brave battling babes get even better without the booze!

[jesuswhatnext]

10 weeks ago i started a thread asking for help - i was in a very desperate place, totally dependent on alchohol, unhappy, lonely and floundering around trying to make sense of it all. i was in danger of losing everything i hold dear.

in those few short weeks, i have got my life back and picked up a few computer friends along the way - we help each other, support each other, and laugh and cry together - if you would like to join us, please feel free - no judging, preaching, sermonising or moralising - we are simply ordinary people with a bloody awful illness!

Great idea Red things I'm grateful for
Today I will not be drinking
I do not have toothache
I did not snog v handsome dentist in gratitude
Its raining on my garden
I'm having curry for dinner
I'm meeting my good friend for coffee on Friday.

E-mail address again, from the last page, for whoever wants a list of contributors so they can keep up!!

[email protected].

Have emailed you mouse!

Lovely to hear what mouse and MissP are grateful for today. Anyone else?

Hi all, just got back from OB/GYN. Everything is fine with the baby, he is growing well. She told me I have put on too much weight and even though a) I don't agree and b) I don't care really it still made me feel like a big fat failure. Stupid really. I

I really don't FEEL pregnant. I know that sounds weird as I have a huge belly and gigantor boobs and have even seen the baby on US and he spends a lot of time somersaulting in my belly....I don't think I have really accepted that I am pregnant. Last time with dd was so completely different.

So I'm happy all looks ok but feeling really down. Also very self-centred, sorry.

Day 5 for me today and I will not be drinking.

Oh a gratitude list sounds like exactly what i need right now:

I am so grateful that the baby is healthy and growing.

I live in a country with excellent antenatal care, the best doctors, clean running water and medical care, and I can afford health insurance.

I have a job which enables me to support my family and a kind understanding boss.

I have a gorgeous incredible daughter who gave me a hug last night when i was sad and told me I am a wonderful mummy.

I have not had a drink for 4 days.

I'm sober
my kids are alive
I have very good friends
I have my health
I'm eating risotto
the sun has come out

Love it!!!

Keep posting Babes!!

I am sober

I am alive

I feel stronger than I've felt in a long time

I'm eating properly

My children are all happy

I have all of you here

Love Pay it forward, Mouse - will email you.

Things I am grateful for.

I found this thread.
I have 3 incredible children and a funny,kind,strong husband.
I have a home (with lots of projects to do).
My friends.
My sisters and SIL.
My family.
Bar of chocolate in the fridge that I'll have with a brew later.
This thread.

That feels good :)

Loving the gratitude lists Babes! So pleased that your baby is doing well maddogs

Oops, said this thread twice - shows how grateful I am

JWN - how are you? You are not being selfish, you are very strong and focussed which is why you are on 10 weeks. How are things going with your dd at the moment?

mouse - have emailed you back. Your name is sorted now!

Phew!

Thanks Toclear....... will reply in a mo.

Replied.

Cheers Mouse - there's such a lot of us!

Yes, and that's just the ones that are posting! Anyone else want to join us? (Hopefully no one has been scared off by the near-meltdown last night! Unfortunately that's what this illness is all about.)

redmoomin and algae-..hi thanks for replying! My 'recovery' as such has been a rocky path with a few relapses...but I have been sober for quite a while now...

Every day I remember the things I am grateful for, and I work on acceptance. it would be soooo easy for me to fall into the 'poor me' trap, to blame and be angry towards others, but at the end of the day, that just leads me to a drink.

Someone once said that we need to put as much effort into sobriety as we did into upkeeping our addiction...and for me that was hiding bottles, going to differnt shops, trips to bottle banks, etc etc.

Recovery can be hard...but the alternative is harder!!

Do you go to AA jem? Or have any other support?

I know what you mean about it being hard bloody work with the bottles etc. My God, the planning that went into it at times!

Hi, yes I go to AA, although my husband recently left, I work nightshift, (ie hard to get to meetings) and have been missing my friends, which is why I guess I dipped into your thread. However, things will settle down, everything passes.

I think RL support is invaluable..

Yes the upkeep of my addiction was exhausting...it was a sad and ridiculous way to live, and my family suffered, even though I couldn't admit to it at the time...however, I have made amends as best I can, and am sober and ok.. the past few years have led me to really look at myself honestly...it was really hard at first, but just be easy on yourselves, that's all I can say...and it IS worth it. The peace of mind i have now...I would never want to loose.

Day at a time and all that...don't give up any one of you, mu drinking was really bad...

x

Excuse typos, was at work last night and have not slept yet as I have the children.

Yes agree about RL support. I go to AA and could not be without it. (Sorry did you mean your husband has left AA or left the family? Have tried re-reading your post and still not sure - and want to respond appropriately and not stupidly!)

Sorry moomin, I am tired! My husband left me a couple of months ago...he has a massive drink problem...but won't admit it, but that is a side issue...I havn't been to meetings due to lack of childcare due to him moving out...daytime ones are good...but not in summer hols...etc...I will get back to regular meetings when I can.

I used to post under the name teasle, when I first started recovery, if anyone posted a few years ago!

Whereabouts in the ik are you? I am northern

UK, obviously, sorry, need to go beddies

I am so sorry to hear about your husband leaving. Although if he has his own issues with alcohol maybe it's good thing for the moment? (Obviously I have no idea about the whole situation but I hope that you are all coping well!)

I am also up North!

Aah that's ok moomin, best thing he ever did, I suppose I mean my life has been in flux recently...but then we all have crap to deal with don't we , anyway, how far north? I am Northunmberland border...bet you're just Yorkshire?!! he he