can't move again. I have lived in 10 houses in three countries in eight years .I can't bear it. I can't bear it.

Feedback from job won't be any news or over a week. they think I'm best they've seen but want to cast net wider. Its HR saying I'm wrong. If i'd just said a couple of things different in the interview I would have got the job

christiana, sorry, didn't want to leave your post unanswered having read it, but don't know what to say to you. sorry.